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I Am A Recent Above The Knee Amputee
Due to being hit by a car while I walked my puppy. Last January 2023 After 16 Surgeries & 3 months I was released into a physical therapy. So many thoughts raced in my mind of how will I provide for myself as, I have always been able to provide for myself. There were days I wanted to just go back in time and reverse that night. Made me so sad to know that I will now live a new life. I Loved My Old Life!! To no fault of my own I did not choose to this for myself. I've worked so hard to continue my career. In working with the troubled youth. I had recently began to work at a school where their were many children on the spectrum. Where others had recently began an IEP. My classroom consisted of 8 nonverbal Middle age school children that have been diagnosed with autism. Could you imagine your career. Is about to take off!! Then boom from one second to the next. You're Hit by a car. As I layed on that cold concrete curb pinned underneath the car. When the driver made the horrible decision to reverse. That is when the driver had severed my left leg. At that moment I realized that their will be no way. In saving my leg. My life has taken a turn especially since Ihad just gotten over the of my past relationship. Somedays are okay. I am grateful that I did not die that night. Where I easily could have, had the firefighters not shown up. I vividly remember the firefighter telling that he would have to cut my clothes to get to my leg that he would be placing a tourniquet. All I could see is the steam leaving my body down by my leg. It was such a horrible sight. Honestly if it wasn't for him I'd be dead. My recovery has been long. I am not one to stay put. My life before the accident was on go at all times. Always trying to better myself while helping others in the process.
So if you've come across my story know that your not alone don't be ashamed of your disability. Their are so many people who suffer in silence. You don't have to!! You have a space here now! Where you can share!
An Absolute No Judgement Zone. #Amputee #Amputelife #nojudgement #AboveTheKneeAmputee

It is ok to need help
It ok to need encouragement
It’s ok to need support
It’s ok to take short cuts
It’s ok to sometimes not be in the mood
Cut yourself some slack and allow yourself to be e human

I feel like I live in an alternate dimension reading about all these “surprise autism diagnoses “ as adults all these temple grandins who are business people in relationships acting etc.. let me tell you about my experience. My son is six. He uses a hone version of a soma bed because he has zero safety awareness. He sleeps naked cause he can’t deal with Pjs god only knows we try . He owes in his bed almost every night (usually in his balled up pjs after he takes them off) he speaks minimally . He frustrates painfully- he has so much inside him that he can’t get out. He can’t tolerate a toothbrush. He needs outrageous amounts of visual stimuli think two iPads at all times with competing YouTube clips. His behavior is challenging on a good day - forget a mask I can’t often get him to wear a seatbelt. So either I’m the worst mother ever, my kid is the sickest out there, no one is honest or autism is over diagnosed I’m so frustrated by tbe dilution of services for the I/dd population by kids in mainstream environments.
Apologies if I hurt someone feelings
#rant #nojudgement #trigger #ASD #specialed #I /dd

We can not change the people around us. The idiots, biggots, judge mental types , the ablelists the know it all’s. What we can do is enhance ourselves to be the best version of ourselves we can on any given day. It won’t always be the same. But if we try to carve out a space within ourselves to be more accepting of ourselves and others kinder, gentler, sweeter we may be able to cope with the monumental challenges we have been dealt. Personally it’s hard. It’s really hard. I’m a mom, I’m overweight and overworked and overwhelmed. I’m dealing with my own health and my demons of pains past. I’m caring for a child with special needs and my husband is a dear but has.. well it’s a long story.
I want to try to .... thanks for listening #Chatspace #nojudgement #Kindness #Selfcare #gentle

Ok. My brother is getting married and the family (besides the two who live overseas) are getting together tbe weekend before for a “before party” I don’t want to go. Among my many siblings and their many many children I’m the only one who has a non neurotypical, severely impaired child (seriously I’m not an ableist just take my word for it it’s an extremely difficult situation) it is very very painful for me to even inadvertently compare him to his cousin who is one week younger. Or the other one who is a month older. And I see them living their lives which are not specifically easy but it feels like they are difficult in a more regular way. My sisters and their spouses chat , something my husband and I never have time for. They *** again no time or energy or interest.. and though I’ve made peace with my challenges in a general way, I don’t think I could put up with it for a whole weekend. Open to nonjudgmental suggestions

I took a nap today for a couple of hours. I woke up , eyes burning from exhaustion but with clarity as follows
A mom of a large family with a disabled child (whose school is on again off again) with a grandchild on tbe way who also is being a spouse, laundress, housekeeper, cook, managing her own medical/emotional journey who is clocking in fifty hours a week at an extremely high stress profession is going to lose it. It may be fast an obvious to all, it may be more subtle but I’m definitely losing my “shiitake mushrooms “ and so would everyone else. Cause I’m attempting to do something entirely unmanageable. . So my goal this weekend is to be kind to myself, understanding of my limitations and encourage everyone to do tbe same #Chat #rant #nojudgement #listening