Poet of Pain
I am me.
I am pain.
In America,
I’m a stain.
I’m the problem
Cause I am sick
I didn’t ask for this,
it’s not a trick.
Walking thru quicksand
with weak legs and arms
So intense it takes my breath away,
I stay so strong
I am alone. Nobody cares.
You keep telling me my pain isn’t there.
I can’t take it.
I’m not dumb.
I’m paying for other people’s problems
I get the epidemic,
But this is insane!
I am human.
I have pain.
My spine is gonna be the death of me.
Why won’t these doctors let me be?
Pain is hard, it’s all I see.
Please don’t kill the rest of me.
Pain stole my job,
Pain then it stole my dreams.
It stole making love,
even that hurts me.
Why can’t they see me,
Why don’t they care?
Read my MRI,
measure it there!
I feel the fire,
what lives inside flames.
My child sees this,
who do you think he blames?
You can’t fix me,
Everything I’ve tried.
Now taking my meds,
Would you rather I died?
I wish they could feel how much it hurts to be me
I don’t matter, I want to be free.
No one hates this more than me.
Those pills help me
They’re all I have left
Why are you killing me?
I wish for death.
A broken body.
A spine that’s failed.
Oh, you saw my med list…
Discrimination prevails.
Please don’t take my pills away.
You can count them everyday.
You can test me as you wish.
Please don’t treat me like I don’t exist.
So sharp it steals the breath away,
I will smile,
but it won’t stay,
Pain takes my happy away.
Please don’t take what works for me.
For the sake of my sanity,
I am slowly being driven insane…
What do you think this does to my brain?
I am me.
I am in pain.
You can’t fix me.
What will remain?
I can’t do this.
It’s getting too hard.
I am a problem,
you want to discard.
When I can’t go out,
no sun in my day.
Debilitating pain,
Those pills are all that can take it away.
The pain I feel is real to me,
for 13 years on disability.
It stole my youth.
It stole my job.
I’m legally disabled.
Not a wack job.
I’ve been a good patient,
I don’t make a scene.
I don’t give you any reason
to think I’m not clean.
What do you think happens at the ER?
Cold and rude, absolute disregard.
I’m the problem because I’m there.
I’m not asking for drugs,
I praying they’ll care.
Imagine being me,
scared and alone,
If Tylenol worked,
I’d be at home.
I lay there anyway.
I can’t take anymore.
I’m belittled and labeled,
my tears hit the floor
Why do you think people are dying?
In pain and alone
Alone in pain crying
The fentanyl crisis will take me away
Please don’t take my meds away
Chronic pain
Suicide.
Pain like this can eats at your soul
My narcotics,
I’ve clearly controlled.
I don’t want to die, don’t leave me alone…
Treated like a criminal,
When I am sick..
This is something I didn’t pick
I’m not a criminal
This is too hard.
Opiates work.
Please don’t discard.
One article from the CDC
Ever since then,
I never feel seen.
I deserve to live life with quality
Discriminated at my hometown pharmacy
I am sick, so I’m the problem.
Opiates work.
How old is Laudanum?
Please just please, will you help me?
I’m so much more than my MME
I’m more than orange bottles,
I am me.
I’m more than orange bottles
I am me.
I’m more than orange bottles
I’m more than your orange bottles
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