Dad

There is a photo I took the other day from the car. I looked up and snapped the photo as we drove. I felt like it was as my husband called it "Is that the Gate to Heaven?"

I thought about #Grief and #Loss and how I #MISS my #Dad . It has not been an easy year. But 2023 looks a little more promising. It does not feel complete without my Father being around anymore. But, I know that I have many more things I need to do that I have to focus on.

I am #Trying to keep a #Job now that I have found one. I just started it and already my hours have been slashed. {Sigh} I don't know what to do. The hours are cut because the business is slow, and there is a desperate need for more students to come to the learning center for tutoring otherwise.. we may not have jobs much longer.

Hello Everyone.
Welcome to another episode of #WhatOnEarthIsHappening ! 🤣

My emotions nose dived today like as if I was flying in an air plane circus show. #emotional time periods are not the best times, but they can be #Valuable when we have #Anxiety . I started to #think about all of these things that I have experienced so far since my father had died in March 2022.

When my #Dad passed away... I lost my favorite pain in the @$$. I was his favorite too. I #Love and #MISS my Dad so much. #Death is not an easy thing to #handle . But while I was #dealing with the #Lose of my Dad, I had them lost my job right after coming down with a terrible #illness .

It was a nightmare for me how I #lost my #Job and my #daddy all in such a short time span. I haven't found another job since because I have not mentally been #prepared for #MentalHealth is something that needed to be worked on as I am still #grieving over my father and my job.

So... Here I am... #RidingTheWaves that come in and out in my mind. Sometimes I just need to #RollWithIt and do what I need to do in the best way I can,.. even if it isn't my usual best. #Trying is better than #denying and #Procrastinating .

I must start small.
If I want a #Job ... I should try a small part time job somewhere. Maybe a retail job.. but.. even #Retail can be #stressful these days. It's getting #worse now that #AnxietyDisorder is getting stronger or more intense with me. But I will do my #best to #KeepWalking onward.

Do you have any words of encouragement for me?

#BipolarDisorder
#AnxietyDisorder
#PanicDisorder
#Parentloss
#Jobloss
#PTSD
#PMDD
#strength

Hello Everyone.

This is my #Family in which we celebrate my father's life. Behind my brother in the center of the photo is a silver toaster. One day, my Dad, brother and I went to Cracker Barrel. My Dad brought his toaster and when no one was looking, he put this antique toaster up on the mantle. Each time we visited, we laughed at the toaster still being there. We had to get a photo by it. This was a very happy celebration at Cracker Barrel in which we knew we had to take a picture. I was so #thankful to have spent time with my family. Sometimes we have to stop and remember to smile even when we are all mourning. We remember that my #Dad loved us and would have been right there in the photo with us. The toaster says all the memories of times we ate and pointed at it and laughed.

Thank you All for listening.

What do I do when I feel like a piece of me died with him? I miss my #Dad more than anything. I am #hesrtbroken and thinking about the days he and I went to #MagicKingdom together and all the #DisneyWorld magic that we had in our hearts. This lives on with me.

I miss you Dad..

#Brokenhearted
#sad
#imissmydad
#Mourning
#Grief
#Parentloss
#Florida
#Death
#stayingstrong

Dear buddies , as you all know about the prevelance of D’s by now.

A decade back i wasnt the same , i was active but not hyper , dreamy but not confused, fighter but not with issues and #selfmotivated but not tired.

In 2009 got campus placed with an Indian MNC , being one of the 8 selected out of 500 others possessing same qualification and degree was quite an achievement and i wasnt with issues at all.

It was #ok to be #ME then and its #ok to be #ME now . People need to understand the terms #MDD |#Depression #Anxiety #ADHD and not say we understand without understanding……

I m an H4 visa holder in USA , ppl who know about it understand its a curse. I am waiting for my #EAD hahhaa ther’s again a D.

See ,I am running 37 and still dream to be working and being independent on the personal front . Cheers to being motivated!!

Dear D’s try hard to pull me down , i fall … i sleep … i get tired but I ALWAYS GET UP !! Woohooo ….

Luv !!