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    #discouraged #Fibromyalgia #small fiber neuropathy #Migraines #Arthritis #Endometriosis #toomanyotherissues

    Received a letter stating that my disability has been denied yet again. I don't understand why this keeps happening bc there is just no way I can work....I live day to day and sometimes hour to hour bc of all the issues and pain and fatigue I deal with....guess I will just keep trying

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    Fear that I'm not really ok...

    I was diagnosed with #POTS 2 1/2 years ago, and have been living with symptoms for at least 7 years. For the first 2 yrs after my diagnosis, I was stuck with a doctor who clearly wasn't putting in much effort to help me, so I saw no improvement at all. I now have a great doctor that I love, and his treatment plan was so encouraging, but I'm currently pretty #discouraged because since January I have had covid and walking pneumonia, therefore I've had a big setback. I'm so tired of feeling bad ALL the time. I have 2 young kids, and I feel like my lack of ability to participate in things with them is wrecking their childhood. I also have always been a big worrier, so even if I've dealt with certain symptoms before, if they are really acting up, I get afraid that the doctors missed something, and I'm gonna die. I just need a community that understands and that can reassure me that my symptoms are normal to my condition. #mentallyexhausted #sotired
    #heartflutterssuck

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    #discouraged #overcome #Strongerthanmyillness

    I have always always tried my best and succeeded in using positive thoughts process to overcome whatever battle is going on in my life at the time. This one has me stumped, I'm so confused and unsure and scared and upset and I wanna make the pain stop and I don't know how to anymore and I have no one in my life who cares to help pick me up yet I'm always the one there to pick them up! I jus wanna quit, Im feeling not so strong anymore and my only wish is that it pass soon!!

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    #DID #osdd #CPTSD #discouraged #worthless #Christian

    It’s going to be Sunday in about 2 hours and 45 minutes. Anyone have any particularly inspiring Scriptures that are on your heart at the moment? My go-to “You are fearfully and wonderfully made” just isn’t doing it. Maybe fearfully but certainly not wonderfully.

    I’m worried as I post this that everyone is going to be scared of me and think I’m like Sybil or Split or any of those other terrifying movies that I refuse to watch. Or think I’m possessed by demons and need to be exorcized immediately. Please no comments of that type or anything else judgmental.

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    I just want to feel I have a Purpose in this world besides being a Mother & Wife 😢😢

    For quite some time, I have been feeling like the world is rejecting me & doesn’t want me to have a purpose in this world. For Heavens sake I’m 40 years old, when the H** is my life purpose going to go somewhere!! I know I have Screwed up Soooo many times in my life & have blew soooo many opportunities that I unfortunately can’t go back & change, as much as I would love to & would give anything to go back & change things & I Regret it every second of Everyday.

    I’m beginning to wonder if there is still any hope to hold onto….Over the last 2 months I have been meeting with my supported employment worker & she is supposed to be helping me work towards becoming a Mental Health Attendant Care Worker or a Mental Health Youth Care Worker but to be quite honest, it’s just not moving fast enough…which is piss poor on her part because she’s supposed to be working on my resume & getting it all set up but Still after Several weeks has yet to finish it so I can start applying to Mental Health agencies to be an Attendant Care Worker or a Mental Health Youth Care Worker.

    All the while, I called a woman’s battered shelter & asked to volunteer there to help other women gain stability in there life & mentor & be an advocate for other women who have been in the same situation as me & have suffered trauma. But sadly, I have yet to receive a call back & it’s been over 2 weeks since ive gotten in contact with them inquiring about a volunteer position. I’m to the point of being done waiting because obviously they don’t want me or else I would have received some type of phone call….I can’t express how discouraging all of this is….

    It’s like this world has a force against me & doesn’t want me to succeed. Maybe I don’t have a purpose in life. I feel like this is All my life is going to be is a wife & Mother….Not that, that is a bad thing. I Love my Girls More than Anything in this World but I also need to do something for myself that makes me feel good about myself & that will keep my mind busy & improve my mental health & depression & keep me from constantly being in my head & get out of my husband’s hair. I feel like I’m driving him insane & making him miserable. Although he says I’m not…..I wish I could believe that.

