ExhaustedAlways

Today is a crappy day. It started when I woke up and read the news. There, I read about the next Corona actions. Now, they are about to reduce our range of motion to 9 miles. Although I know that I'm not a big fan of traveling long distances because of my travel sickness, I got furious because of this negative news. I'm also afraid of more ordinances and more severe ordinances by the politicians, like curfews for example.
Just because of this negative news, I got sensory overloaded and I had a slight meltdown and a panic attack. Later, we cleaned the kitchen, and the strong smell of the cleanser caused a headache and a shutdown. My neighbors in the apartments next to mine and in the apartment above mine are always arguing loudly with their wives. Now, I am extremely drained and exhausted, and besides this, I have a headache, an upset stomach, I feel sorry for having a meltdown, a panic attack, and a shutdown in that same afternoon. I also feel sorry for getting rude and aggressive because of my anxiety attack and my meltdown. The only thing I want for now is just skipping the rest of this crappy day as it is sensory hell and unsurvivable for me. I even don't want to watch wrestling tonight, although I'm always looking forward to watch it. I don't know to cope with this crappy day. #Anxiety #AutismMeltdown #Autism #autismspectrumcondition #AutismShutdown #Drained #ExhaustedAlways #exhaustion #chronic Gastritis #Chronicexhaustion #IrritableBowelSyndromeIBS #SensoryOverloads #SensoryDisorder #SensoryIssues #Depression #PTSD #AutisticAdults #AutisticExhaustion #deadinisde #aggressive #depressed #aggression #Anxietyanddepression #AnxietyAttack #AngerManagement #Feelingsorryformyself #feelingunabletofunction #feelingdeainside #EmotionalBlackouts #mentalblackouts

i’m struggling so much right now because my work still has me on lay-off so i’m on unemployment at the moment but i haven’t received any money in months. i live with my parents but my dad won’t ease up on rent so i have to clean the house to pay rent. i have absolutely no money, but my dad just keeps telling me to do more cleaning so i can make more. but no matter
how much i rest i never feel like it’s enough. i am constantly drained and exhausted, and my body hurts everywhere. i get headaches/migraines constantly, and my joints ache and i can’t even get up some days. i don’t know what is wrong with me why i feel this pain, and i don’t know why i feel so overwhelmed even by a simple task. i am certain i have undiagnosed autism and to be honest i have felt burnt out for the past few months and i don’t know why. i don’t do much besides the cleaning and watching tv in bed. everything just feels like too much, i can’t go downstairs because the sound of the tv is overwhelming, ugh i just want to be left alone but i need to make money. it’s so frustrating my dad just keeps telling me “make a schedule for yourself and keep with it” yeah if it was that easy i would have been doing it thanks. my parents just don’t understand that it’s not that easy for me as it has been for them. they have spent 10+ years doing the same exact thing every day woth a perfect schedule that hasn’t changed since quarantine. they just don’t have to leave now. but for me everything has been thrown off and every single aspect of my life has been changed and i am having a hard time coping. this has been a long post sorry, i’m just so frustrated and lost. #Autism #ChronicPain #ExhaustedAlways

just in one of those moods. don’t really think anything is wrong but not happy or sad just kind of there. I was sad when I had to leave my bf place today but idk why. my chest pains have been bad for the past week haven’t been sleeping well still. think my body & mind is just drained lately. I have to stay home from work for a few weeks bc the dr is worried about the pains. I just want to feel semi normal again. #Drained #Fibromyalgia #InvisibleIllness #ExhaustedAlways #ChestPain #Anxiety #Depression

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After someone really close to me recently told me that they feel they cannot support me (despite them doing so for the past 5 years and they have helped me the most - and I do the same for them) because everything they do or say "turns to dust", and they said harsh and judgemental things, I am feeling at a loss for supports who understand how I process.

Everyone in my life struggles with mental health/and or physical health issues. I know that having a large support network is key, along with having people that are "doers, listeners, distractors". I have a therapist, but my sessions are almost up. I need someone who doesnt mind checking in with me every day and who has empathy and compassion. I have had enough tough love, people dismissing or demeaning me, ableist attitudes and responses. Im working through intense trauma, and finally need to focus on me. But my resources have dried up and I'm hurting, frustrated, feel silenced, and very alone. #Need support #needhelp #emotionaltrauma #emotional #ExhaustedAlways #Recoveryinprogress #struggling #seekingsupport #MentalHealth #FeelingAlone #Processfeelings #proccessingtakestime #processdifferently #needingvalidation #silenced

I feel it’s time to post as I’m feeling terribly lost. I tend to keep everything to myself but right now in this moment today I cannot. I need to know that this self hatred and these feelings of intense dread will pass. I’m newly diagnosed and while it gave me clarity today I am feeling very low and I don’t see a clear path. I was hoping people could help me by sharing that I’m not the only one feeling like this. This will pass. And I’m not the horrible person I believe I am today. Thank you. K #strugglingtoday #bpdempty #ExhaustedAlways

Today, I showered, did some work, vacuumed a room, threw in some laundry and I need a nap. I just hurt! My oral surgery is eom & I am ready but I have quotas to meet. Worried that all my relationships are falling away & that I really don’t have the energy for anyone.