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Due to a medication accident, I had a seizure today. This was a crazy and scary experience. Thoughts and prayers for everybody #pills #AnxietyAttack

I can do tablets by smashing it up. It's the other ones capsule" pills i can't, so i cut and put the powder in my food. But it makes me sick. Anyone have that problem? I was able to eat some of my soup. #pills #TheMighty #MightyTogether

I am so silly. I thought I would renew my medical marijuana card. Now I’m thinking of canceling my appt., but I prepaid. I have had it two years and honestly I have not found the right edible for my insomnia or anxiety. I don’t smoke. So I really haven’t tried real hard to find the right thing because of the expense and not liking how the edibles make me feel. The edibles are mainly THC. I know it would be better for it to have a one to one ratio with Cbd. Anyway, So I always go back to the Lunesta or a benzodiazepine. I will lose my money and probably cannot get a refund if I don’t keep my appt., but I don’t want to drive 2 hours away either for my appt. I wasn’t aware that our clinic had closed here in town, which is where I went the last two years. I was hoping to get off of the Lunesta because I’ve been on it so long, and replace with something like the marijuana. Any advice? I just need someone that’s familiar with all of this I am dealing with to help me out. Please. 😢 #MedicalMarijuana #Cannabis #edibles #pills

I have attempted to overdose before. Waking up alone, realizing I was still alive then vomitting my insides out is not what I expected to happen. But it did. Unfortunately i know a lot of people have a similar story. I often think about overdosing again. Specifically on Xanax because it seems like it will be less likely to screw me over than any other pills I have acess to. But in planning it I realized I’m still not recovered from my last attempt. Physically I was fine and didn’t have any major deficits (that I know of.. I never got admitted anywhere). But mentally I don’t know. I never really took the time to examine it. I just put it on the back burner with all my other crap. I never processed through it but maybe cuz there’s nothing to process? Maybe cuz it happened a while ago. Or just cuz I see the issue as black and white- I tried to die, but I lived. End of story. Just black and white, simple. You know? Anyway if you’re comfortable, feel free to share any stories. About your physical or emotional recovery. I mean it’s probably not going to be of value to me I don’t actually know why I’m asking lol. I guess I’m just curiois to see if people had my same mindset of not going to the hospital and just pretending it didn’t happen and not telling anyone. Don’t mean to be insensitive I just take things with humor a lot or depersonalize.

#Depression #Suicide #SuicidalThoughts #BipolarDisorder #SchizoaffectiveDisorder #dissociativedisorders #overdose #Xanax #pills #DepressiveDisorders

for every frustrating comment that you have gotten on your chronic illness journey.
I'm hoping that if we can laugh at the comments, they'll be less hurtful.

I'll start: Yesterday my family had a guest over for lunch. I discreetly had my pills in a cup so I could take them with the meal. He leaned over the table to pass something and happened to see the 5 pills in my cup. Raising his eyebrows, he said,
"Vitamins, I hope?" I shrugged and nodded. Some of the pills were, but not all.
"So many??" He asked incredulously. "Yes, so many!" 😆
#Laugh #pills #RheumatoidArthritis #IrritableBowelSyndromeIBS #GastroesophagealRefluxDisease #Medication #hurtfulcomments #funnycomments #Depression #Anxiety #Scoliosis #PTSD #youdontlooksick #tooyoungtobesick #lol #ChronicMigraines #Migraines

I’ve always had a problem with my #meds I know I need to take them everyday, and sometimes I forget, assume I already took them, have double taken them, or #self-sabotage myself altogether because it’s the only thing left that would and can cause me to spiral back down a hole. It’s like starting all over again with #Medication working properly when it happens and 2020 had me doing it more often than I’d like to admit. I also would take them all at once, when some are AM pills and others are evening. It can be a lot when you take around ten to be a the best version of yourself with mental and physical issues. I haven’t missed a day, with correct time slots, in a little over a month and proud of that. I know some people might be like just take your fucking #pills I say it to myself as well, set alarms, etc. but the meds to help me also give me #BrainFog and forgetful. I want to thank my boyfriend as well for double checking before he leaves for work in the morning. He always has my back and has seen both sides of my good and bad days. It’s things like this that are hard to admit but maybe it helps someone out there who might be doing the same thing. #Youvegothis #Everydaystruggle #MentalHealth #ChronicIlless #Depression

Hello! I had my second psych appointment today. I've been back on my pills since the first appointment (less than a month ago) and it's going ok.

The thing is... For the first appointment she heard me a bit, asked why I was there (kinda there since all the appointments were through video call) and prescribed pills I took before and worked. Today, we talked about some a sleep problem I have since I restarted taking the pills, a bit of small talk, and she says for me to go back in October. In less than 10 minutes we were done.

I don't know if this is all in my head but shouldn't these appointments last a bit longer? A bit more productive?

Since I was never followed by a psychiatrist before, I'd really like some feedback on what these appointments should be like...

Thanks 😊

Pill after pill I trick my mind into thinking it's not ill. Every day I make the conscious decision to take only the amount I'm prescribed and ingest them like the packet describes. Every day I make the conscious decision on whether I die or stay alive.
These meds don't stop me from being sick, I'm a time bomb waiting to explode tick tick tick.
Most nights I stay awake contemplating if suicide would be a mistake not knowing how much more my fragile mind is able to take, scared I'll regret the decision I make.
I JUST WANT TO ESCAPE!

#BorderlinePersonalityDisorder #BPD #Medication #Suicide #MentalHealth #struggle #pills #Anxiety #PTSD