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I get depressed and unhappy sometimes though I’m trying hard to change my life and do my best I often feel like a loser, I cry and feel negative though I try to be positive, my mom is often the same and worse than me, she struggles with chronic pain, I wish I could help her and sometimes I wish I was someone different a better version of myself, I put myself down and compare myself too much. I feel so lost sometimes :/ :( #selfcomparison #Comparison #loser #Depression #ChronicPain #illness #Health #Family #Parents #lost

When it’s sad it’s out of your control or you wish they would look after their health a little more push themselves to eat a bit healthier or exercise but they always feel awful and in bad health with many ailments especially my mom. And feel bad about the financial situation since my dad is the breadwinner and my mom got sick pretty young with heart disease and other things. My sister has Ulcerative Colitis etc etc #ChronicPain #mom #mother #Parents #Family #Sickness #illness #Health #eating #MentalHealth

Finding out I was psychologically abused by my parents has been one of the hardest things I've ever had to face. Setting boundaries with them was even harder. Finally, cutting them out of my life because they're too wrapped up in their own toxic mess has been heartbreaking.

The self doubt, shame and guilt that has come from this whole journey has been debilitating. I haven't wanted to go to work, I have barely been surviving.

Constantly thinking that it was all my fault and maybe if I wasn't around my family would be different or I'm a horrible daughter for treating them this way, for cutting them out, for not speaking to them.

I've still have a long, long way to go. For anyone out there struggling with this too, I'm not going to lie, it is difficult and it is painful.

But I wouldn't change this struggle for anything. I found my inner child and I am learning to cherish her. I have an imagination again, I'm laughing genuinely for the first time in a long time. And that is beautiful. #PTSD #Parents #Alcoholism #pyschologicalabsue #MentalHealth #boundaries

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I've finally told my mom that after considering, I plan to move with my dad, and said that it had nothing against her. She was offended, she even said it, too. Continuously guilt-tripping me with words like "I do everything I can for you, and yet you still chose him over me."

I told her to stop guilt-tripping me and told her numerous times that it had nothing against her. She acted like she wasn't offended and understood my decision, but as someone with autism and whose mother has been mentally abusive for most of my life, I knew she was deep down. She denied that she was guilt-tripping, and has even accused me of guilt-tripping her when I said out loud that I then wanted to kill myself (out of stress, disbelief, and not wanting to deal with the pain anymore). Not to mention that I was just looking for ways to kill myself three days ago because of this stupid society. She even said something like "how can you get mad at me when everyone else in the world does that" when I mentioned that she used to fat-shame me, shame me for not taking showers at times and compared me to others, etc... she even denied that she even MOCKED me because she thought that I was offended, when really I couldn't hear her the first time, and I told her that, too!!

I don't fucking care if she started to talk in a more understanding matter and was no longer offended and acts like she actually cares about me (like she does every fucking time we have start an argument), I'm not forgiving her for saying those things. At this point, she doesn't deserve it. One of my queerplatonic partners (not friends, but not romantic) is now pissed.. well, every one of my partners are now pissed at her at this point, and are very glad that I chose to move in with my dad instead of staying with her. She has never changed when it comes to my dad. I'm honestly very disappointed that she even acted that way. I'm fucking 21 years old, a fucking adult who can make their own fucking decisions, and yet she still hasn't changed. 😞😡

I already don't like my (older) sister very much, either, because I always feel like she gaslights me whenever we get into conflict as well.

#MyAutismIsNotADisorder #Anxiety #Family #FamilyAndFriends #GuiltTrip #SocialAnxiety #moving #SocialAnxietyDisorder #Disappointed #MentalHealth #WOW #Parent #Parents #mentalabuse #Abuse #Siblings #Gaslighting

I'm so just done with my home life. My mother and I aren't on speaking terms because of how she has been acting and she keeps trying to talk to me and I'm shutting her down because she is blaming me for the whole situation. I have a handful of people who care and believe me and no one else. I keep getting told by everyone to communicate but I keep trying to and I get shut down. What else can I do? I have been suicidal for four days due to my lack of support and dysfunctional parents. I have a cherry on top too! I'm sick and my therapist canceled our appointment today. #LGBTQIA #lonely #Trapped #Suicide #Parents

I can't live like this anymore. I need my friends..girlfriend....anybody #Suicide #Parents #MentalHealth

Children are like pancakes. The first one is always a bit weird. #Humor #Truth , no truer words at the moment..😆#sunday #Parents #Children Family is messy..