Newjob

These days have been weird, I'm ok and then I'm not. I need and want to work to be more independent. But I 've been dragging this feeling of not leaving my house. I feel terrible, and I'm looking for excuses not to go out tomorrow, then again I will cry because I don't have a job or financial freedom. I know that I am sabotaging myself, I'm totally aware of what I do. I just don't know how to stop it
. *UPDATE* I was able to get a job, I start tomorrow, I'm excited and very hopeful about this new experience. #Update #Newjob #MightyTogether

It’s officially been a week, and my new job confuses me. I’m not sure who to talk to becuase I get so much conflicting information it makes me chest tight with anxiety.

I’m also super bummed out becuase I found a volunteer position at this new job to help out when not working and my coworkers completly pooped all over me.

I get it, she’s so much older than me and has been doing this job since the early 90’s and is set in her ways and also doesn’t know me from a whole in the wall so how can she know what this volunteer position means to me. But to completly tear me down becuase of it is shame on her.

So needless to say this new job is a lot of ups and downs, which most jobs are, as well as lots of learning. But in the end I’m not sure if I’m happy, I think I’m happy that I’m working again and making money to help better myself but I’m not so sure about this position and maybe it’s really the confusing people I work with. :(

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I recently started a new job, it’s okay. However I take this vacation in July and when I was hired I told them about this vacation, they originally had no problem with me taking this vacation. Since starting now they are giving me lots of flack for this only vacation I take in the summer.

Needless to say I’m extremely upset. I’m a custodian and nervous about what to say to this new job about this vacation.

Any advice would be much appreciated.
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Sick with the thought that everything about me is too much. I didn’t get called in for work tomorrow at my new job and I just keep thinking it must be because I’m too much, too boisterous, too loquacious and it affects my work ethic and I look like I don’t care but I do and I can get distracted. Now I regret being who I am. I know that’s a leap, and harsh and a judgment probably. It’s how I feel though.

I quiet my job today.

Why? I wanted to focus on my mental health and was unable to do that. Nothing it worth the deteriorates mess I was constantly on edge feeling like a burden and wanting everything to end.

Now I feel like I can see and breath again. It a wonderful feeling.

I already have a new job lined up and am looking forward to whatever happens next.

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