Overweight

I have done good for two days. Then boom, I did have a salad for supper, but then I’ve also had 3 beer, a cookie and ice cream sandwich and three small hostess chocolate donuts. Why can I do so well and then fail so fast? I’m in therapy, I’m on meds for depression, I am a Christian, but I’m so screwed up. It’s like I can’t get enough sometimes. The more I eat or drink, the more I want and then I just think I might as well go all in. Why don’t I have any self control? Does anyone understand? Please don’t make me feel worse than I already do! To top it all off my husband is a part of a ministry worship band and here I am. He has self control. One beer. One cookie. I hate myself and I need to lose about 10 lbs to top it all off. Maybe I should go make myself vomit. #bingeing #Alcohol #sweets #Depression #MentalHealth #Anxiety #Overweight

I think I’m developing binge eating disorder or at least for sure emotional eating, I’m pretty overweight for my age but based on my ethnicity and such we are more naturally curvy or plus sized, but regardless for health and trying to slim down or at least be healthier/ more active and eat healthier or less big portions. What are your tips or anything that helps you personally if you struggle with this or even if you don’t any ideas, or anything you have personally looked up online/ learned in therapy etc.

Thanks!! Appreciate it! Super hard to lose weight but I really need to make a change :c before I gain more weight I’m currently 85kg and 5”3 so it’s definitely too high for my frame. Mainly the thighs and also lately my stomach/waist.

#EmotionalEating #eating #BingeEatingDisorder #Mindfulness #Overeating #needtomakeachange #plusiszed #Overweight #Health #Tips #physicalhealth #BodyPositivity #Fitness #loseweight #Motivation #Advice #nutrition

TW Mentions of fat-shaming, swearing, bugs, some all caps, misgendering, exclusionism #venting
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Seriously, why does this damn society seem to think that just because you look overweight instantly leads to believing they have health problems or the only ones capable of health problems? You can look skinny, or average, or look really healthy (even have a bunch of muscles!) and can - still - have health problems regarding weight or how you eat.

Now I’m remembering someone in 2018 who just came up to me and was very kind and told me their way of how they lost weight. I was just sitting there, minding my own business. I thought that they were being very nice and just giving advice, and now I feel like a fucking fool because it was JUST BECAUSE I LOOKED OVERWEIGHT!

Today, it honestly doesn’t help that when I’m told how I should eat or exercise, I get imposter syndrome all over again. I’m an adult. I already suffer from anxiety and despise this ridiculous judgemental ignorant world. I know I’m overweight. When I’ve had enough of life, I have the urge for comfort food. I know what I’m eating isn’t really that healthy, I admit that, and I’ve always TOLD myself that I should eat healthy, not to look skinnier, but to at least be healthier, and had even made plans to cut out some thing I should eat.…it’s hard. I have a lot of shit going on right now. Does society even understand that?!

I’m already stressed that the weather is already getting warmer here than I like, which means more bugs (flies, gnats) and possibly fleas again, so I’m trying to plan the best way to make this problem not so irritating including doing things that my sister continuously says that I shouldn’t do which also fucking irritates me to max (tying the garbage bags… it keeps the gnats away and I even SAID that I’ll buy more bags for us). Last summer was horrible and I do NOT want it to come. Spring is also about to betray me as well.

I am non-binary and have severe social gender dysphoria and hate being misgendered as a fucking “she”, which means I mostly stay inside all the time because of how painful it is.

I suffer from trust issues because of how much the world is a piece of garbage. “Cringe” this, “snowfl*king” that, “faking” this, seriously. Why.

My sister’s kids are on spring break and their loud footsteps irritate my autism whether or not I like to admit that.. trying to not to seem like I hate them (which I don’t, I love them!!). And all I’m trying to do is to get myself CALM.

Those are just four things. There are many more I can list. So even trying to be healthy is a struggle either because of poor mental health or that I’ve given up at that moment. I want to live… but it’s to eat healthy or exercise because of all of this crap. Does society even understand that?!

#MyAutismIsNotADisorder #Fatshaming #fat #Overweight #Anxiety #SocialAnxiety #ImposterSyndrome #DearSociety #nonbinary #EatingDisorders #EatingIssues #eating #EatingHealthyIsNotEasy #MentalHealth #LGBTQIA #BeingHealthyIsNotEasy #sad #BodyShaming #BodyImage

I’m just tired. Tired of the struggle.

I just had this idea that maybe I overeat not only to satisfy cravings but also as a way of not getting #abused again? Is this possible?

I am distraught.

I have been doing EVERYTHING right. I’ve cut down my carbs, I’m eating more protein and vegetables. I’m cycling and I’m going for walks... I brought my HBA1C down to 59 from 78.

And yet... I’ve put on nearly two stone. I’ve gone from just over 16stone... To just under 18stone. (About 20lbs).

I feel sick to my stomach and I can’t stop crying.

What’s the point in trying if there are never any results? 😞 I’m so close to just giving up.

#chronicillnesswarrior #Diabetes #Overweight #Obesity #gainingweight #weight #Scales #Upset #depressed #pleasehelpme

Good morning, hope everyone has a great Friday. How does everyone cope with their fibromyalgia pain while exercising? Or the day after? I'm trying to lose weight cause I'm at risk of developing more problems and have to slim down some. I try to walk or do small exercises everyday. Yesterday I went on a bike ride and this morning I'm miserable and in terrible pain.