Don’t know if you noticed or not, but I haven’t been on The Mighty for the last few weeks – it’s been a rough few weeks and I’ve really missed you all. 💝
I had a fall a few weeks ago and I really injured my hand and shoulder (thanks #FND and #JHS 🙄). Unfortunately, it was my right side that got injured – which isn’t exactly helpful for a right handed person – but I’m finally on the mend and back on The Mighty! 🥳 Not being able to use my right hand, and arm, really caused a few challenges, although, surprisingly, the biggest challenge wasn’t a physical one but actually a mental one – the longer the injuries took to heal, the more I noticed myself slipping into a low, depressive, place in my mind. I wanted to do things but physically couldn’t, and that seemed to heighten my feelings of anxiety and depression because I felt even more trapped inside a body that couldn’t do what I wanted it to do. Thanks to the amazing support and encouragement that you have all shown me over the last few months, I was slowly starting to feel a bit more like the person I was before I was struck by FND, and I was beginning to re-discover parts of me that I thought I’d lost forever… then, I had another ‘Drop Attack’. 😔 If I didn’t have JHS along with FND, then I probably wouldn’t have injured myself so easily – admittedly, that’s not necessarily true but that’s what I kept thinking. It felt like FND had already robbed me of so much, and then, just as things felt like they were improving (mentally, at least), it felt like my FND had “came back for seconds” and was going to rob me of even more of my mobility and independence. I’ll be honest, those thoughts scared me, and I was starting to feel those familiar thoughts and feelings of worthlessness creeping back into my mind. Part of me wanted to reach out to you all for support; the other part of me felt like nobody would be interested in helping me. Logically I KNEW that was NOT true, and that we Mighties stick together and support each other, but those feelings of worthlessness were so overwhelming that they made me forget that for a while. Why are the negative thoughts and feelings so much easier to believe than the positive?! I’m still struggling with those feelings of worthlessness but I’m so grateful to have finally returned to The Mighty because I really missed my fellow Mighties. 💕💝
#FunctionalNeurologicalDisorder #FND #JointHypermobilitySyndrome #JHS #Disability #MentalHealth #Depression #Anxiety #ChronicIllness #ChronicPain #MightyTogether #CheckInWithMe #CheerMeOn #DistractMe