endure

#frustrate #frustrated #frustrating
I seldom walk anymore. Multiple Sclerosis has made my legs so incredibly heavy and spastic that even the thought, much less the actual act, of walking brings fatigue on in full force. However, feeling quite 'adventurous' - after a non-harmful fall no doubt - once I got myself together, I took about 2 1\2 - 3 steps to get back to my #lift chair. A #struggle it was indeed, but I was incredibly pleased with myself as I heavily plopped into my chair. The euphoric and prideful moment was short lived once my son pummeled me with his words down the tunnel of the three F's... He managed to #frustrate me by telling me that I should push myself to do it more often. I was so #frustrated because I fight everyday with this #chronic #degenerative #Disease to #endure pain and challenges in addition to completing the smallest of #tasks he doesn't even understand. How #frustrating it is to receive "encouragement" in the form of telling me, in the midst of one huge ball of #struggle to #push myself when that's all I do... #every single day! Btw, I'm still proud of my " #MS struggle steps"! ;-)

When the #Pain seems #Overwhelming
And it’s all too much to take
When the #waves keep breaking over and over
Every moment you’re awake
It might be helpful to understand
The rhythmic nature of waves
When the swells just keep on rising
In the refuge of now flooded caves
You reach out but just can’t grasp it
The rope of #Hope appears lost
And the sodden clothes you keep wearing
Are so tidal that they’re home for moss.
But if you were to look from the sidelines
From the #Safety of the shore
That even the biggest waves have to break –
You’ve got about 90 seconds to #endure .
Whether it be the valley before the wave
And the distance from bottom to top
Or the view as you crest up the wall of the wave
And all you #anticipate is the drop.
Or the churning motion when you’re slammed down
Into nature’s washing machine
And tumble-dry is the only option
As your lungs burn and scream
It will subside, it will relent
You won’t forever be reeling
Take courage my friend, because after all
A #Feeling is just that – A FEELING!
So observe it and surf it, don’t make a home in it
Because it wouldn’t be very mature
To spend a lifetime living bad #feelings
That only take 90 seconds to #endure .

#Anxiety
#Depression