I have been struggling a lot lately. I am also looking for a girlfriend to chat with online when I am lonely or need a close friend. Someone who will love to flirt, someone compassionate and someone who is sensitive and understanding. Lately it's been a struggle for me as I tried to establish a relationship with a male friend of mine, but he was not a good person for me. XoXo wish me luck. 🤞
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I’ll have #Gooddays & I’ll have bad, though I’m still constantly struggling with my #innerself daily. There are a lot of things I know I have to do, but either my #Anxiety gets worked up, or I’ll try to get it done, or I tell and/or give myself reminders & still somehow end up forgetting about it or I’ve become distracted.
I’ve noticed that my train of thought can now go all over the place. Which is why I now have a lot of notebooks that I could use if I needed to let it out.
When it comes to phone calls I need to make, or appointments to schedule… I spend hours worrying about the #Start - #during - & #End of the whole thing. Before I know it, I can’t call because they’re now closed. Of course now I’ve become #Irritated & #angry at myself.
It never used to be this hard. I know I need to find a job, even IF the job I had #terminated me in part of my #MentalIllness . I feel stuck with no #Positivity in site. & It doesn’t help that even with or without my anxiety ramping up, my #Pride will not let me ask for help.
But…
•I give myself a ‘thumbs up’ daily for getting out of bed.
• I cheer when I have motivation to shower.
• I pat myself on the back, in my mind of course… when I do laundry & put them away.
I still struggle with driving anywhere if I’m alone. Hunter, who is my furbaby soulmate, but also my #esa is always by my side, & either one of my sons or sometimes both would join me so I’m not freaking out while driving on the road.
I feel #Guilt that I’m not being the mom that they need me to be. I feel bad every single time I ask them for help (when I’m getting #overwhelmed trying to tidy up the house). I am mad that my #breakdown caused me to fail in my performance at work & that I #Struggled to do the things they asked of me (because I was never informed from the start that there was info that they could show me & help me with #FMLA ‘cause it would’ve been easy back then to get things in order than it was a couple of months ago). I felt #invisible . I felt my #Voice didn’t matter. I tried… all by myself… in the end, the company I loved working at didn’t give a … about me.
I’m sorry for ranting about nonsense. :(
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This weekend, the City of Calgary celebrated Pride. It is one of my favourite times of the year. I've marched in the parade numerous times, and been a cheering supporter just as many. It fills me with so much hope, so much happiness, to see all the rainbow people, all the allies, everyone who thinks it's okay to just be who you are, gathered together in celebration. When I see those rainbows, even when it's not Pride, I feel that hope.
It's hard to explain to someone why Pride is important if they've never had to pretend to be something they're not. I knew I liked other boys by the age of 11. It's not that tough a concept to grasp. The same time that heterosexual people began noticing members of the opposite assigned gender, I began noticing everyone. It kind of ruled.
Until I realized that it was the sort of thing that could, quite literally at the time, have put my life in danger. So I hid. The proverbial closet took me in and kept me safe, but also kept me separated from a side of myself that I've only recently been able to express and embrace. I had to hide myself away, and I mourn the life I might have had in a more accepting world.
So when I see the rainbows, when Pride is around the corner and I see the city dressing up for us, showing us its support, when I watch the kings, queens, bankers, bakers, retirees, teenagers, everyone from every walk of life marching together in that parade, cheering together in that parade....
Yeah. That gives me hope. My dear queer Calgary family. I hope I'm there to celebrate with you again next year. Happy Pride!
📺 - #Gratitude , Forgiveness, Turning Points & Transphobes - #DwhellOnIt Ep. 60 - tinyurl.com/yckytkh7
🗣 - "Hooray you! Hooray, cisnormative communities, cisnormative environments, cisnormative businesses, and cisnormative lawmakers, hooray that after millennia of #gender -diverse individuals existing in the world, you finally are starting to create a space where they do not get attacked as much."
