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I know many people have experienced this. Some of us experience it more than once. Betrayal, unfortunately, is common. But its frequency, its commonality, never makes it easier for the individuals going through it.

However, I feel betrayed and deceived. I’m not sure which one feels worse. The one that is just the other person’s doing, or the one that involves myself not “picking up on the signs.” I’m very angry at the other person. But I’m disappointed in myself. And we know what’s often said about disappointment, it’s worse. Don’t get me wrong, I’m intensely disappointed in the other person. But the disappointment in myself hits differently, even if it’s technically not as intense.

I will be…I mean, I am being gentle with myself. I know the advice. I know it’s not my fault. I can forgive myself for what I didn’t know; for not having the tools or ability yet to prevent what happened. I was naive, which isn’t a “sin.” It’s just a state most of spend some time in early on in our lives. (Unfortunately, sometimes it comes with great consequences. So maybe I should just be mad at the “universe,” or “fate,” or something.)

I will be okay. I will heal eventually. I will end up with more peace of mind than I’ve experienced probably since birth, and have always desperately wanted. I greatly look forward to that. And, at this point in my life and development, I will know how to keep it.

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(Suddenly, I am finding more of MY words again)

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As you may or may not know, I use writing as a coping mechanism for my difficult times with my Bipolar Disorder. It’s not exclusively a coping mechanism though, I also write when I’m not struggling as I thoroughly enjoy it. The choosing of a topic or subject, the research on said topic or subject, the structuring of the narrative that you have created, then the tweaking of your narrative to make it more fluid, clear and/or comprehensible.

Here is a link to the Manifesto that I have started to write. There’s 3 parts so far and all of them are a work in progress, so if you have any ideas, comments, suggestions or anything please, please, please let me know in the comments section below. I’m receptive to negative comments too so if you have a negative opinion about my work then please do share it, I’m not going to be offended, I will actually be happy with it as it’s a great way to learn and improve 👍

The Sanderson Manifesto 📄

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My go to coping mechanism is to write. I write about my Bipolar experiences, the medication, random things, funny stories about my misdemeanours, songs, poems, and random thoughts that have no meaning whatsoever in life except that they have granted me some solace and happiness that has distracted me away from the chatter in my head.

I started writing about 4 years ago or thereabouts. I wrote a solitary word for the couple of hours I spent trying to get some more words down. I was determined to not let it beat me and the next time I was experiencing the difficulties of the Bipolar, I got the pad and pen out again. After about three or four attempts to get more words down, I managed to get a second word down. No connection to the first word, in the sense that they wouldn’t be next to each other in a sentence, but they were both equally good words. They were “Pathetic” and “Stop”. After the second word, the third and fourth came easier and then like a domino effect, the words were flowing. This prompted me to start putting the words into sentences, quotations and phrases. It was so therapeutic and took me away from my thoughts of nonsense and nothingness.

I wanted to put my stuff I’d been writing somewhere where it was all together and logged into a folder of sorts so I could read the random stuff I had written in years to come. I was not keen on using social media for the reason that it seemed like I would have to publicise the stuff to people I was friends with and I didn’t want to share it with anyone really. I googled my predicament and it proposed a blog site were I could create a profile and save my writings in specific folders. It was a great suggestion and it is very, very good for me and what I wanted. Also, when you post your blog you don’t put it in the face of your fellow bloggers, like on Facebook where you share something and then all your friends see it. If someone wants to read your blog and follow you, they can do so and it is their choice. They decide their level of involvement in the content and volume of your material they want to see.

I might be sounding like a bit of a hypocrite here but I have attached a link to a blog post that I have written about a random topic of ‘Paradoxes’. I definitely am a hypocrite thinking about it as I have self publicised myself and my blog.

But the purpose of this post is to offer you an insight into the option of using writing as a coping mechanism. It isn’t a requirement to write a bestselling novel or penning a literary piece of writing excellence. You just start where you are, then use what you have, and do what you can 👌

Paradoxically Speaking 

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Another coping mechanism I found was good for me, and really enjoyable was re-writing a narrative.

Fight Club is my favourite film so as I enjoy writing and reading, I re-wrote the narrative of the film using quotes from it.

Here’s a link to the blog I wrote. Hope you enjoy it, It was a great coping mechanism for me to write this and focus on something else other than my own chatter in my head.

Gentlemen, welcome to Fight Club.

Give it a go, and feel free to let me know what you think 🤔

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For years, I was stuck inside a body that flinched at the world.

