AngerManagement

Well I feel so isolated and lonely 😞 my sister told me not to go on any dating sites because now is not the time for that. The sad 😞 part is deep inside I know she’s right. I still hurt because of this separation/divorce. I feel is she just basically threw me away like yesterday’s garbage. I admit that I have fault in this situation and I know what I need to work on within myself. You know I could have called her doctor and my uncle’s doctor, and told on them because both of them take prescription opiates. And I know some naughty things they’ve done. If they would have been called in for a pill count, they would have failed. Plus that apartment she kicked me out of with both of our names on the lease btw, I could call and report that my uncle stays with her and pays her half the bills it is a based on income apartment. Sublease is not allowed and the lady who works in the office knows they’re doing that! I could report her as well but I didn’t. I could have done those things out of spite for breaking my heart ❤️. I’m trying to be a Godly man and the Bible teaches not to repay Evil with evil but rather repay evil with good. And obeying Jesus Christ words are important to me. But I must confess when I get down and depressed 😔 about the whole situation I become angry 😡 at myself for not getting even with her. But as I said I don’t want to betray God and stray from the path of righteousness. I am reminded that Christ above anyone else has the right to retaliate. because he was innocent and was beaten and mocked and despised. And if even my savior Jesus Christ can say “father forgive them for they know not what they do “ and he was willing to forgive them. then I’m also charged and tasked with the responsibility to honor his teachings and follow his path. That’s the point of Christianity ✝️ to begin with. I feel as if there’s a war going on inside of me a battle between good/evil and light vs darkness and both are demanding my attention. I know that I prefer to follow Christ rather than satan and follow righteousness vs wickedness. Because this earth is not my home 🏠 my home is with Christ in glory. And the temptation of the world is not worth it. Yes it hurt me to be separated from my wife. And right now my focus should be solely on restoring my relationship with Jesus Christ and being there for my daughters. Sorry for the extremely long post I just needed to vent. And I believe that the only human friend I had doesn’t want anything to do with me anymore. Maybe I’m overthinking things but he hasn’t texted me back. Fighting for disability while simultaneously fighting to maintain gainful employment is proving most difficult for me. #Anxiety #MentalHealth #BipolarDisorder #BorderlinePersonalityDisorder #Depression #AngerManagement

I’m feeling extremely Hypomanic today. My mood has been extremely angry and I got into a fight the first thing after waking up, which escalated quickly right after.

I behaved irrationally though the conflict was about my caregiver’s mismanagement of the delivery of an adopted pet to our home. They refused to contact my other caregiver, made multiple excuses, gave false information, and went on to accuse me of wasting their time for having made the request.

This is despite having given them MULTIPLE reminders, with them agreeing to manage the delivery each time. They kept delaying the delivery, over and over and over again. They made countless excuses and would quote false information each time I spoke to them.

Their behavior was utterly irresponsible and it triggered me heavily. But, I responded with aggression, anger, and threats, and I became violent quickly, verbally and physically.

I recognise that I need to take medication and have since requested that Seroquel be purchased for my mood, as recommended by my psychiatrist for Hypomanic episodes.

However, I behaved terribly and couldn’t control myself during the argument. I escalated the conversation to an argument, a conflict, and then an abusive incident where I was the abuser. I recognise that my behavior was hurtful emotionally and physically, and that it is a long-standing problem as a person with anger management and aggression that is verbal, emotional and physical towards others.

I can’t take back what I did today and it isn’t what my values represent. It also doesn’t reflect my true self. But, I can choose to address it head on and I am, by requesting this medication and working to share what happened.

If you have an anger management problem, bipolar disorder, or aggression, I’m happy to discuss ways you’re moving forward from your incidents. I’m open to discussing coping strategies, treatment options, and ways to communicate which are non-aggressive and non-violent.

#BipolarDisorder #AngerManagement #DomesticViolence

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Hey all,

I've only recently started coming out of my first Manic episode (I'm 31yrs old) where rage was front and center. I was unpredictable, uncontrollable, uncontainable and my loved ones were often the target. Verbal abuse was my weapon and I attacked with a fury straight out of hell itself. Most of these anger episodes are a big blur to me, but my loved ones have helped me remember my behavior during my Mania.

I should note that I asked them to do this so that I could tell my psychiatrist. I want to try and understand what happened to me. I want to know what to look out for and learn ways to spot the boiling pot before it boils over.

What I clearly remember is the rage I felt. It was unlike anything I've ever experienced and it terrified me. I didn't know what was happening to me, but I couldn't stop it. I knew I was losing control during my anger episodes, I knew my grip was slipping, but knowing that only made my anger more hysterical and NOT knowing where it was coming from and what to do about it made it more chaotic.

I was put on an antipsychotic about 4 months ago and it really has been helpful keeping the fury at bay, but that still doesn't mean I don't want to know other ways of coping with it. I don't want to just depend on medication, I want to know I can depend on myself too.

