Sad today
I know I have a lot to be thankful for. Most of my family was there today for our Christmas get together. My father’s in frail health but he’s still here. My brother’s met a woman he loves and wants to settle down with. These are good things, I know that. I’m grateful for that, I really am.
Things have just changed so much, though. Everyone was exhausted. Everyone was stressed. We were all putting on the best face we could, but times are tight and uncertain. Two of us in the room will be facing medical bills for surgeries planned early next year. We’re all struggling but doing the best we can.
I’m so tired of being stressed, anxious, and depressed. I hate that I have additional stress because I need medical care. If I could put it off I would. I’d wait for better times. It seems like I always pick THE worst time for things.
i miss how things used to be.
