I hate insomnia because it suck all the energy up.
During the day, when I'd like to do my stuff, I feel like avoiding any place where I could lay down on; because, if I surrender, the tiredeness is gonna have me and then I usually just become more and more depressed.
I think I should stand up, then, and do something, if that's what I want, but there is no energy to; and this makes me sad.
I'm craving for some restful oblivion.
#Insomnia #tireness #SleepDeprivation #Energy #sleepdisorder #Sleep #tired
When I was a child, I've always had troubles falling asleep. Because my mind was fully awake, when very young, but then mostly because of stuff I was deadly afraid of. When I managed to, I had very vivid nightmares and used to wake up a lot during the night, having troubles falling asleep again.
Each time I got in bed, I started trying not to fall asleep, because bad things would have occured if I wasn't there awake and aware, in order to acknowledge anything that was happening in the house.
I now fall asleep more easily, but I remember having only one nice dream; each night I have at least one nightmare, usually up to many more.
The nightmares are generally about threats or issues I should escape safe from or disturbing stuff in general. They're very long and articulated, implying plots and including a lot of details.
When I wake up, if my attention isn't suddenly drawn to something else, the dreams usually follow me during the day and it takes a big part of it for them and their effects to vanish away.
If there's anyone interested in sharing some thoughts about this, I'd be happy to.
It can be very stressful and I haven't slept well in ages. I'd like to find a key to understand this or simply tips to try and see if they could help me.
Anyone who can relate?
#Nightmares #SleepDeprivation #Sleep #sleeppattern #sleepissue #Insomnia #Paranoia #threats #dreams #fallingasleep #thirst #Stress #overthinking #worstcasescenarios #Fear #sleepdisorder #OCD #Anxiety #Obsession #Death #obsessivethoughts
Hi guys! I am a business development manager or account manager who manages clients and bring in new accounts for the company. I brought in a new contract for my company in less than 3 months after joining. My operations team cant deliver what the contract states. And I got to manage my client.
So today while I am with my boss alone. He told me to stop being so immature and stop thinking about the needs of my clients. If there is a need to cut cost, let my client know and dont quote to their request.
And I was like….? That dont sound responsible. And he tells me stop thinking for others?
So, in the first place why bring me on board when one of my role is to bring in more revene for the company?
Am i being immature for thinking on the perspective of my clients?
I always build a very good rapport with my clients til they introduce me new clients and we become friends.
I dont get it? Why he need to use the word on me. Immature? That hurts. I am a veteran in the industry with 11 years of experience.
It makes me dont want to communicate with any of my colleagues or him anymore now.
#PTSD #Anxiety #Selfblame #PanicAttacks #Selfesteem #Selfworth #MajorDepressiveDisorder #sleepdisorder
Hi guys! I hope all of you are well and safe. Been such a long time since I wrote here. I am in the midst of filing for divorce - but due to flat issues, I can only finalise it only April next year. And i kept it a secret from him. Only my lawyers & psychiatrist knows about it.
My mum called and said she is going for an eye operation next month and told me my brother is footing the bills. And told me not to liasise with the hospital like what I did in the past to foot the bill if not my dad and my brother will quarrel with her.
I am not on good terms with my dad and brother as I took my parents to court due to domestic violence when i was young.
They objected my marriage 10 years back but I went ahead. As my husband is 17 years my senior. I knew at the back of my mind this is wrong. I still love my ex then. But I dont want my mum to “so call control my marriage and interfere” my marriage if I marry my ex as he is too young to handle all these.
I am working. Work is stressful as clients is kinda of shit. Sorry for the words. They expect me to drink with them after office hours. But i dont entertain that.
I have a uncle, whom I am very close to. I called him and told him that i am worried about my mum’s operation and why does they doesnt treat me like i am part of the family and why they still cant understand that i am seeing a psychiatrist?
He told me I am weak. As i am seeing a psychiatrist for around 10 years and yet i am still seeing him and needing medication every morning and night. He said i shouldnt be that weak. As everyone in the family is strong but not me. I tried my very best. Seems like i failed. He told me he dont know what he did that he got to listen to my problems.
No ones know i am seeing a psychiatrist except my husband and him. Even my friends dont know.
I am feeling so down.
Am i really that weak and immature? He said if he is my psychiatrist he would have given up on me. I am like stuck on my past and deny moving on.
No one knows what i am going through everyday. I got to ‘put’a mask on before i head for work. Like everything is fine.
At home too, i got to do all the chores and stuffs. My husband doesnt help with anything. He just left his job around a month ago.
I am really hurt. I dont want to be this way too. He really crushed my self eseteem by calling me weak. Is crying weak?
I am feeling kinda of self conscious cause i have acne scars on my face and I am doing anything to get rid of it.
Life is really tough.
He told me, my heart need to be made of steel by not behaving like a kid.
