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I am Officially 60 days sober today! Its been a difficult road and a long journey but I am truly proud of how far I have come. A huge thank you to my recovery coach, Lisa and Amanda who has always been on my side, encouraging me along the way. I am writing this to share some about my recovery road, and open up to others about just how far I have come. Addiction had always been a part of My life, unfortunately my mother was a very heavy drug addict, who came to me with a plate of cocaine at 14 years old, and said "do some with me, cause I have nobody else to do this with." I was smoking crack with my mother by the age of 15. There is SO MUCH sadness in my heart to explain the loss I have and carry with me, every single day, because she died from her addiction. She died from a combination of drugs.. cocaine, heroin, fentanyl, and methadone. The cops told me that they had been theee many times to revive her with narcan. She didn't want to get help, and couldn't quit on her own. I can honestly say the same about myself, in the beginning I didn't want help and I truly didn't want to get or be sober but now I embrace only sobriety and happiness in my life. Although it's so hard, and never gets easier, and it's sad to say the cravings don't go away, but I have become a much better stronger version of myself that I never even knew existed its wonderful to find joy and sobriety in places, things and situations i wouldnt be able to feel a thing in, wrapped into destruction, numb from the drugs. If you know someone with a drug addiction, try not to judge and try to understand that us drug addicts never chose addiction. We dont wake up one day and want to become a drug addict. Drug addicts have an unlimited source and strong amount of pain, that we then treat with drugs or alcohol to numb ourselves. And that becomes our only way and form of a coping mechanism. I view drug addiction, like how I view dissacociating. Dissacociating and Trauma: You are disconnected from your own body, You are standing to the side or above your body, You are watching your life, but feeling nothing. Who you are has permanently changed. The world is foggy or abstract, You are uncertain about where you start and where you end. You are uncertain about where others start or end. You experience memory loss, And have different internal personalities.

So really if your caught up in drug addiction,you lose yourself and no longer get to experience being yourself. When you embrace Sobriety and truly become Sober, you get yourself, and more back. You get to feel so deeply again, and get to reach a part of yourself that was simply buried and unreachable with drug abuse. Experience your own self in ways that you couldn't even ever imagine. You get to fully love yourself again, and that is by far the best part of Sobriety. #Sobriety #SOBER #soberlooksgoodonyou #Addiction #loveyourself #positivemotivation #everyday #peerrecoverycoach #makingchanges #improveyourself #workonyourself

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I found it finally found the guy of my dreams and I just am Head Over Heels I finally feel like I'm worthy of taking care of my life if people don't believe that there is love out there here's a post for you give time for yourself love yourself take care of yourself take care of others and the world will take care of you
I finally got said yes to the man I love and it's true hope life keeps you going even if it feels like it's the end

Just because someone is smiling doesn't mean they're FINE .Just because someone you see that is unwell or has been dealing with any physical or mental health issues is smiling doesn't meant they're BETTER .It doesn't mean they're OK now or that they're not in pain .Usually alot of the time it's because they are used to dealing with their struggles and pain and are just trying to put on a smile and get on with it .You never know how much someone is really struggling so don't judge them .Don't just assume or make comments to them about their health being better or because they don't look sick if they're smiling or have managed to get dressed or go out .You've no idea how much it's taken them to even do that ....
And you never know just how much someone need syour kindness today ♥️

BE KIND ♡
YOU MATTER ♡
LOVE YOURSELF ♡

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😂😂😂 this is definitely the reality when suffering with chronic pain , anxiety ,depression ,fatigue ,physical pain or just mentally struggling.
When you feel like you need a rest after just taking a shower because your so drained .....

It's the little things that seem so simple to others that can really take so much working upto actually doing & then struggling so much after doing it .

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