Don’t forget to feel
With years of therapy behind me, I often feel like I’m supposed to have the answers. Worrying about a mistake you made? Talk to yourself rationally. Balance those negative thoughts. Reassure yourself that things won’t matter in the long run, you’ve been through worse, no one will think less of you or even remember this incident. Everyone makes mistakes, you’re only human. All that CBT stuff.
None of it was working yesterday. Anxiety was swelling up, threatening to erupt through the positive self-talk, tears are about to flow…and then a breakthrough. “I just f-ing hate making mistakes!” I said it out loud and let the tears go. And suddenly I started to feel better. I am a perfectionist and hate making mistakes. You can try to talk me out of it all you want, but I still hate it. I had to acknowledge and feel that feeling before I could move on. Let myself break down, then work on putting me back together.
The lesson is, your feelings are valid. Even if they’re irrational, they are real. Acknowledge and accept them, and you can work on reshaping your thinking.
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