Agoraphobia Without History of Panic Disorder

We're in the 2nd month of 2024 and I'm on my 2nd antibiotic 🙃

(there was a high chance it would've actually been be my 3rd lol. Thankfully my asthma fixed up)

Anyone else feel...almost punished by the universe lol?

I barely go out (part fault of chronic conditions, part agoraphobia tendencies) and yet I still get sick, sick 🤔

I'm told by so many to 'push through', but I am pushing.

Everytime I get to the toilet in time. The times I make it to work. Remembering key dates. Having a bath. Drinking enough liquids. Replying to that text...

To all those pushing already by just existing: I see you and I am one of you. It isn't easy, but we're really trying our best💜

#ChronicPain #AgoraphobiaWithoutHistoryOfPanicDisorder #Agoraphobia #MentalHealth #ChronicFatigue #Fibromyalgia #BackPain #Asthma #Anxiety #Depression #FunctionalNeurologicalDisorder #IrritableBowelSyndromeIBS #Jointpain #AuditoryProcessingDisorder

I have been single for a hot minute haha. Mental health issues and being ill with every illness under the sun🙄, led me to just feeling mentally exhausted.

However, I'm trying to work on dismantling safety behaviours and not waiting on me to be in 'perfect health'.

So, please do folks have any tips on how to introduce your chronic conditions to potential partners? Do you feel it's even necessary to do so?

Is there any dating activity that's a must do?

Any and all tips would be welcome 🥲😅

#ChronicFatigue #MentalHealth #Agoraphobia #AgoraphobiaWithoutHistoryOfPanicDisorder #Anxiety #Depression #GeneralizedAnxietyDisorder #FunctionalNeurologicalDisorder #ChronicIllness #IrritableBowelSyndromeIBS #BackPain #AuditoryProcessingDisorder #Asthma

Hi, my name is IzzieBea83. I'm here because I'm dealing with some physical things, some mental things, some relationship things, some kinda scary somedays but managable other days things... and I'm hoping to explore potentially rebuilding a support system of sorts... this seems like a pretty likely place to start

#MightyTogether #Anxiety #Depression #Migraine #Fibromyalgia #ADHD #OCD  #Grief #LGBTQIA #PTSD #AgoraphobiaWithoutHistoryOfPanicDisorder #GeneralizedAnxietyDisorder #SuicideAttemptSurvivors #SjogrensSyndrome #SinusTachycardia

Kind of an inflammatory headline in my opinion 😅

As it could be read as: 'stop taking #antidepressants immediately as they don't help chronic pain AT ALL'.

When rather the review is suggesting:

A) Antidepressants have been prescribed for chronic pain for years and STILL there seems to be no clear or concrete understanding into how they help the pain of chronic pain sufferers.

B) Confusion into whether antidepressants do help the pain aspect of chronic pain.

C) As many suffers have [very unstandably] mental health issues they could be helping that. Making pain management easier 🤔

C) Which antidepressants is concretely better for chronic pain.

Article found here:
'Shocking' lack of evidence on antidepressants for chronic pain

Another wonderful day for chronic pain sufferers🙃

I joke.

It is better to have this awareness and recognition that ultimately MORE RESEARCH, DONE MUCH LONGER is urgently needed.

However, I do feel like articles like this arm those who are very anti-antidepressants. The NHS is definitely trying to move away from prescribing medication in general for chronic pain sufferers.

(In my opinion) though I believe this is more a money saving move than a research influenced change of course. As soon as I see CBT as an alternative I feel vindicated 😆

For those who aren't aware the NHS (largely to save money) prescribes CBT for literally EVERYTHING nowadays 🥲😔

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This is my “BEAUTIFUL FAMILY”; My daughter-38 and older husband and his son to the left. To the right, my Diamond, her daughter, then new daughter in law and son (20). I should say my grandchildren, right. When? I had to begin going behind her back to see my Diamond when she is with her father. Then severe Long CoVid caused Dysautonomia, a big car accident where I got off pretty well- except my vision was damaged even more and Dysautonomia made even worse. I fainted every day for awhile. The 20yr old harmed me last & most 2 weeks after his 18th birthday, just a few days before mine. His mother hugged and consoled me. Made him move out. She didn’t come right back as promised. She went tanning for 4 days on a boat with an ex & still blames me 100%— again!
That beautiful young man I have always loved like my own was raised to hate me once his mom became jealous. He is gone now too. First he cleverly acted to cause me to be deleted from THE family holiday celebration.

