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I'm terrified of ruining my relationship, but I don't know what to do. The last time we talked, he was drunk, and I tried to do something irreparable to myself. I need help so badly. I graduated and live in a small town, and I ended up sharing rent with my boyfriend and my brother. We all work in the same place. I don't make enough to leave, and the only place I have to go is back to my mom's. I'm so scared of driving away my boyfriend only to end up in the same place I started when I graduated. I struggle with severe emotions, anxiety, and avoidance. Does anyone else relate to numbness and emotional swings, and if so, how do you live around it? I don't know if I can keep going if I find out that I'm a narcissist. It's the worst thing in the world, and I don't know if I can take it. #npd #BPD #OCD #AvoidantPersonalityDisorder

I am here because I want to share my life experience with a wife who I believe grapples with ADHD. #ADHD #ADHDInGirls
#MentalHealth #PMS #OCD #BorderlinePersonalityDisorder #odd #GAD #npd #ChronicFatigue

What are/is the key difference between BPD and NPD? Thank you #help #npd #BPD

Hi - I am Artemis, and I have #BPD , #npd , #BipolarDisorder , #OCD , #ADHD and #Dyspraxia . I'm working up the courage to share my actual story, but just wanted to say hello and thank you warriors for always lifting up my day when things get rough. ❤️

I've met a few Machiavelic NPDs during my life, yet they receive a lot less rejection and are not feared as BPDs are. Is there a way to prove that BPDs are not NPDs and that the perceived danger regarding BPDs is only perceptual? #npd #BPD #CPTSD

I was raised by a narcissist mother with bpd and I think I have bpd tendencies now, along with codependency and c-ptsd (diagnosed).

I left home at 19 after being catfished by another narcissist before catfishing was even a term. It was 1999, and she had me in a relationship with a man I never met, relying solely on her for communication with him (via her ... astrally). She was extremely convincing. But I digress.

I skipped town and landed in the lap of another (worse) NPD -- married him, had a child with him, and barely escaped with my life 20 years later. He told me he'd kill himself if I left and a myriad of other threats which led to a suicide attempt on my part and eventually I left him while he was at work.

I'm now happily divorced, 41, living with my NPD BPD mother, codependent father, NPD BPD possibly bipolar (she isn't diagnosed because she lies too much and sells her medication) sister.

I'm moving in with my SO in another month or so and I share custody of my daughter, who is 8, and gets to decide with whom she wants to stay when she is 12.

My question is, after reading extensively on narcissism and BPD, how does one even begin to heal from this? How do I trust ANYone now, aside from my SO, with whom I've shared so much? I honestly don't know that I even feel anything for my mother or sister now that I know what true narcissism means, now that I see I'm so broken because of my childhood, and how hard it will be for me to begin to grow toward some sense of "normalcy."

So many jobs. So many relationships. So many misunderstandings ... and I still don't fully understand social concepts that come to other people as easily as breathing. And the worst part? Knowing that I might unknowingly be passing it on to my daughter... it devastates me. That is one of the only things left that pulls tears from my eyes. Eyes that used to cry endlessly for other people, people who used to scorn me, because they didn't understand why I cared SO much. Well, now I know, it was because my family cared so little for me.
What the hell do I do with that? #narcissist #BorderlinePersonalityDisorder #npd #narcissistpersonalitydisorder #Depression #codependent

Why am i jealous of every female on the planet. I am a 21 year old female. I don’t even think i want to be jealous it’s just an uncontrollable feeling and it goes against my beliefs sometimes but i can’t control it... If my boyfriend or whomever i’m with giggles with another female or looks her in the eyes too long i lose my mind. I feel like i’m damaged beyond repair. How can i start trusting people again? I have been tryin to talk to myself to remind myself that i don’t need to worry about things like that, also have tried catching my triggers before hand but it NEVER STOPS. I can’t get it to go away and when i see or hear a female talk it triggers my outbursts and i usually take it out on my boyfriend. #npd #BorderlinePersonalityDisorder #BPD #SocialAnxiety #Hypertension