Has anyone else diagnosed with Bipolar 1 (or bipolar 2) dealt with Bipolar Rage? I've read that "rage" isn't a symptom of Bipolar disorder but I call "bully" on that!

Anyone else's experiences or advice would be deeply appreciated and most welcomed 💚

Love,
-D

#Mania #BipolarDisorder #Bipolar1Disorder #bipolarmania #BipolarDepression #Bipolar2Disorder #bipolarrage #bipolaranger #AngerManagement

Today is a crappy day. It started when I woke up and read the news. There, I read about the next Corona actions. Now, they are about to reduce our range of motion to 9 miles. Although I know that I'm not a big fan of traveling long distances because of my travel sickness, I got furious because of this negative news. I'm also afraid of more ordinances and more severe ordinances by the politicians, like curfews for example.
Just because of this negative news, I got sensory overloaded and I had a slight meltdown and a panic attack. Later, we cleaned the kitchen, and the strong smell of the cleanser caused a headache and a shutdown. My neighbors in the apartments next to mine and in the apartment above mine are always arguing loudly with their wives. Now, I am extremely drained and exhausted, and besides this, I have a headache, an upset stomach, I feel sorry for having a meltdown, a panic attack, and a shutdown in that same afternoon. I also feel sorry for getting rude and aggressive because of my anxiety attack and my meltdown. The only thing I want for now is just skipping the rest of this crappy day as it is sensory hell and unsurvivable for me. I even don't want to watch wrestling tonight, although I'm always looking forward to watch it. I don't know to cope with this crappy day. #Anxiety #AutismMeltdown #Autism #autismspectrumcondition #AutismShutdown #Drained #ExhaustedAlways #exhaustion #chronic Gastritis #Chronicexhaustion #IrritableBowelSyndromeIBS #SensoryOverloads #SensoryDisorder #SensoryIssues #Depression #PTSD #AutisticAdults #AutisticExhaustion #deadinisde #aggressive #depressed #aggression #Anxietyanddepression #AnxietyAttack #AngerManagement #Feelingsorryformyself #feelingunabletofunction #feelingdeainside #EmotionalBlackouts #mentalblackouts

I find I have lost many people in my life due to my reactive anger. When I get angry, I shout for hours loudly. Yet a few minutes before I could be happy and fun to be with. My friends say it’s like having two of me. My ex’s said it was difficult to handle the angry me. But the fun me was great, they just never knew which one they were going to get.
This week I got angry for no apparent reason and I really took it out on my two best friends. I now feel I have lost them. I just keep pushing everyone around me away. 😔I will tell my therapist as I’m very ashamed and want to change. I don’t like this side of me. Am I alone in being like this?
#anger #AngerManagement #BorderlinePersonalityDisorder #Depression #Bipolar #Anxiety #SuicidalThoughts #PersonalityDisorders

Trying to help my preteen girl deal with anger better. She starts to self-scratch, hit, pull hair, various self-harming behaviors when she gets really angry. We’re already in counseling and she’s not yet comfortable talking about it. Any advice out there? 🙏🏼 #AngerManagement

Do you ever find yourself filled with righteous indignation when you hear some politician or leader say or do something polarizing that lacks compassion and understanding? If so, it can be annoying to be reminded that when you point a finger, there are three pointing back at you! But since there is a lot of finger pointing in our world today, I’ve come to find this expression more useful than annoying because it helps me become aware of how I’m adding to the anger and polarization in our society and I certainly don’t want to add to that!

The problem with polarization is that it immobilizes us into two camps that stay frozen and can’t move forward, unless one is willing to loosen up its stance a bit. We tend not want to do this because we think it will make us appear weak, or we are giving in and backing down.

I actually look at it a little differently, because I believe that if I can free myself from some judgment that is creating a sense of separation and alienation in me, it will give me the energy I need to restore a sense of connection to my community and bring healing to the world around me. So I use this expression as a tool to help me feel more empowered, not less.

It is easy for me to think "I’d never act that way" when I hear a leader spewing something hateful and unkind, or not responding to human suffering. But if I’m honest and ask myself; how or when have I ever added to hateful and unkind energy in this world, this frees me from being so judgmental and creates a space inside of me where I actually feel better and want to move forward, not stay stuck in anger.

Another way to apply this expression to your life is to ask yourself, who was cruel or unkind to you in your past that perhaps this person is reminding you of? This is often the work I do with my clients, particularly when I’m doing couples counseling, because so often a person we encounter in the world outside of us, triggers some unfinished business in the world inside of us.

When we take the time to go within and get to the real source of our pain or irritation, we can express some of that emotion, which helps us feel more peaceful, less triggered, and empowered to respond in a more loving and compassionate manner #AngerManagement #Depression #Anxiety #Trauma #Loneliness #Grief