DryMouth

I’m anxious. I’m leaving in an hour to go to the hospital for an urgent MRI on my brain. I’m having the MRI at 10:30pm. The symptoms I’m having, of course, are scary in itself and the fact I need to go now, but that’s actually not what is bothering me the most. Covid is pretty bad where I am right now. The hospitals are over run with Covid admissions and they are trying to make as much room as they can by sending patients to field hospitals and anywhere else that there’s room. I’m pretty much walking into a burning building as far as infection goes because the one I have to go to is one of the worst out breaks in my province. I can’t have anyone come with me for support so my husband will drop me off and wait the few hours in the car. If anyone has had a brain MRI, it’s more terrifying than most MRIs because you have to wear a cage-like contraption on your head/face while you’re already trapped in a tiny space for up to 60 minutes and you can’t move. I’m hoping I won’t have to wear a mask inside the machine as well. The last time I had one done 5 years ago, I was able to take an Ativan to calm (and it was still scary!). But this time, because of my symptoms and blood issues I can’t take anything. I’m have terrible coughing spasms (not Covid related) so I don’t know how I’m going to manage that when I’m not supposed even move. I think this is warranted anxiety, but obviously still unpleasant. My parents had to take my dog to look after her for me for a couple days, so I don’t have that important support. My cat is wonderful but she gives love on her terms only lol 🤷‍♀️ Any kind words or wishes would be appreciated ❤️💕💪 #Anxiety #BipolarDisorder #ADHD #PTSD #EatingDisorders #SensoryIssues #InflammatoryBowelDiseaseIBD #Allergies #SinusTachycardia #Hypertension #GastroesophagealRefluxDisease #ChronicPain #Nerve and joint pain #geneticblooddisorder #chroniccough #nausea #involuntarymovements #rashes #Fatigue #AutoimmuneDisease #DryMouth #Nightsweats #Endometriosis #kidneycysts #OvarianCyst #enlargedlymphnodes #Virus #Infection #CannabisCorner #MedicalCannabis #Isolation #Loneliness #nightterrors

So, sorry for not posting in a bit. I just haven't had it in me to do much of anything but watch FB videos and sleep.
The #cymbalta is having a few more side effects, #DryMouth is the biggest. My #Nightmares are getting to the point that I'm afraid to sleep at night. The #Insomnia is killing me. My husband is getting irritated, but trying to not get angry. Still having some bickering, though.

Good news is that I got a Recovery Mentor position at my local mental health community resource organization. I've been applying for years and this was the 3rd interview for 3 different positions. I also applied today for my Peer Specialist Certification Classes. Then I would have to take a test to get officially certified. I am hoping I get in. Otherwise, keep trying.

Was supposed to clean all day. Definitely did not. Laying in bed with 2 cats, a 2 liter of cherry Coke, and donuts. I'm pretty much laying my life away. This isn't how I want my life to be, but I can't seem to get out of this 7 month rut. I've tried so many things and I'm just out of steam. I don't have much in me to do anything but hold on. So, that is what I am doing. Just #holdingonbymyfingertips .

Hope you guys have a good weekend!