My daughter sent me this photo after Thanksgiving. I had to call truce due to a tragedy in a woman’s life. Still, she avoided me entire month to avoid a conversation about Thanksgiving. She made herself Matron of the family. I am the ONLY adult my age (58) or older who’s child didn’t do something for them to honor them for the holiday.

It does not occur to her that all I can see is everyone’s joy as long as I am absent. My mom disowned me for being disabled years and years ago, and my sister left drugs finally to take my place with Mom. She even removed every single picture out of the picture albums shoved them in an empty kids chalk plastic container and gave them to my daughter who left them with her ex. He dumped them on my front porch. Imagine that mind bend!! That was who my holiday anchor was until I was disabled and she uninvited me year after year and then nothing.
Before or maybe not long after the incident with my grandson I directly asked my daughter, “Do I have love and belonging with you?” Her, “What do you mean!!??” I just repeated it palms up. Her, “I don’t know what to say. This feels like some kind of trick.” she said suspiciously. I was aghast. I was on the verge of tears and turning around, “No Blank. It is just that. I want to know if I have love and belonging with you.” And she answered me plainly. “Then No. You don’t.” This has come up and she has never changed it. I suppose I have a relationship because of my Diamond girl and maybe because she reaches out to me and says she loves me because I’m always here for her. Nope. Codependency left the building couple years ago. I have even had her on no contact for my sanity and lost the girl.

My depression is so deep I can barely take a breath right now. I want to be loved and to know belonging before I die.
I wake in #Pain everyday. My fourth CoVid caused my #longcovid to go Primal on me. BA.5 is not like the rest, honest. I finally turned to my alternative Dr herbal Chinese Medicine. I have a Master’s in Nursing and know know know that Western medicine might be covered but is also prescribing black label medications for chronic pain without the deep discussion patients deserve. My own mother in law suffered a stroke as a result of this. They added a black box label, but who explains that it even tells people? See-I’m so #angry . So I gotta pay $$$ out of Disability and $$ monthly for livability. From disability have a tea special made for me 3 times a day that controls my chronic pain enough to move in the house and such. It’s great. Still NO ONE understands that #ChronicPain or weakness, or just can’t either. Major #Depression is when I start to cry. Severe Depression is when I stop crying. Sometimes I start thinking and sometimes I stop. It is much scarier if I start. Pain is tolerable, #suffering is not, and #chronicsuffering is the most brutal of all.
This Grief I bear, of having NEVER had #belonging once I was also #Abandoned by my poor child that I gave all my limited resources to, I died inside. I substantially failed and raised a daughter who is compassion and empathy challenged. I don’t remember being taught to call my grandparents. I didn’t teach my daughter to. My mom is brutal. Oddly, my daughter repeats her and has barely known her?
My last straw today is a roommate who played the second mom, daughter who loves you, won’t abandon you card. I didn’t buy it. It’s talk. But I thought she could at least be a civil roommate. She walks in and out of the place without a word. Just jumps on that ABANDONED button as hard as she can! Profanity to the Nines! #Profanity #CPTSD #PTSD #ChronicDepression #Anxiety #SocialAnxiety #AgoraphobiaWithoutHistoryOfPanicDisorder #Grief #longcovid #disposable

I tried. I don’t have words for what’s happening inside me. This is like Anticipatory grief of a hospice patient you know is gonna pass but we keep holding on and loving them just the same. It all makes the body even harder to manage. Thank you, whoever you are.