Infection

My mental health has been better. There’s times when I struggle, but I’m trying my best to stay upbeat. Doctors have finally decreased my meds after I took it into my own hands and decreased it myself.

One thing I forgot to mention here was that I had a torn tendon 2 months back. I’m fully recovered now, which naturally means I’m getting tendon pain in the other foot and felt it trying to tear itself/ it would have if I didn’t have such a short distance to walk on that day.

I had bad news at my second post-op appointment. I was told I had an ear infection. It’s thankfully cleared up now, but it meant another two weeks of 3x a day drops, which didn’t really work with my lifestyle. Now it’s just the anxious wait to find out if it’s caused my op to fail, as they were worried.

The sinus issues have been bad. I wasn’t symptomatic last week, so I stupidly didn’t take it when I should have and I’ve paid for it this week where nothing is getting the migraines under control.

To be honest, I’ve been getting tired of taking medication. I’ve been taking them every day for almost 10 years now. I don’t remember a life without them. All my teenage and adult years, I was taking them. I hate that I can’t just simply go to sleep when I’m exhausted, I have to take my medication and make sure it’s the right amount of tablets for the right medications. And I’ve had 3 new medications added in the last few weeks, so it is getting tiring. But I simply can’t exist without them, I’ve seen what I’m like without them.

My chronic pain has been worse. And with my refusal to take painkillers unless absolutely necessary, worsened by the whole medication issue, I’ve been struggling.

#ChronicPain #EarInfection #Infection #Pain #Medication #Medicine #MentalHealth #sinusitis #Migraines #Postop #Recovery

Dear life, when I asked if I could feel any worse, that wasn’t a challenge!

The antibiotics definitely aren’t working, and the side effects have me feeling worse than ever before.

How awful I’m feeling makes me want cuddles but I only saw my boyfriend yesterday so I’ll just have to wait it out :(

#breathlessness #nausea #heartracing #Dizziness #lightheaded #antibiotics #SideEffects #Fever #Sweating #lossofappetite #illness #Infection

Got the COVID test result today and it’s unfortunately positive. Very weak (can’t support myself for long), fatigued, achy, sore throat and a cough.

As a result of having COVID, I can’t take antibiotics for the infection I have in my gum (dentist asked me to send a pic of it, and said it was probably an infection but obviously couldn’t say it definitely was). Taking antibiotics would rid my body of the good bacteria and I’d be basically worse off. So it’s just a matter of waiting.

Thankfully it does appear to be getting better on its own. It’s probably TMI if I go into detail, so I’ll just say yesterday I was able to eat some food on the side that hurts AND I managed to wear my retainer at night. The day without it worked wonders (it was irritating it so I didn’t wear it for a day, I had asked 111 about it and they said it was fine otherwise I’d have worn it anyway).

#Infection #COVID19 #positive #weakness #Pain #Fatigue #unwell #Dentist

So I was going to call the dentist yesterday, but that soon changed when I woke up in the morning and found out I had been in close contact with someone who tested positive for Coronavirus.

I say woke up, but in reality I didn’t get any sleep. It was the time everyone else woke up. Needless to say though, I was struggling staying awake towards the end of the day.

Anyway, I’m also symptomatic so today I had a COVID test (had one sent so had to wait) and will have to wait for a result. If I do have it, my symptoms aren’t that bad but enough to make me feel a bit under the weather.

Tooth issue on the way to being sorted now anyway. Spent yesterday fighting between 111 and the dentists but thankfully may have a resolution today if they get back to me.

#COVID19 #Infection #illness #symptoms

Man I love when you type something and then the app crashes so you have to type it all again.

Ear infection is getting better :D no more discharge, just hearings gone but I’ve got 2 days on the antibiotics and I’ve looked up how long it can take for it to come back and it’s up to 4 weeks apparently. A helpful warning so that I don’t get frustrated after only one week. Oh for a few days I did have extreme lightheadedness but this was at the start of the ear infection snd it’s worn off now so I believe that was another part of it.

Back has been in pain. Leg wanted to start up too but thankfully the sensation that I get when the pain is starting up didn’t stick around.

Chest pain but not sure if it’s actual chest pain or skin irritation pain as I was wearing a new T-shirt for a few days which has been a bit of a sensory attack at points (it’s got glittery thread in some of the logo, which is a no-no for me in socks but never had with a T-shirt before so gave it a try). Rubbed sudocrem in it and the T-shirt is in the wash now so hopefully will find out if it was irritation or not.

The narc came back into my life. I wasn’t perfect with them and I apologised to them after my past few Bible plan readings making me feel the need to apologise, and long story short they apologised and still wanted to be friends and I agreed because they phrased it as so I didn’t have to avoid our friends if they were with him.

I can’t tell if they’re actually a narc or not. They have all the signs but they apologised about their behaviour and like to own being narcissistic, both of these things narcs don’t tend to do. However our friend said that they were a narc and they deal with one every day and have done for their whole life, whereas I only whenever I hung out with the previous narc and only for two years.

Anyways, they’ve been kept at arms length until today. They initiated a conversation and it ended up like being the old times. It was nice, but afterwards I looked back after absentmindedly noting some red signs in my head of his previous behaviour (when they came up in conversation, I tried to get them to pass as quickly as possible by not engaging in talking about it, and I also tried to remind him what we had agreed on when we first started talking again, but he didn’t seem to care which I guess makes sense when he’s not the one that would hurt).

As a result, I’m not sure if it was him genuinely wanting a conversation or if he had other intentions. I’m leaning towards the latter though, and it sucks. I’ve been told I’m too nice before so it just opens myself to hurt. How he acts the next time I talk to him will tell me whether he had good intentions or not I guess and I can go from there.

#NarcissisticPersonalityDisorder #narcissism #Friendship #ChestPain #Infection #EarInfection #Hearing #BackPain #ChronicPain

Saw #Doctors today, they have no clue as everything was fine. Suggested #Costochondritis , #Asthma , musculoskeletal injury or #Infection .

Said to call if things got worse and would prescribe antibiotics if so.

Feeling pretty terrible today. Didn’t get much sleep last night so went back to sleep after appointment and woke up sweating w/ no fever. Been sweating since then and have a headache and have had two episodes of chest #Pain .