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    Repetitive HUMMING while watching movies and TV?

    Whenever I am watching TV or movies, anything except comedy, I continually hum, and have done so all my life. Sometimes I hum an actual tune, but in the vast majority of the time, I hum  just 2 or 3 random notes, which I will repeat for really long periods of time. Sometimes it is in unison with a main note in the background music, or a harmony,  but most times the notes have nothing to do with the music soundtrack. As you can imagine, it distracts and irritates other people to varying degrees. My solution, since I haven't been able to stop it, is just to watch alone. If you still don't understand what I am talking about, imagine sitting next to someone humming the cello notes to the theme from JAWS while you are trying to concentrate on an episode of The Gilmore Girls, or Dateline, or Law & Order.  I've done this my whole life, and it soothes me while at the same time it embarrasses me because I can't stop without starting up again a couple of minutes later, usually unbeknownst to me. I'm not actually looking for a cure for this. I just want to know if I am the only one, and does anybody know why I might do it, or where it comes from? Thanks for your time. Peace.♧

    #Humming #ADHD #CPTSD #DistractMe #Anxiety #hums #BipolarDisorder #Bipolar2Disorder #GeneralizedAnxietyDisorder #Autism #Aspergers #PervasiveDevelopmentalDisorders #ASD #AutismSpectrumDisorders #Stimming #stim #BodyFocusedRepetitiveBehaviors #BFRBAwarenessWeek #ADHD #CombinedPresentationADHD #noise #Music #Selfsoothing #Soothing #Calming #Depression #neurodiverse #neurodivergent #distraction #ObsessiveCompulsiveDisorder #obsess #obssess #Singing #ThroatSinging #noise #Movies #TV #Drama #Fidgety #restless    #DisruptiveImpulseControlAndConductDisorders #impulsive #compulsion #Habit #habitual #Misophonia #

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    #Abuse #Trauma #Habit # reaction#self sabotage

    It sucks still having the reaction of a dog who just got kicked when someone raises their voice to me. Kind of wish the manic pissed off part of me would say something to defend myself. I still take the beating. I find my mind freezes of words to say back until the person leaves. The thoughts flood and I blame myself even though it’s not my fault. 😢


    What happen to the people who are feeling grateful every day? #COVID19 #CheckInWithMe

    It's safe to say that COVID19 has changed a lot of people's life in every possible way right now. While we are facing this hardship, it's important to focus on positivity, growth, and resiliency.

    Make gratitude a daily habit. The benefits of gratitude can reach mental well-being and even extend to physical wellbeing.

    Here is what I'm grateful for
    - staying with my family
    - regular contact with my friends
    - meals on my table
    - raining days
    - my dog

    What are you grateful for today?
    #Gratitude #Habit  #MentalHealth  #resiliency  #Wellbeing


    Do We Secretly Like Pain?

    Being chronically ill is a full time job. It takes all your patience, energy, emotional wherewithal, and puts a massive dent in your wallet. Spending a significant portion of life leapfrogging from doctor to doctor leaves just enough time to reflect on the insanity of it all. I don’t know about you, but I often want to throw my hands up and just say, “Fuck it!”
    And yet, tucked discreetly between the folds of frustration, is another, surprising feeling: comfort.
    Sure, we hate being sick, spending all our free time on exam tables, retelling the same sad stories to strangers in white coats. But we have to ask ourselves, if we hate it so much, why are we doing it? Or maybe another way to unpack it is to ask, what are we getting out of it?
    This can be a controversial question to pose, the implication being that it’s “all in our heads.” Trust me, even as the person posing the question, I still take offense to it! I’ll be the first to say that I really am sick (and I know you are too!) But, I’ll also be the first to say that, we have an incredible, innate healing capacity. With the right cocktail of patience, diet, lifestyle, relaxation, and mindset (yes, how we view our pain actually changes the way we experience it), many illnesses can be reversed, and downright prevented.
    So I’m proposing that comfort is one of the many things that can keep us stuck in Perpetual Patient Land. It is extending our stay in a place we swear we don’t want to be. When we unfold the layers, and take a closer look into the folds, we will reveal some painful truths.
    Let’s peel back the layers, shall we?
    For one, we like to pretend that we seek out joyful, pleasant experiences in life. That we don’t choose to be miserable. Wrong! We seek out what is familiar, and therefore, comfortable. And, what is familiar for the chronically ill or victimized person? You got it: illness and victimization. We can’t help it - that’s all we know. So, while venturing into a world where we might actually feel healthy and empowered may seem like the ultimate goal, it’s actually terrifying. So terrifying, on some level, we actually prefer to remain in pain. Jamie-Lynn Sigler, who has lived with MS for years aptly said, “I don’t know who I am without this illness.” It’s that push-pull of desperately wanting to heal, yet being petrified of that very thing.
    So here we are, finding ourselves frequently sick out of sheer, unconscious habit. I’m reminded of this each time I feel sick and rush to get a new round of tests and blood work, only to be told, “Everything looks fine.” Then I start to wonder, with a perfectly clean bill of health, why is my body feeling crappy enough to bring me back to a doctor? Habit, comfort, familiarity.

    #Habit #ChronicPain #Comfort

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    I make it a point to make a #Habit of kindness. We'd have world peace if everybody did.


    Why do I constantly rub my feet together? When I’m anxious, going to sleep, thinking, watching tv. Does anyone else do it? #question #anxious #Sleep

    Ever since I was very young I noticed I always rub my feet together. I will do it to the point of discomfort at times. I will do it when I’m going to sleep, just laying down, at the doctors, anxious, just sitting, and watching tv. My legs and feet will become tired from doing it so much and I won’t want to stop doing it. I only notice it when my feet/ ankles become tired or they start to hurt from rubbing together. I think it’s really weird that I do it and I don’t want to keep doing it. #Habit #Uncomfortable #Feet #AnkleFootOrthosis #Rub #Nervoushabit

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