❓ - What's #DwhellOnIt ?
👀 - Dwhell On It is a series where I answer your questions about my lived #experience as a #trans woman!
📺 - A new episode gets uploaded every week! - tinyurl.com/nzbr8k27
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* What are the most significant turning points of a #trans person's life?
* How do you be #grateful for anything when all we face are hate and abuse and transphobia by everyone?
* What is something that you would never forgive?
* What are your religious and political views?
* What is the most challenging thing to understand about transphobes?
🔗 - Links!
* When does your transition end? - https://tinyurl.com/bdcp9w6e
* "You mention you don't regret the time lost. How do you do that? I'm starting HRT at 39, but I've been questioning my #gender for 15-20 years, and I'm constantly thinking about what would have happened if I'd figured it #Out or been braver early on." - https://tinyurl.com/2zcxas8y
* Let's Talk About #Sports Emm Bee! - https://tinyurl.com/44xn76r2
* How Presentation Affects Representation - https://tinyurl.com/6cyw8k39
* #Transgender Awareness Week - "Progress takes time, but it should not end with us going back in time." - https://tinyurl.com/mvujbsup
👀 - Create #change !
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🗣 - "Would I stop? Would I go back to a pre-transition life? Would I erase being #trans from who I am as a person? No! Absolutely not! My name is Taylor Lakhryst. I am a #Transgender woman proud to be who I am."
❓ - What's #DwhellOnIt ?
👀 - Dwhell On It is a series where I answer your questions about my lived #experience as a #trans woman!
📺 - A new episode gets uploaded every week! - https://youtube.com/playlist?list=PLr2CrTrMJaIzM7ETpDxpMcGHhJ1TPxPq4
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* How important is being #trans to your overall identity?
* Do you play games? In what game universe would you want to live?
* What parts of your life have changed since you came #Out as a #trans woman?
* What can you say to a mature #Transgender woman who feels like nobody won't ever love her? FYI, I'm recently divorced.
* Is there anywhere you feel more #Out of place now than before you transitioned?
🔗 - Links!
* #Canada Voted In Favour of Policing Women's Bodies! - https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=d38u-qP8lqg&list=PLr2CrTrMJaIzM7ETpDxpMcGHhJ1TPxPq4&index=1
* Expectations, Responsibilities and Talking to Goldfish - https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=VjyMgY0hBg8&list=PLr2CrTrMJaIzM7ETpDxpMcGHhJ1TPxPq4&index=1
* How Presentation Affects Representation - https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=HvYnMgeH_IU&list=PLr2CrTrMJaIzM7ETpDxpMcGHhJ1TPxPq4&index=1
* Has your #social life changed since you transitioned? - https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=DUrOnn4p6ak&list=PLr2CrTrMJaIzM7ETpDxpMcGHhJ1TPxPq4&index=11&t=490s
* Has romance changed for you since you transitioned? Are you willing to share a fantasy? - https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=hcCfwc7oGCc&list=PLr2CrTrMJaIzM7ETpDxpMcGHhJ1TPxPq4&index=1&t=1430s
👀 - Create #change !
📣 - End anti-2SLGBTQIA+ abuse! - act.newmode.net/action/hirewheller/csr
📣 - You can #help ! Everything inspiring HireWheller stays ongoing - biased systems, ignorant platforms, violent abusers & isolated victims.
📣 - Grassroots #power comes from its #people ! Get involved or refer others you know to challenge systemic violence & oppression!
💻 - Connect!
@HireWheller: A grassroots group to #help the 2SLGBTQIA+ #Community overcome often-minimized struggles.
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#Facebook : https://www.facebook.com/HireWheller-103322085282334
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👱🏼♀️ - Look me up!
