Sometimes I feel like a failure because I’m constantly comparing myself to those more successful. It’s like I have this goal in mind, my dream career, but my fear of failing keeps me from acting on it. Because of this, I go numb. There are other things in my life exasperating this, like a recent break up, having to move back home because I couldn’t afford to live in the city on my own.
This numbness is so debilitating. Like I have a head on my shoulders that’s as empty as can be. I don’t feel anything, I shut down, I push people away, and I sit here trying to force myself to feel something again, to be able to think without a dreadful black cloud blocking out my thoughts.
Then I realize, I’m my own worst enemy. For as long as I allow myself to feel this way, I’m only hindering myself. But how do I beat it? #numbness #DepressionSigns