hyper

Ok so I’ve been up and down for a few months now and tonight I’m really up. Had coffee today (three cups ) and it has fuelled my hypomania mood, allowing me to let go of the lows I have been feeling for the last week. My therapist said I should steer clear of coffee as I am so sensitive to caffeine, and my husband agrees - but I feel so much better when I’m efficient fun and good to be around. Although this is different - tonight I want to pierce myself ( my lip and septum ) not unusual for me when I have excess energy - but something is stopping me. I’ve communicated with my husband that I want to and that in itself feels like an admission of guilt!!!!! Am I growing up lol at 41? I’m better handling my moods and my responses to them. But that doesn’t rake away the fact that I’m looking for a buzz. Hence why I should stay away from buzzee coffee.
Halp!!!!!

I got diagnosed with Fibromyalgia at 14. I also have GERD/gastritis and esopogitis, chronic headaches/migraines and hyper mobility. Medication doesn’t work or I’m allergic to it. No one seems to get it and even my doctors don’t always believe me. I have depression and anxiety but we can’t afford the counselor that I really connected with. I miss my life…I feel like I lost my childhood and now there is no going back…how do you handle the pain, hurt, loneliness and depression every day. There is no cure.

Anyone else feel the same?

#Fibromyalgia
#GERD
#chronic migraine
#hyper mobility