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On a bright day, hand in hand with my possible savior, or the very start of my demise.

I see structures and symbols coming from the ground, majestic and beautiful, the sun shining through in all its might, but the further we go, the more peaceful and serene it seems.

Water flowing through a creek, gardens blossoming everywhere the eye can see.

My guests have no face, no body, merely presence as they lead me through, teaching me things, learning as I investigate my surroundings.

Deeper down I realize there’s a cemetery, no gravestones but there are people buried among the beauty of nature.

It’s when I hear the words whisper of a murder, my head pointed towards a direction of bushes that were red in color, growing over the identifying marks of the naked body, posed in such a form her modesty is barely maintained, the garden cradling her.

“She was murdered here, left alone amongst the land.”

Her skin cold, pale gray, almost the color of stone. It’s as if a hand reaches out to bring me closer to see, to investigate but I pull back and leave, disappearing into my next dream.

When I wake I research and write, ask the questions I feel I know the answers to already.

The dove and the serpent, crossing paths, waiting to see what I would choose.

What if that woman was me?

What if I peeled back the brush, the flowers and vines only to reveal my face, that child that was left behind, the woman that never got a chance to be.

What if it’s a trap?

What if I’m there to take her place?

To be killed and stuck in a vulnerable position, unable to speak any longer, unable to fight, unable to ponder.

I am left with a choice now that I am awake, now that I can think about it.

I can choose the path of the woman, lie on the ground and let the garden grow over me or be gentle as the dove, the lamb, putting my story and my faith out there.

‘Those who have ears let them hear.’

She will be silent no longer.

A warrior formed at the youngest of ages, realizing that her potentials been buried beneath that garden all along.

I have the faith, his strength, the heart of a lion but I walk amongst you a lamb, learning HIS ways.

Riding the camel back to ‘Egypt’ with my life before playing in front of me.

I will not bury this talent, I will not hide this mite. The story I have inside of me matters and it will be heard- I will make it on God’s good word.

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Borderline personality disorder (BPD) is a complex mental health condition that affects millions of people worldwide. While some symptoms of BPD are well-known, there are also secret symptoms that often go unnoticed. These hidden signs can have a significant impact on the lives of individuals with BPD, as well as their relationships and overall well-being.
One secret symptom of BPD is emotional dysregulation. People with BPD often experience intense and rapidly shifting emotions, which can be difficult to manage. They may go from feeling extreme happiness to deep sadness or anger within a short period of time. This emotional rollercoaster can be exhausting and overwhelming, leading to impulsive behaviors and strained relationships. Another secret symptom of BPD is chronic feelings of emptiness. Individuals with BPD often struggle with a persistent sense of inner emptiness, as if something is missing from their lives. This emptiness can be incredibly distressing and may lead to impulsive behaviors, such as excessive spending, substance abuse, or engaging in risky sexual activities, in an attempt to fill the void. Lastly, individuals with BPD may also experience intense fear of abandonment. This fear can manifest in various ways, such as constantly seeking reassurance and validation from others, becoming overly dependent on others for emotional support, or engaging in self-destructive behaviors as a way to test the loyalty of their loved ones. This fear of abandonment can strain relationships and make it difficult for individuals with BPD to maintain healthy connections with others.in conclusion, while borderline personality disorder is often associated with well-known symptoms such as mood swings and unstable relationships, there are also secret symptoms that are not commonly discussed. Emotional dysregulation, chronic feelings of emptiness, and intense fear of abandonment are just a few examples of these hidden signs. Recognizing and understanding these secret symptoms is crucial in order to provide appropriate support and treatment for individuals with BPD.If you or anyone that you know are silently struggling with a mental health disorder know that you are NOT alone. Reach out for help because there is hope even if you feel like there isn’t!
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The strength it takes to push through each day is only understood by the survivors. Unfortunately, the survivors to often feel they have to fight the battle alone and in silence. There is strength in numbers and knowledge is power. The more we share our stories the stronger we are with the knowledge of other survivors and their experiences. #Survivor #Survivors #warrior

If you are a kpop fan or even just a music fan, I recommend listening to You Never Know by Blackpink. It genuinely sounds like an anthem for people with chronic illnesses/disabilities. It really reminded me of the last good days I had back three years ago. It's such an amazing song in general but it sounds like the feelings you feel after a truly devastating life event like getting sick forever.
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