Sigh. I am feeling very sad. There is no one i can talk too. Does my psychiatrist really think that of me? Am i really that weak and useless? i am trying my best everyday single day.
I really hate myself for being in this.
Take care everyone!
#MajorDepressiveDisorder #PTSD #Anxiety #Marriage #Psychiatrist #Depression #sleepdisorder
Just wondering if anyone has recurring dreams that are a little out of the norm... I dream every night, or should say remember a lot of what I dream.
Within the past year or so I've been having numerous dreams of being in the grocery store, or the mall, or wondering around a city, none of which I'm familiar with.
Never had these seemingly 'normal' dream situations that replay over and over. It's obvious to say, "What's the feeling?" Which range from scared, confused, to ambivalent.
But they're driving me batty, and I want to purge them.
Anyone get this, at all??
I've had every which sort if nightmare, but these are something else. A new breed
#dreams #PTSD #Nightmares #Trauma #MentalHealth #Insomnia #Sleep #PeripheralNeuropathy #ChronicIllness #ChronicPain #sleepdisorder #Disability #Depression #Anxiety #OCD #Migraine #AutoimmuneDisorder #Undiagnosed
id like to start off by saying that im not self diagnosing and i have done extensive research for months on the topic. so for the past couple of years ive been noticing that im extremely tired. i would take naps after school everyday bc i found it nearly impossible to stay awake. ive been doing that since about 8th grade, so about three years. with the lockdown and online school, i found more opportunities to sleep and i couldnt help but take advantage of that. sometimes i would have abt 45 mins between classes and i would nap. i skipped lunch everyday just to sleep. over the summer, some days felt impossible to get out of bed. i began to get really worried so I talked to my parents and got a doctors appt where some bloodwork was taken to rule out stuff like lyme disease or anemia and whatnot. obviously this yielded no results. i now have an appt with a neuorlogist scheduled but its in feb. basically ive been reading and researching everything having to do with sleep disorders and i match almost every symptom of narcolepsy exactly. i know its a rare disorder but i align with it so well i cant help but consider it. im just so sick of feeling exhausted no matter how much i sleep and i just want to put a name to it. it is so incredibly frustrating to feel like this and not have anything to justify it with. im extremely thankful that my parents are taking me seriously with this. hopefully in a couple of months i will have answers. it feels like so long though... #Narcolepsy #sleepdisorder #Hypersomnia #Sleep #exhaustion #tired
#CheckInWithMe #SocialAnxiety #OCD #ChronicFatigue #MentalIllness # chronicillness #Depression #sleepdisorder #Insomnia
Hi Wonderful Mighties,
I'm spending less than 5 hours awake during a day... I am soooo tired that I am needing to sleep after only an hour of being awake...
I'm currently 'battling' my doctors to take this seriously they think it's just another #Fibromyalgia symptom. It's been going on for 3 months. It's not like I was exactly awake or alert before -_- But now it's unbearable.
I'm concerned this might be #MyalgicEncephalomyelitis or a#sleepdisorder i.e. #SleepApnea (I chew in my sleep [but have been doing so for years] BUT have, had short bursts of snoring recently).
Thank you so much!
••••I learned this through supporting my friend in NA. This helps me with my chronic illness every time I want to give up.•••••
“JUST FOR TODAY
I will live through this day only. I will not brood about yesterday or obsess about tomorrow. I will not set far-reaching goals or try to overcome all of my problems at once.
I know that I can do something for 24 hours that would overwhelm me if I had to keep it up for a lifetime.
JUST FOR TODAY, I will be happy. I will not dwell on thoughts that depress me. If my mind fills with clouds, I will chase them away and fill it with sunshine.
JUST FOR TODAY, I will accept what is. I will face reality. I will correct those things that I can correct and accept those I cannot.
JUST FOR TODAY, I will improve my mind. I will read something that requires effort, thought and concentration. I will not be a mental loafer.
JUST FOR TODAY, I will make a conscious effort to be agreeable. I will be kind and courteous to those who cross my path, and I'll not speak ill of others. I will improve my appearance, speak softly, and not interrupt when someone else is talking. Just for today, I will refrain from improving anybody but myself.
JUST FOR TODAY, I will do something positive to improve my health. If I'm a smoker, I'll quit. If I'm overweight, I will eat healthfully -- if only for today. And not only that, I will get off the couch and take a brisk walk, even if it's only around the block.
JUST FOR TODAY, I will gather the courage to do what is right and take the responsibility for my own actions.”
- Abigail Van Buren
#IdiopathicHypersomnia #sleepdisorder #sleepyheads #justfortoday #Narcolepsy #KleineLevinSyndrome #Anxiety #Stress #Depression #SuicidalIdeation #ChronicFatigueImmuneDeficiencyDisorder #ChronicFatigue