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Dream XIV: Calculus and A.J.
This dream was set in a classroom combining the features of my high school and college classrooms, though more run down than either of those places were in real life. A. J. Cook sat behind me, appearing as she had in the film Ripper: Letter from Hell. She handed me a sheaf of calculus worksheets and asked me to make sure they were right. My impression was that we were friends, though upon waking I belatedly realized she may have been manipulating me. I pretended that I understood calculus and told her that I hadn't even started on my calculus worksheets, which were due at that moment. She left, and I took her worksheets to the front, where the professor sat. He alluded to my crush on the young woman A.J. Cook played in the dream, which I freely admitted exists (and reflects my real world crush on A.J. Cook herself.) There was an odd exchange in which the professor said he'd been in touch with my therapist and the general agreement was that the young woman portrayed by A.J. Cook in the dream was drawn to my "fierce intelligence." If I wasn't certain the young woman was manipulating me, I knew certainly that the professor was. This was likely based on attempts by therapists to manipulate me during therapy sessions. Male therapists attempts at manipulation were clumsy and easily detected. Female therapists were sly, with their manipulations going unrecognized until years later. It was nice to feel a bond with the young woman in that moment. Perhaps her motives were not sinister and that the events of the dream depicted a genuine friendship.
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