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* Text: Dwhell on it w/ Taylor Lakhryst Ep. 57 - Being Trans, Playing Games, Getting Loved, and More! - HIREWHELLER
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🗣 - "Taylor Lakhryst was an undecided voter who participated in a #CBC program called Face to Face during last year's federal election campaign. While being on the show gave her a chance to ask questions of a party leader, she felt CBC's production choices spoiled the experience by making her appear inept and powerless."
❓ - What's #DwhellOnIt ?
👀 - Dwhell On It is a series where I answer your questions about my lived experience as a #trans woman!
📺 - A new episode gets uploaded every week! - https://youtube.com/playlist?list=PLr2CrTrMJaIzM7ETpDxpMcGHhJ1TPxPq4
‼️ - Get engaged!
➕ - Subscribe for more episodes & similar #Content ! - www.youtube.com/TaylorLakhryst
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"While you expressed #Gratitude for the #Opportunity to provide visibility on the subject of abuse toward the 2SLBGTQIA+ #Community , you felt that #CBC made choices which diluted your appearance. It left you feeling, if not misrepresented, then underrepresented."
It feels as if #CBC chose to represent me as what I interpret as inept, powerless, and stuck with candy-coated concerns because who I am isn't palatable enough for Canadians who can't cope that #people such as myself strive to inspire and create #change .
#social platforms highlighted my segment as being of the utmost importance on an issue that had not been placed front and centre in the campaign until my appearance.
I continued to focus much of my argument on the treatment of my introductory video. I emphasized how problematic it was that this video highlighted "my love for #Sports and karaoke" while omitting more substantive #Comments about the importance of placing responsibility for bigotry and hate-based abuse on the abusers rather than the victims.
"I'm an undecided voter because" and "Let's be #leaders …" were extracted from two completely different sections of what I provided. #CBC created that line and not me, and I'm not sure if that is conducive to "accuracy."
"You stated that you followed all the directives given to you in advance by producers, yet you were the only one of the four participants given less than 40 seconds of airtime."
"You also reiterated that #CBC exercised poor judgment when it failed to include your exchange about pronouns with #ErinOToole .”
#CBC watered me down and presented me with the safest, most palatable and most comfortable image they could build based on the information I provided.
"Your complaint is, first and foremost, a reminder that the stories journalists tell are not really "theirs." They are the stories of real #people with real lives, ambitions, and concerns."
Journalistic Standards and Practices covers much ground regarding ethical #Journalism but doesn't cover specific circumstances.
"There is more debate to be had about editing your introductory video … it's clear that those producers took two risks with your video."
"On your frustration that the #question you asked on the show was "negotiated," … I worried it meant that programmers were forcing you to ask the questions that they wanted."
🔗 - Links!
How Presentation Affects Representation - tinyurl.com/yc26c89x
Your Friends Appreciate a Random Check-In Call or Text More Than You Realize - Your Friends Appreciate a Random Check-In More Than You Realize
What four undecided voters asked #ErinOToole | Face to Face 2021 - tinyurl.com/2p8ntybn
#Media and #Journalism are transphobic. I was on #CBC News: The National Face to Face - tinyurl.com/5yfc9a65
#Canada Voted In Favour of Policing Women's Bodies! - tinyurl.com/56b67cr9
Is there anything that #people expect you to be good at but are very bad at? - tinyurl.com/br4j293z
#CBC News: The National | #ErinOToole , Alberta's deadly COVID-19 surge, TIFF returns - tinyurl.com/4mvaemvy
👀 - Create #change !
📣 - End anti-2SLGBTQIA+ abuse! - act.newmode.net/action/hirewheller/csr
📣 - You can #help ! Everything inspiring HireWheller stays ongoing - biased systems, ignorant platforms, violent abusers & isolated victims.
📣 - Grassroots #power comes from its #people ! Get involved or refer others you know to challenge systemic violence & oppression!
💻 - Connect!
@HireWheller: A grassroots group to #help the 2SLGBTQIA+ #Community overcome often-minimized struggles.
