Survivors

So I thought there might be a chance of #calm before tomorrow's #storm took time off #Work to sit with & #process my #feelings . No such #luck 🍀 I'm now waiting to collect my mother from the hospital as she's had an injury and can't walk. #Lord please give me #strength #Autism #PTSD #MentalHealth #Survivors 💞

For anyone struggling right now..

#youarenotalone #MHWarrior #CheckInWithMe #Depression #youareloved #MentalHealth #Survivors #strengthinnumbers #MightyTogether

I talked to myself many times, and yes, I answered to myself. I wonder how many of you have conversations with yourself. No doubt I feel lonely and isolated many times, and I wonder if will find MY PERSON one day.

It has to do a lot with feeling that constant question of " WOULD HE ACCEPT ME WITH EVERYTHING THAT I AM? WOULD HE BE ABLE TO LIVE WITH MY PAIN? WITH MY ANXIETY? WITH MY RAMBLING?

I LAUGH A LOT! And I like that about myself because I have fun with myself, I AM PROUD OF MYSELF, because I have managed to find wonderful coping skills to survive, and so, YES, I tell myself, I LOVE YOU!

NO DOUBT, I'm imperfect, full of asterisks, commas, exclamation points, and yes, question marks, but....with my rambling I SEE MY SHINING, MY CONNECTION TO ALL THAT IT IS, MY HELPING MANY PEOPLE AROUND ME.

I don't have to ask if I have made a difference in this world, I KNOW IT. Is this pretentious? Is this crazy? Is this WEIRD?

AM I WEIRD?

I know you are there, I have my open arms willing to hug you, and my eyes sparkle connecting with my SPECIAL YOU, and with all of you. Simply, I AM ALIVE!

AM I WEIRD?

Maybe I am a WEIRD SURVIVOR, #survivingstill

AM I WEIRD? FEEL ME! because I am willing, to be the supporting EQUAL SIGN, that knows it will never be EQUAL because we'll be changing every day, but SO willing to LEARN each day.

AM I WEIRD?

Because somehow, I AM HERE, even in my dreams. My subconscious lives with the second-by-second fight or fly, while my consciousness knows: THE RIVER OF LIFE is rocks, fish, water, atoms, energy, and dirt.....WE, THEY, US, YOU, and Me.

BESOS from ...AM I WEIRD?

#Survivors #Anxiety #PTSD #againstageism #stopthehate #Hope #MentalHealth #saludmental #pandemia #Cancer #Sepsis #balance #Love

GIVE YOURSELF

A CHANCE

Don't judge yourself too harshly, even better, don't judge yourself. Second, if you live with chronic pain, pain is not punishment, pain is simply pain. So, even if it comes from your subconscious, let's stop the WHAT DID I DO TO FEEL THIS WAY? or, WHY ME? No worries, even I ask myself that. Am I good enough? what? why do keep asking ourselves those questions, because we have health issues? We are a treasure of wonderful things, besides the health issue you have. I also told myself a few days ago, because I was watching a new series called UNSTABLE. I AM UNSTABLE and I LOVE IT! UNSTABLE CAN BE SO MAGICAL. In the end, I simply am what I am, and yes, I always try to be better, but there are many things I can not change. I AM A ROMANTIC SINGLE LATINO, tall and handsome, LOL, and yes, with some health issues. So, yes, tell yourself, I AM KISSABLE. @healthevoices #Survivors #ChronicPain ing

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#advocates

#ChronicPain

AH! LA VIDA!!!! Mojame vida, y mantiene mi fuego encendido aunque haya tormenta. Rain, LIFE rain, make every cell of my body wet but maintain the fire of my existence alive. #wekeepgoing #Survivors #Caregivers #ChronicPain #COVID

I live with chronic pain, and other chronic illnesses, including anxiety and PTSD. Many days, I can do one thing per day, and I feel thankful. I am a hero who many times is unable to move much, but my superpowers are full of love and kindness. #Survivors #advocates #hivlongtermsurvivors #wekeepgoing

I do believe very deeply in my heart that I was abused when I was a baby/kid, but how can I be sure of it? My traumas as an adult, my relationships with men, my I AM A GOOD BOY, my so many reactions in/to live. Therapy? yes, I have done it, and I keep exploring my journey. But I keep asking myself, am I making this up? I remember very vividly this person in my life, abusing me physically and mentally, and somehow I know I was just part of his own journey of mental health problems. But, did it happen? It can be very easy to say, forget about it, and live life by the moment that exists, but is not that easy. Part of me wants to find the answer, but then what? I am thankful for who I am, my amazing life, my I'm still here after 37 years with HIV, cancer survivor of 12 years, and living with chronic pain. I am single, and still looking for that partner in my life, I think I'm incredibly strong, powerful, special, smart, and simply open to getting to know someone. I remind myself each day to repeat BE HUMBLE, but also PROUD of who and what I am. #Survivors #HIV #hivlongtermsurvivors #MentalHealth #Hope #Sleep #dreams #PTSD