Earlier, I was at work. Lately, I have a different person with me every Monday and this week, I worked with a returning associate. He, like me, has health problems. Since it is not my issue to discuss in detail, I won’t disclose what he has, however, he kind of surprised me today.
Last time we worked together, it was prior to a surgery he had months ago and I had just completed my first 6 month round of Doxycycline for #LymeDisease . He shared his experience with me and I shared my experience with him. When I mentioned my anxiety, an issue I have had but has gotten so much worse and hard (nearly impossible some days) since the Lyme. He tells me to ‘just relax’. To most people, that’s great advice, right? Makes sense. Just relax.
How easy it must be for those who can calm and soothe themselves. It was hard for me to resist the usual ‘oh, wow. Why didn’t I think of that? Silly me. I’ll Just relax...because it just that easy.’
I never knew that even other sick people can be those ‘why don’t you just’ people. Am I being too sensitive? Does anyone else notice these people who think progress is as easy as saying ‘just’? I miss being able to calm myself down whenever I felt nervous. I miss having that kind of control over myself. I do wish it were as easy as saying just. But it so clearly isn’t. If I could calm myself, I’d be calm. Nobody chooses this.
#Anxiety #Depression #rant #MondayThoughts
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