:D do any of you have pets you love? Or anything that cheers you up. Here’s a picture that made me smile of my pup Ella a toy yorkie 🧸 looks like she’s smiling hehe.
#Grattitude #MentalHealth #Pets #Selflove #smile #Depression #Anxiety #Grief #growinf #challenges #strivinf #Trying
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Recently I share about a math course I am taking. Unexpectedly my funds for the tuition were cut. I dropped the course. Sadly, I found out I owe a balance for the tuition a few hours before my second class meet time. And because I am out of work due to a medical leave, I simply cannot pay or create more debt, especially when I am paying to increase additional stress in my life because I am learning complicated math skills, during this season of recovery.
Am I bummed? Yes, a little bit. I was geared-up, emotionally, to take the course. But this “geared-up” energy is an aspect of my nature that my cognitive therapist challenged me to rid myself of: I am a “go getter!” But that characteristic is fueled by pain and anxiety driven strength.
So, not taking the course is probably better for my recovery despite my desire to keep forging ahead with earning my degree. And one thing I am learning during this medical leave is taking the stress out of unexpected circumstances. I can admit I am bothered. Cry if necessary. And then continue living life.
My traumatized habitual thinking tried to shift my thoughts to a degrading place with these thoughts: what will others think; am I quitting; my life is a mess; I should have put the balance on credit. But my—in the process of—rewiring my neural plasticity’s way of thinking, reminded me how this dropped course is beneficial: no new debt to stress about; realizing my upcoming six-month neural assessment will be conducted the day before our first mid-term “quiz.” So, WOW! When I realized the latter, I see this financial issue as a blessing in disguise. Those two events occurring at the same time would have created a serious amount of stress on my brain. Phew!
Thanks for providing us the platform to share and work through our life events! Indeed, this is a place connecting #themighty!
#Anxiety #sadness
#selfcare #selfcompassion
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I have a intrusive thoughts which infect my mind and make it difficult to concentrate. They start the minute I wake up and do not cease until I go back to sleep. I have many hobbies and try to keep my mind occupied but the evil thoughts replay over and over.
When I was physically assaulted over ten years ago I never thought that I would continue to experience flashbacks and trauma from the incident. I have been in fights before and thought it would become another distant memory of something unfortunate. My experience has been completely different and I am stuck in a never ending loop of sorrow and pity.
The attack causes me major mental health issues that I can't move on from. I am stuck in a negative cycle of pain and suffering. The image of the attack repeats in my mind. I see the faceless images of multiple attackers and the fear of reliving the incident is ever present. I am afraid of what's in store for me as I battle to focus on what's important.
It is difficult to describe the incident as it involves anger, betrayal and resentment. The only thing I know for sure is that it leaves me empty and insecure. These people purposefully sought to hurt me and they were successful.
I hate to say it but my mental health has deteriorated to the point where I am miserable. I hate my life and I am aware of the holes I keep digging are damaging me further. I blame my mother and father for a lot of my problems whether it is their fault or not. They did their best but had unrealistic expectations and when I was unable to achieve the impossible goals they had set for me I spiralled in to a deep depression.
This depression has followed me for years and the more I let it control my life - the more pain it causes me. I have never dealt with any of the negative emotions that fill my mind. I bottled everything up and pretended I was fine. I am at the point where I don't see anything improving and I want to hurt the few people I have left.
I really wish I could end on something positive but my life has become a merry go round of pain, sorrow and regret. I hate myself in more ways than one and I need help but the road to recovery is fraught with feelings of guilt and resentment.
EDIT: I am fully aware that my posts are very much a pity party. I am hurting inside and just desperately want to feel better.
#Depression #Misery #Sadness #hurt #Pain #TheMighty #MightyTogether #MentalHealth #feelings #unhappy #Relationships #Friendship #Love #Trauma #PTSD #challenges #Life #Death #advertisy #friend #peace #Emotion #flasback #Lettinggo #scar #regret #compassion #Thoughts #Mindfulness #Anxiety #reserved #Respect #peace
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Challenges we all face everyday but how do we handle those challenges, do we win or lose. To win and overcome those challenges you have to stay positive, if not you will lose the game of challenge every single time. Hope you win moving forward. #challenges #MentalIllness
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Hello, one of my goals in life has been to be a fluent quadralingual! My languages are in order: Dutch, English, Spanish and American Sign Language (ASL). In order to become a fluent quadralingual I am reading some of my favorite books side by side with the English version in Spanish and Dutch! #CheerMeOn #MightyTogether #challenges #growth #learning
I thought this was absolutely beautiful and maybe somebody needed to hear this today. Sending love and kindness compassion and patience !
#Love #Kindness #compassion #patience #hearts #challenges #Unity
I knew hours before my first seizure of the night that it was coming. I also knew tonight would be a challenge. But I went anyway.
My sister and brother-in-law threw a Haunted Bayou Halloween Party tonight, and it was killer 😜 We had an apothecary (candy bar), we had a giant voodoo doll, we had skulls and skeletons, we had gumbo and all sorts of fun eats. Half way through the party, Scales and Tails from Utah came and presented several amazing reptiles for our education and delight. There was a tarantula named ‘Rosy’, three different species of turtle, a Bearded Dragon named ‘Duke’ (who I got to hold), a python named ‘Mad Eye Moody’ (so named because of a genetic disorder that left him with only one eye), several other species of lizard, a stunted alligator named ‘Hornet’, and a giant Burmese python that took five of us to hold up. This giant snake also likes to anchor itself with its tail to feel safe: it decided my leg was a safe object to anchor to. These gorgeous and amazing creatures were, for me, the highlight of the night.
Right after the Burmese python was put away, a seizure struck. Due to my anxiety that had continuously built throughout the night, this seizure was extremely painful and harder to come out of. But, I’m proud of myself for even going tonight knowing that a seizure could hit at any moment. Challenges come and challenges go and some challenges stay: it’s how we respond to those challenges that makes the difference. #Anxiety #Seizures #PsychogenicNonepilepticSeizures #Stress #challenges #struggle #dontgiveup #Life
What challenges have you overcome in your relationship? #Relationships
I put myself through tremendous pressure over whether something is worth trying or just too overwhelming. Sometimes I decide to be courageous and I try something. I feel like I've really accomplished whatever it is, but usually, my nerves are off the charts for the next several days.
#CheckInWithMe #challenges #Feeling overwhelmed
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