social interaction

Hello everyone.
I recently lost my mother. She died a few months before my wedding and I hadn’t seen her in almost 3 years due to COVID. We were finally going to see each other when she came for my wedding but she suddenly passed away. It was shocking and has been very hard on me. She was my best friend and rock.
I am not too close to my in laws. My mother in law and sister in law drive me crazy and they don’t understand the grieve I have. I don’t want to do things/hang out with them necessarily right now. I want to focus on myself and do things that are good for me.
My therapist does not thing it is a good idea. She says that I need to hang out with them because the main reason I am not is because I can’t stand them and it’s not fair to my husband. In my head, I cannot be around people who stress me out or where I am not going to be happy. I need time. I was recently put on depression/bio polar medication.
My therapist made me feel like a bad person because my husband has put up with my brother that gets on his nerves. I think it’s different given that I am grieving and am not in the right head space.
What are your thoughts? Should I get a new therapist?
#Grief #Depression #SocialInteraction

OK. This is probably weird but I am giving it a try. So say you are going to a place, any place, doesn't matter, and you can't bring people or pets, so you have one item you are allowed to bring with you. What would your special item be? Have some fun with this, I hope! #Friends #Friendship #friendships #MightyTogether #MentalHealth #FamilyAndFriends #New #lonely #alone #NoOneFightsAlone #StrongerTogether #Together #SocialInteraction #social #wellness #EmotionalHealth #Health #relate #Chat #Share #post #safe #SafeSpace #Connections #Positivity #positive #Fun #Mindful #Mindfulness #Kindness #ActsOfKindness #ActOfKindness Self-esteem Self-worth #self -love #Confidence #Life #Lifestyle

...realised, that the german phrase "wie geht's?" (how is it going?) often doesn't NOT mean "how are you doing (feeling)?". For example it could mean something like "how are you getting on with your assignments/to-do's?".
Germany is my mother tongue and I always lived (and still do) in Germany.
#SocialInteraction #Neurodiversity #teenager

I got a chance to talk to a friend I haven't spoken to in a while. It was much needed on my part, even though she was the one who called to vent. I just felt relieved that I hadn't lost her friendship in spite of my own negligence in contacting her. Isolation is my go-to when my mental illnesses are acting up, which has been almost non-stop for the last two years.
#SocialInteraction #uplifting #Isolation

I’m undiagnosed but I feel like I have social anxiety. Many, many times in the past I have been in group settings or in a social space with people that I am unfamiliar with and just completely shut down. It’s not out of choice. I’m literally in my head SCREAMING at myself to speak but at the same time I feel totally alone, isolated, trapped, tired, drained, judged, worried about saying or doing the wrong thing. I feel out of place and very overwhelmed. In recent years after quarantine, this problem has seemed to lessen as I realized that much of the reason for this feeling was my own lack of self confidence and self love. I thought little of myself so why wouldn’t anyone else think little of me as well? All through quarantine I worked on it and walked out a new person, Now I am much more social in group settings and I don’t really care or even think about anything going wrong when I speak; but today? Today I attended a school event where there was food, music, loads of people, and good vibes. I assume that it’s because I attended this event alone that those feelings of being overwhelmed all flooded back. I’ve gotten pretty comfortable with being alone but I overestimated how much having one person I’m comfortable with truly makes a difference in how public and social events such as this affect me. I’m usually able to just latch onto an aquaintance for a sense of comfort but today there were only 2 peoples’ presence that could’ve made a difference and they didn’t come. To everyone at the party and to anyone in the past, my behavior at this point looks purposely standoffish. ESPECIALLY to my mother! But even today when I told her that I was overwhelmed, she heard what I said but didn’t comprehend what I was saying. Her first instinct is always “what happened, did anything happen?” Instead of “are you okay, what are you feeling?”. Even with those alternative questions it’s hard to truly vocalize what this feels like to people who don’t experience it, especially in households where they don’t take mental health seriously and instantly sub categorize your feelings into something less meaningful like “tired” or “lazy”. And it’s ultra annoying when they try to compare their experiences to yours when you know it’s not the same. I’m not putting down anyone else’s experiences but the anxiety that comes with hyperventilating, shaking, intrusive thoughts, crying, extreme worry, and hopelessness is VERY different from simply being nervous in a stressful situation. (I only say this because my dad often tries to match my level of anxiety which causes him not to understand the severity of what is going on in my head)

I just signed up for a couple of workshops that I was interested in doing. Thank you for sending out these emails. I’m excited to spend some relaxing time with other mighty people. 💖 #MightyEvents #BorderlinePersonalityDisorder #Anxiety #SocialInteraction #CreativeOutlets #Depression

To me, the best results in society come when they’re not forced! I often have to self reflect myself, because I don’t want to become the same controlling person, as I feel can be to me. When rules become so technical, it sometimes can negatively affect people with disabilities and difficulties in life... Being as understanding as I can be, is very important to me, and my patience has been tested at max this past year! What does it matter if someone doesn’t think the same thing as you? Believe the same thing as you? Have the same outlook as you? IMO it doesn’t! Not to mention, just because I have issues in life, doesn’t mean the whole world has to cater to me. As long as people aren’t directly hurting you or others, why would I be angry. Tolerance and being a decent person go hand in hand. Just some thoughts I get that causes my social anxiety to go up... #SelfReflect #FreeThinking