forgive

Today's thought:

I have Gratuitous amounts of things to Be ashamed of, embarrassed of, and hate about myself. I could if I wanted to sit and think about all the worst parts of who I was everyday. That's not going to help me grow. I am a better person now, but one thing I still struggle with is getting out of my own way. I am my biggest critic, my worst enemy, my hardest hurdle.

However, I am also my source of solitude, my best friend, my biggest fan. That is, if I allow myself to be. I can be stubborn and like an immovable force sometimes, but today I'm choosing to get out of my own way. #today I #choose me. Today, I begin to #forgive myself and #remember how far I've come.

#WhatWillYouDoToday

#Depression #Anxiety #BipolarDisorder #BorderlinePersonalityDisorder #PTSD

My adult son spewed mean and hateful things to me. I had no idea he felt so bad towards me. I know I must #forgive . I will never feel the same way towards him.

Son said some very #hurtful things. I know I must #forgive him but the pain still remains.

Sorry about the caps.
I have a question; how do I "let it go"?????
You hear that a lot too?
"You need to let it go and...."
Ugh HOW???
People have said that my entire life.
"Letting go is like forgiveness, you do it for yourself, not them"
Okay...HOW??? To both things, how do I forgive and let go.
I have a lot of pent up resentment, and anger, it comes out in bad ways.
Worse when I am on PMDD.
Omg.
So, how do I get rid of it, or "Let it go"?
It's not like it is a ball, or rock, or broken toaster. It is in my frigging head and heart.
My mom accuses me of being mad all the time. YOU THINK!? Not only did you program me to belive that none of what I wanted was possible, but you also made me your care taker from the time I was 16!!!
How do I "Let go" of everything you have said and done to manipulate me into being your whipping child until you realized the one you babied and preened turned into an @$$.
This is the only place I know where I can find answers, so please, let me know how to let go.
#resentment #Depression #Midlifecrisis #anger #Grief #Pain #forgive

I am working with a therapist for this but I was wondering if there is anything that you all use to help you get through these horrible memories and leave them in the past. I have been doing EMDR with her and that does help some. I am just trying to get to leave the past in the past so I can enjoy my future

#PTSD #trama #ChildAbuse #forgive

I’m sry this is a lil long. I am 52 but the baby in my fam. 3 brothers and 1 sister who passed. One of my brothers who is the only married one said they considered me more like their daughter then a sister.
We were extremely close talked on the phone all the time sleep overs & vacations. I then got sick Lyme twice then diagnosed with fibromyalgia.
I unfortunately was not able to work any longer. I had loved working and loved my career. My company ended up laying off 90% of my department. I was absolutely crushed. At the time I had needed back surgery and ended up getting an anterior lumbar fusion.

When I spoke with my brother he felt that I could and should still work. He and my sister in law started saying that I should lose weight (which they had not known I has lost a considerable amount of weight)
Then they went on to say I should stop drinking which again because I had quit smoking due to the surgery I also stopped drinking.
They then said A LOT to me a lot of things that were out of line. They then proceeded to say the most painful thing to me.
Which was they hoped that I wouldn’t get approved for disability. Now at the time my husband was awaiting his disability as he was hurt on the job. So financially we were struggling. (Sry so long).

So fast forward 10 years I have been on disability and my brother and sister in law do not speak. They told my mother they do not know why we’re not speaking or why I’m mad at them. I think my biggest pet peeve of the whole thing is they said they looked at me as a daughter. Yet they never reach out. We have had a few special occassions were my daughter wanted them there, so we invited them.
They have never invited us to anything. I don’t want to be petty and want to do the whole forgive and forget but the question is I am worthy are they worthy of my forgiveness or can as I have my own family my husband and daughter. Write them off as I feel they did me ?
Whatcha ya guys think

#fibromyalgia #fibrowarrior
#fibrofighter #sickofbeingsick
#chroniclymediseaseawareness #lymesucks #LymeWarrior #lyme
#invisibleillness #spoonielife #chronicpainsucks #epsteinbarr
#ra #rheumatoidarthritis #ic/BPS #interstitialcystitis #ptsd #sciatica #pituitarytumor #nervedamage #ankylosingspondylitis #LymeDisease #LymeWarrior #chronicpain #chronicpainsufferer #ddd #migraines
#immunocompromised #forgive #familydisfunction
#InvisibleDisability #DisabilityBenefits #anteriorlumbarfusion
#LymeDisease #ChronicLymeDisease

Traumatic childhoods are always difficult to deal with. After years of therapy finally someone diagnosed me with autism and adhd. Without going into too much of my symptoms, I keep wondering if my family had treated me better, they would have spared me some trauma? if they knew that I wasn’t a ‘bad’ child but my brain worked just differently. I keep wondering if I there was a way to not go though pain since 40 years. What if my parents just paid a little bit of attention and I got a diagnosis. Would I be contempt now? Is forgiveness possible? #ADHD #Autism #neurodivergent #Misophonia #Depression #Anxiety #forgive #Parents

How can you forgive and forget family? They are bitter, rude, judgy, and do nothing wrong ( I do everything wrong) or always play the victims. I want to forgive them to have a family. My kids miss their cousins and my parents want their children to get along, but I feel like nothing will change or if it does it will only change for a small time. - What do I do? forgive and forger or move on? #forgive and forget