Instagram: https://instagram.com/hirewheller
Facebook: https://www.facebook.com/HireWheller-103322085282334
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👱🏼♀️ - Look me up!
TaylorLakhryst: #Transgender woman, advocate, INFJ, ♊️, she/her/hers 🏳️⚧️
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#Gratitude #Opportunity #social #Sports #Comments #leaders #canadian #gender #grateful #interview #manitoba #News #Out #Respect #Safety #Success #winnipeg #Youtube #active #Activism #Anxiety #athlete #Business #causes #Charity #donate #Energy #equality #Fundraising #Lesbian #LGBT #LGBTQ #Kindness #marketing #Media #nonbinary #philanthropy #Pride
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🗣 - "#trans erasure, especially being platformed as loudly as it is in the US in recent history, is a real and serious thing."
📺 - Hormones, Acceptance, Romance, And Priorities - #DwhellOnIt Ep. 52 - tinyurl.com/2acnyudu
❓ - What's #DwhellOnIt ?
👀 - Dwhell On It is a series where I answer your questions about my lived #experience as a trans woman!
📺 - A new episode gets uploaded weekly! - tinyurl.com/nzbr8k27
‼️ - Get engaged!
➕ - Subscribe for more episodes & similar #Content - tinyurl.com/26pfst7v
✉️ - #Comment w/ thoughts & questions!
🔖 - Bookmarks!
Have hormones made you cry about anything that you were surprised you cried about?
What are your top priorities?
I'm still closeted and don't know if I could ever come out because I'll get seen like I'm different. Did or do you still feel the same way, and how do you cope with that?
Has romance changed for you since you transitioned? Are you willing to share a fantasy?
🔗 - Links!
What part of advocacy is your favourite? What is the most time-consuming? What is the most exhausting? - tinyurl.com/3jytjfwy
What encouraged you to come out? Were there other times you felt you should have but didn't? - tinyurl.com/c27bpwse
Has your social life changed since you transitioned? - tinyurl.com/2d229m39
What do you think about transphobia in the #LGBTQ #Community ? - tinyurl.com/3828fkpr
What does someone who wants to #Love you need to know? Is there anything that someone you love needs to know? - tinyurl.com/ms835kbw
👀 - Create #change !
📣 - End anti-2SLGBTQIA+ abuse! - tinyurl.com/2p98f8hc
📣 - You can #help ! Everything inspiring HireWheller stays ongoing - biased systems, ignorant platforms, violent abusers & isolated victims.
📣 - Grassroots #power comes from its #people ! Get involved or refer others you know to challenge systemic violence & oppression!
💻 - Connect!
@HireWheller: A grassroots group to help the 2SLGBTQIA+ community overcome often-minimized struggles.
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#Facebook : tinyurl.com/6pww46b8
Twitter: tinyurl.com/26sbj4zb
👱🏼♀️ - Look me up!
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🗣 - “Someone who has made up their mind will not change their mind. So, stop trying to worry about the fee-fees of someone who’s a terrible human being.”
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❓ - What's #DwhellOnIt
👀 - Dwhell On It is a series where I answer your #questions about my lived #experience as a #trans woman!
📺 - A new episode gets uploaded every week! - youtube.com/playlist
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05:20 - Let's talk inclusion!
17:50 - Let's talk TERFs!
39:15 - Let's talk about being exclusionary!
51:08 - Let's talk about suppression!
53:03 - End anti-2SLGBTQIA+ abuse! - act.newmode.net/action/hirewheller/csr
🔗 - Links mentioned!
03:21 - #Letters4TransKids - "You Know Who You Are!" - www.youtube.com/watch
10:00 - Accomplishments, #Gratitude And More! - www.youtube.com/watch
30:30 - Workouts: Worth the effort. Bigots: Nope. - www.youtube.com/watch
40:55 - City Council Approves To Prefer #Kindness - www.youtube.com/watch
44:10 - Travelling, Being Left-Handed & More! - www.youtube.com/watch
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