    #Feelinglost #WhereisMyPurpose #discouraged #BarelyHangingOn #losinghope #Depression #BorderlinePersonalityDisorder #PastRegrets #PTSD #Anxiety

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    COVID custody #Kids #Care #Divorce #Pain #Loss #COVID19

    You try to do the right thing for your kids. You have a house. You get a good job. You provide for their care.
    Then Your wife moves in with her boyfriend and your world is turned upside down.

    Per court order, visitation rights are almost 50/50. I work in healthcare and my work schedule is not typical. My shifts are set on a rotating schedule to where I work three on two off two on two off, etcetera. Basically it means that, although I want him on my days off, i felt my son would benefit from a more consistent schedule to where he wouldn't have to be bounced around from house to house as frequently. So a plan was made to have him stay with one parent one week and the other parent the next week.week. I would still be able to drop him off to school before work and pick him up after work.
    Your spouse has the right of first refusal.

    COVID19 hits

    Your spouse is accommodating to your schedule and takes the right of first refusal while you are at work. This 'accommodation ' comes at a price, however. Not only do you not see your kid during that time but you pay for the privilege. You get a new order for custody that gives that time to your spouse . So that would mean that even if I get called off from work,I would still have to drop him off in the morning to his mom's house and then pick him up in the afternoon. This defeats the purpose of not being bounced around from house to house. Not only that, child support payments go up as well.
    Now I do not mind the support payments as much as His bouncing around all the time and the time with and custody of my son. I am screwed for trying to do what is best for my son. I am defeated for doing the right thing.
    This divorce was supposed to end before COVID struck but it kept dragging out by lack of response from settlement offer back in 2019. As a result, my child suffers, and I am screwed in Child custody, financially, and emotionally.
    #sad #powetless #discouraged #frustrated #Defeated

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    Discouraged

    I am discouraged today. I feel empty and exhausted. #discouraged #BorderlinePersonalityDisorder

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    No light at the end of this tunnel

    Not sure how much more of this I can take. There is zero light at the end of this tunnel. I don’t see how it will ever get better anymore. I’ve watched (my husbands delusions) just progressively get worse and worse to where now he always thinks I’m cheating or doing some mystery floor drug or throwing hand symbols or smiles to someone in the closet. Like there is no relief from it. And from everything I read, it appears as if the only possible reprieve is the right medicine combo or pill. IF there even is one that will work on him. As it stands, this is my life now and for forever other than the medicated relief we MAY (or may not) receive that could POSSIBLY help him have less delusions. So this is it. This life as I wait for him to leave me or wonder off again anytime. The man I married is gone and I have no hope of seeing him again. Even when he’s himself, he is tainted with confusion and guilt when he realizes how he acted or what’s going on. But he is so much more often not himself these days. Where is my hope? Where is my drive to wake up tomorrow? (And to think all this while having to ween off my own bipolar meds!) #DelusionalDisorder #Depression #Bipolar #Delusions #hopeless #sad #discouraged #disheartened

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    I can't seem to do anything right...

    Not sure whether to sob or scream. Exhausted. Overwhelmed. Anxious. Scared. Pressed for time. High stakes for all the things I need to do brilliantly, but I can't seem to get any of it right. I need mental, emotional, and physical rest, but I don't even have time to pause for a badly-needed nap... #overwhelmed #Anxiety #exhausted #needsleep #failure #sad #discouraged #Depression

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    No diagnosis frustration-help please!!!

    Someone please give me some hope, or reassurance or encouragement. Im so beyond frustrated and sick of being told everything is "normal" and its nothing and I just need to see a psychiatrist.

    Im not stupid, I know myself and I know my body and everything is NOT okay!

    I saw an internal medicine specialist today and it was just such a waste and so frustrating because they seem like they listen to me talk about my pain and my symptoms and then they tell me I just need to keep doing the same old crap and dont give me any answers. Its so discouraging and invalidating to say the least.

    Why won't they look into things and consider that it could be something else.

    I have muscle pain, joint pain, dizzy spells, headaches, migraines, fatigue, nausea, cognitive difficulties and confusion, cold hands and feet, heart racing, shortness of breath and so many other little things and really all they can say is its nothing??

    Help! How do they know its nothing?

    #thyroid #Lupus #PostconcussionSyndrome #BrainInjury #Fibromyalgia #GravesDisease #Inflammation #doctorsdontlisten #discouraged #Migraines #Headaches #Dizziness #circulation #raynauds

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