Almost 50, no legacy
I’ve led a life where I grew up working my butt off to be an extraordinary dancer, but being the 3rd of 3 kids nothing I did was ever really recoded. So no proof of me actually being “cool” so to speak do not exist. I married young then raised a beautiful daughter who is now 26 and a successful graduate with her masters and is a elementary teacher. I feel I did a great job as a mom….., I was firm, loving, envolved, fun, respected and mostly always there 110% to be a mom. Also I worked full time owing my own tax practice, always working around when my family/ friends needed me but made sure to give full attention to my clients and complete tasks timely. Always said yes to all things asked of me, never saying NO for anything or anyone, no matter the consequence and never expected anything in return.
About 5 years ago I was diagnosed with Fibromyalgia, clinical depression, multiple anxiety disorders, insomnia, anemia. and Rhumetoid arthritis…. and more. Point is I was always the one doing all for everyone, throwing the fun parties, always putting on the happy face, but now that I’m turning 50 and have bad days or sometimes have speech issues, memory issues, pain, extreme exhaustion, all those people I helped in the past have disappeared. I have no proof of all the good I’ve done in the world and if I was to die today and someone put together a wall of photos of my life it shows nothing. I want to leave a legacy of love and kindness. Something that shows that caring and loving unconditional is a very important thing. The world is feeling apart because we only focus on the bad, the hate and prestigious that can afford to capture their accomplishments. I just want people to know that I did matter and I did create change in the world even if you’ll never see it. #findyourself