drugabuse

Hi, my name is 1ALC_77. I'm here because

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My ex-wife's brother died last night of a heroin overdose. I don't have a lot of feelings about him either way, but I'm very much concerned about the impact this is going to have on my daughter, who lives mostly with her mom and her grandma (who is dieing of pancreatic cancer, and this is her son)... #HeroinAddiction #Overdosing #drugabuse #Awareness

Hi lately, I've been struggling. I'm a college Freshman. I was on two medications that messed me up to the point I was screwing up. They made high all the times (in a way I ended up liking) but they also made me sick too. One of the medications, I had been using for a year. My old high school principal knows I have a drug problem, he and I have also had many discussions about getting clean and trying to stay that way. Then I went to college, my advisor for my classes, my professors. No one knew I was struggling with drugs. I told one of my friends about what had gone on, his advice was to reach out to get help. That Tuesday night, I reached out for help, I told him "Hey, if you have a little bit of time right now, could I talk to you? I need help as in not for signing up for classes but something worse." I sent him a picture of the DAST test I took. So I explained to him what was going on. He wanted to know if he could reach out to the counselor, I told him yes for that but no for my parents. So then I explained to my backup advisor what had been going and he said "Get counseling a lot of it before you go home for winter break." "I'm gonna have to hide it from my parents." he said "You got to keep yourself busy doing something, like hack the box, watch videos about C. Anything that doesn't lead you to getting a drug in your body." My poor two advisors have never dealt with a student whos had a drug problem but they are being supportive and they are literally turning into a couple of dads on me even though neither haves kids nor are married.

Was in a 19 year relationship with the father of my four kids. About 12 years in he was diagnosed with bi polar and about a year later began self medicating with coffee. He became addicted to coke, pills, alcohol etc. He would threaten to kill himself regularly especially when i threatened to leave, he'd consistently disappear for days at a time, blame me for dysfunctions or any problems he experienced, and you get the idea. I finally left him over a year ago but I've still been struggling with what I experienced. Normal? Or am I just being a little woe is me?

Burning tears like hot tea water soak my face wake me
I've blacked out again...
I haven't given myself a full breath in weeks
They say I don't need you
Im better than this- stronger than this
But holy fuck I'm weak
The minute you walk through those doors it's like a dam breaks
You're like the crisp fresh air that I've been waiting for.
The taste of fresh delicious chemical is like a glass of ice cold water in the middle of the night
For one brief minute I feel that carefree little girl
With the silky long brown hair
With the pink shirt and light up sketchers
Shes back,
she's smiling
dancing
singing
laughing.
Her eyes go dead, glazed over
Bouncy hair now dull and fragile
Still as stone the pretty lights vanish
Her skin cold,
clamy,
Blue.

Everybody comment below how they are doing. Good or bad. Whether your extremely happy or on the verge of just saying I’m done and hopping in your car and driving off a cliff... tell me what’s going on with y’all❤️ everyone here has always listened to me. Now it’s time for me to listen to you🤧 #BorderlinePersonalityDisorder #Depression #Anxiety #PTSD #OppositionalDefiantDisorder #ADHD #DerealizationDisorder #DepersonalizationDisorder #Sobriety #drugabuse #dissociativedisorders #teenagers #Relationships #FavoritePerson #Selfcare #Selflove #SexAndRelationships #SexualTrauma #SexualAssault #SexualAbuse #ChildhoodSexualAbuse #SexualAssaultSurvivors #SubstanceUseDisorders

I was diagnosed with bipolar, depression, anxiety and ADHD while I was in a correctional facility in 2018 for selling cocaine, I never thought that I had bipolar but after seeing the symptoms and stories from friends and family of my past actions, reactions and erratic mood swings it was pretty clear. I was in jail for 6 months released at the end of 2018 and didn't take any steps to combat my conditions (as I was still in denial) until about another 6 months later when I crashed extremely hard after a 3 month manic period were I would barely eat, sleep or get any rest at all. I was always working, at the gym or off doing something and even when I'd lie down to try sleep I'd probably only get 1 - 3 hours sleep max. I was extremely forgetful and my whole body would tingle and still does to this day, I'd feel nauseous nearly everyday and could never stop talking, moving or twitching.
Another 8 months on and I'm medicated still have some symptoms but am learning to deal with everything better with the support of my family, friends and partner. I put most of my time into my work as a builder and am staring my own company soon and also really enjoy helping people with their own issues and problems which is a massive change as I used to avoid people and generally dislike almost everyone I would come in contact with, but I can see a better life out there for me now, I have had frequent substance abuse problems from a young age involving methamphetamine, cocaine, ketamine, extacty, GHB, speed, marijuana and alcohol. I have had very minor relapses since my release for jail and have been clean now for quite sometime. There really is more out there and you just need to have the drive to push through it and really want to help yourself and others around you, but you can't make the mistake of doing it for other people it has to be for yourself only then will it truly stick.

I am currently visiting New York City with my 2 children ages 2 and 7. I’m a month and 16 days clean and sober. Am really struggling and wanting to drink and was wondering if I could take my 2 kids along with me ( I do when I’m in the UK)