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hi everyone!

i ended up opening the app by chance & saw the notifications to replies i never got 😭it was really heartwarming & encouraging to read them all because they were all replies to my piece on BPD. i had taken a break from writing because i felt like i was just annoyingly yapping loudly into the void & thought, “surely someone else who’s way better can write these thoughts”. i was also struggling a lot with surviving—literally. just trying actively not to die from both MIs and physical ones. it was not easy & i’ll write more on that later. but for expect some more pieces soon! i’ve recently had a really bad encounter with someone i thought was okay and safe but they ended up equating BPD to abuse and toxicity. i know that the demonization, misinfo & stigma has always been there. but i feel like as people are learning basic psych, they are picking up & wholeheartedly embracing Cluster B hate. i used to have my own bias that i’ve unlearned—it may not look like it to a lot but nearly a decade of trauma work is a LOT & you come out knowing a lot of stuff you wish you knew early. anyways, i will write more about
#clusterb which includes #BPD #BorderlinePersonalityDisorder #ASPD #AntisocialPersonalityDisorder #npd #NarcissisticPersonalityDisorder #HPD #HistrionicPersonalityDisorder because SO many people equate us with inherently being toxic and/or abusive when that is FALSE. so many people don’t know what “Mad Studies” (sub sect of “Crip Studies”/Disability Studies) are nor do they know what “sanism” is. they think fields like Psychology & Psychiatry can’t possibly be affected by bias or the same systemic issues that affect the rest of society. i mean look at the history of why CPTSD was created. again, i’ll cover this more in a piece i will submit soon…which i’m preparing to get hammered by hate 🤡 so here i go off to write my thoughts fueled by spite, trauma & all your support!
all the best
♡ x jazzy

Dad, you know the grass out back is really high, if it's not cut soon snakes may hide back there. You know Stephanie I think your right there is a push mower in the shed the key is on the wall in the kitchen why don't you do your father a favor and cut the grass. Daddy, you mean right now? Well Steph the grass is not going to cut itself. Well dad I have another suggestion, why don't you cut the grass?

Steph I am not asking you but I'm telling you go cut the grass. Dad but I am the one who told you it needs to be cut. Yeah, Steph thanks for reminding me. But dad it's 100 degrees outside today. Steph I will bring you the Gatorade cooler and fill it full of ice water. But dad, no buts Stephanie. But dad Roger comes home from college this week he is your son have him cut it. Now Steph you know roger will be tired from his trip and this is his vacation, you don't take vacations because you don't work. Now girl stop trying my patience and cut that grass and shut up about it before I get mad.

Dad you're not being fair, Rogers a boy and I'm a girl. This yard is like a quarter of the size of a football field. I feel you are trying to manipulate me. In the past Roger cut the grass. And you're trying to get lazy and not man up and cut this grass. Steph who you thank you talking to? Dad I can't do this you not the father I once had, Dad I'm 17 years old almost a full woman and I can go live with Aunt Sandy in Chicago and finish my schooling there. Steph you too lazy to get a job to get a bus fare. Dad Sandy gave me the money last year just in case you started trying to work me like your mule or something. So, I will be leaving tonight know questions asked!

Ever since mom died you been emotionally disrespecting me. Well dad that's it aint your little girl know more where you can just treat me like whatever. I'm done! And mom would just tell you to shut, hush up and you would do it to because you are just weak and spineless and now that she's gone you trying to be the big bad wolf.

Steph say another word and I will slap you in your face so hard. Dad, you know what, I don't love you anymore for years now so slap me, and I bet I will slap you back harder and knock you clean over that couch. Try me! Girl, you talking to your daddy like that, you got know respect I give you to 8pm you better be gone and if not, I'm throwing you out of the house, you good for nothing child. Don't ever come back here. Dad, you know what, you talk big, because when I'm gone, we both know you gone break down in tears, because I'm your only daughter and we know how possessive you are over your kids. It's no secret in this town. And I'm going to write my friends back and let them know that you ran your own daughter out of town and told me to stay gone and never come back! (What did you think of this story)? #bpdworld #BorderlinePersonalityDisorder #npd #DPD #Autism #ADHD #Depression #PTSD #OCD #BipolarDisorder

A poetic piece to guide and strengthen our intuition.

That ‘little voice’ that is always there, even when our minds are racing, chaotic, scattered, and in the midst of a storm.

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