I carried trauma like a second skin — invisible to most, suffocating to me.

I had served in one of Israel’s elite combat units, and I came home with wounds no X-ray could show.

The symptoms were relentless.

Panic attacks that came without warning.

A heart that raced even in silence.

A mind that replayed things I couldn’t talk about — and a body that refused to rest.

I’d lie in bed and stare at the ceiling for hours, wired and exhausted at the same time.

No peace. No quiet. Just static.

At first, I tried to outrun it.

Then I tried to numb it.

And then I broke.

But one day — I picked up a pen.

Not because I thought it would heal me.

Because nothing else worked.

Because I had nothing left to lose.

And something happened.

The page didn’t judge.

It didn’t flinch.

It listened.

The writing didn’t “cure” me.

But it gave the pain a voice.

It let me shape the chaos.

It taught me that stories can hold what bodies cannot.

That was the beginning.

Of healing.

Of reclaiming.

Of finally understanding that I didn’t need to be who I was before the trauma — I just needed to become someone honest about what I carried.

Today, my novel Dog — the book born from that pain — is being published in the United States.

It still stuns me.

I didn’t write it to impress anyone.

I wrote it because silence was killing me.

If you’re out there, stuck between symptoms and shame — I see you.

And I promise: the page is waiting.

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Hello friends, I’ve been working on many things lately unfortunately this app I don’t always remember, but I’ve been focusing on other apps besides the Meta platforms because I don’t like some of the chaos going on over there. I penned a blog this morning that is coming up in the next few days over on my website. Also, I did a podcast about a past relationship that is coming up on the 27th on my YouTube channel. I was involved in a Substack controversy which I didn’t go to Substack to be controversial. There’s been a lot going on in my life the past few days, but I’ve been getting through it and life is good today. I’m knitting and enjoying my coffee even though it is very fluently running through me. I’m also looking forward to St. Patrick’s Day tomorrow even though I do not drink anymore my current projects are in a green color way, which is beautiful since the weather is becoming warmer and I am making more and more projects with cotton yarn #knitting #Writing #lifeingeneral

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I started blogging in 2021 with the intention of creating a scrapbook if you will of all my thoughts and feelings about different things I have experienced and if my Bipolar had any influence on my perspectives and opinions. I found that writing was the best way to cope with my extremes of Bipolar as it occupied my mind and focused my attention on the writing and away from the nonsense that I had reverberating around my head. It started with only a solitary word that I wrote but I was thinking about the words and not the nonsense in my head. Slowly the one word became 2, which then became 3 and so on until I was writing full sentences. From these I tried to make a paragraph out of them and join them together as best I could as they weren’t really in a narrative that was comprehensible to understand. Since this I have written 27 songs about Bipolar and associated things that it brings. I have written 3 short books too. I’m under no illusion about these being any good or great pieces of work but I am proud of myself for doing it. I’m an example of how you can make a negative situation become a positive one. I don’t have the answers for anything about Bipolar Disorder but I do have some insight into how to deal with things that I can offer to help others. I have been a far worse person than most people, meaning that I can help others and relate with them in their journeys, as I’ve come back from the abyss and I can now tell the story of how I attempted to get out of it, and maybe even give someone a chance to do it too.

My blog is a collection of accounts of Living with Bipolar Disorder, explanations of the medication used, links to the 3 books I wrote, funny bipolar memes, quotes from a selection of people, a lot of philosophy of the great Alan Watts (someone I highly regard and someone I relate to completely), songs of the day, music polls, stories of my escapades and shenanigans, Fight Club influenced perspectives on different topics, I have actually written a narrative using quotes from the film Fight Club that forms a different narrative all on its own that I’m pretty proud of, it’s pinned on my home page so it’s the first thing that you see.

If you want to check it out then there’s a link below 👇🏼

livingthebipolardiary.wordpress.com

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I’ve attempted to write a book about my bipolar perspectives on life and living with bipolar along with my opinions on the world in general. I know that they’re not the best or the most interesting books to read but I have now written three books on the subject. They are all short in terms of what a book generally is but they are all about how I felt at the time. If you would like to read them I have attached a link below for you to download them off my blog. If you are interested in reading them I am very grateful for your interest 👌

My Three Attempts at Writing a Book 📖 🖋️📚

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I am a former teacher and somewhat new writer who covers topics related to mental health. Hello. Believe it or not, I have social anxiety and find writing sometimes easier--even though I worked in front of many people all the time. Dachshund fan.#Depression #Anxiety #Writing