It's really just one of them days, where nothing bad happends really. Just have a werid/off day i guess. LOL. I felt a little #restless this morning during Zoom group. No worker today. The store i get takeout today was closed cuz of no power. lol I forget what else i was gonna say. #TheMighty #MightyTogether
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I almost dated a guy who found my relentless foot boucing really annoying. Its a coping mechanism I adopted from my Mom. I do it even when I don't necessarily feel anxious, its just comforting. My current boyfriend actually finds it just as comforting as I do. Keep surrounding yourself with people who care. He knows it helps me and he put in the effort to try to understand. Just very thankful for my support system.
I am so tired of worrying about my family. My mom doesn't accept me because of the changes from borderline and depression, and my dad just stands behind his girlfriend and blames me for not checking in, even though he never writes either. I mean - does he think this will help me? I had a suicide attempt last New Year's Eve and honestly he could have been thinking. Why should I blame myself when it's not even my fault?
And somehow my life is going down the drain again, I'm in debt, I'm currently having a depressive episode and I've started a new job which is very stressful. Will everything get better at some point? Yesterday I signed up for a program, called quit the shit. A program that helps people to quit smoking weed. I hope it will get better soon and I can be happy again. Maybe sometime in a few months I'll go to a clinic to do DBT. That is supposed to help borderliners.
I don’t know, my thoughts keep running and running and running in circles and I can’t do anything to stop it. It’s exhausting.
Whenever I am watching TV or movies, anything except comedy, I continually hum, and have done so all my life. Sometimes I hum an actual tune, but in the vast majority of the time, I hum just 2 or 3 random notes, which I will repeat for really long periods of time. Sometimes it is in unison with a main note in the background music, or a harmony, but most times the notes have nothing to do with the music soundtrack. As you can imagine, it distracts and irritates other people to varying degrees. My solution, since I haven't been able to stop it, is just to watch alone. If you still don't understand what I am talking about, imagine sitting next to someone humming the cello notes to the theme from JAWS while you are trying to concentrate on an episode of The Gilmore Girls, or Dateline, or Law & Order. I've done this my whole life, and it soothes me while at the same time it embarrasses me because I can't stop without starting up again a couple of minutes later, usually unbeknownst to me. I'm not actually looking for a cure for this. I just want to know if I am the only one, and does anybody know why I might do it, or where it comes from? Thanks for your time. Peace.♧
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I never thought I was an #anxious person and just recently I have come to the realization I am not perfect, tho no one is. I’ve always been a very social person and my bf and I just moved to a new city a year ago. Leaving behind and great and supportive group of friends. I find myself more and more feeling #restless when I don’t have something to do. I get upset when my bf doesn’t want to plan things out. I get heavy chest pounding feeling that I NEED to be doing something! I feel it’s maybe because I don’t have those friends here that I could just call up on a whim and come over. I get upset when plans change last minute and I wanna cry. I feel rushed and anxious if I think I’m going to be on time to work and not early. I hate feeling rushed. I like to be overly organized and if something is out of place it must be fixed. I feel like a child that can’t control their #feelings . From what I have read it feels as tho I have #TimeAnxiety or #OCPD .
Sleep…I’d give anything to have a deep meaningful, restful sleep.
The kind of sleep that takes you on a journey so incredible that when you awake you feel reborn!
Every bone in your body feels..brand new, your skin…glows, your senses so incredibly alive, you feel the rays of the sun dance against your goosebumps as you stretch your limps into a perfect bow….
The kind of sleep that takes away every single ache and pain from your tired muscles, despite the fact that you haven’t lifted a finger in so long other than to rub gently against your throbbing aching body…
The kind of sleep that makes you forget about everything and wonder 💭 “What day is it and where am I?”….
Sleep so deep, so good, so restful, you are ready to take on the world 🌎
I’d give anything for that kind of sleep…I crave that sleep, I need that sleep, I want that sleep, I dream of that sleep…..
Crazy to think it but if only I could sleep that deep, I feel that half my pain and problems will just sail away…..
#sleepless #Insomnia #restless #ChronicFatigue #sleepdeprivasion #nosleep #Fibromyalgia #tired #Depression #Letmesleep #slumber
I'M feeling a little #restless this morning. A little #tired It's a cloudy day. I have no idea why i feel sad or feel like crying. Something is in the air or something is rubbing off on me, #sad #Depression
What do you do when you can’t do it anymore? #Depression #Anxiety #restless
how the heck do y’all kill time? i feel like i’ve been doing everything i can but my internal energy far exceeds my external energy/abilities. #Disability #Immunocompromised #BorderlinePersonalityDisorder #BPD #boredom #restless #Ugh
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