Man I love when you type something and then the app crashes so you have to type it all again.
Ear infection is getting better :D no more discharge, just hearings gone but I’ve got 2 days on the antibiotics and I’ve looked up how long it can take for it to come back and it’s up to 4 weeks apparently. A helpful warning so that I don’t get frustrated after only one week. Oh for a few days I did have extreme lightheadedness but this was at the start of the ear infection snd it’s worn off now so I believe that was another part of it.
Back has been in pain. Leg wanted to start up too but thankfully the sensation that I get when the pain is starting up didn’t stick around.
Chest pain but not sure if it’s actual chest pain or skin irritation pain as I was wearing a new T-shirt for a few days which has been a bit of a sensory attack at points (it’s got glittery thread in some of the logo, which is a no-no for me in socks but never had with a T-shirt before so gave it a try). Rubbed sudocrem in it and the T-shirt is in the wash now so hopefully will find out if it was irritation or not.
The narc came back into my life. I wasn’t perfect with them and I apologised to them after my past few Bible plan readings making me feel the need to apologise, and long story short they apologised and still wanted to be friends and I agreed because they phrased it as so I didn’t have to avoid our friends if they were with him.
I can’t tell if they’re actually a narc or not. They have all the signs but they apologised about their behaviour and like to own being narcissistic, both of these things narcs don’t tend to do. However our friend said that they were a narc and they deal with one every day and have done for their whole life, whereas I only whenever I hung out with the previous narc and only for two years.
Anyways, they’ve been kept at arms length until today. They initiated a conversation and it ended up like being the old times. It was nice, but afterwards I looked back after absentmindedly noting some red signs in my head of his previous behaviour (when they came up in conversation, I tried to get them to pass as quickly as possible by not engaging in talking about it, and I also tried to remind him what we had agreed on when we first started talking again, but he didn’t seem to care which I guess makes sense when he’s not the one that would hurt).
As a result, I’m not sure if it was him genuinely wanting a conversation or if he had other intentions. I’m leaning towards the latter though, and it sucks. I’ve been told I’m too nice before so it just opens myself to hurt. How he acts the next time I talk to him will tell me whether he had good intentions or not I guess and I can go from there.
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