hormoneimbalance

Hey, so I turned 26 on the 31st of March. And I seriously thought I’d be further in a year since my divorce from an abusive narcissist. I’m not sure what to do at this point, I cannot hold a job. I have severe mental breakdowns at every interview… I’ve been diagnosed with ptsd, anxiety, depression, bipolar disorder, and dissociation. The place I recently tried to work, I took a mental health day because pulling into the parking lot I had a mental breakdown and couldn’t stop crying. And my boss said “ everyone has mental health problems, what makes you any different “ well I’m aware and I completely acknowledge that everyone deals with their own mental health issues, and they do it in their own ways. I can’t deal with mine the same way the next person deals with theirs.

It was suggested that I started going through menopause at age 20 or so. I had endometriosis, pcos, when I had a period. I’ve also been diagnosed with hypothyroidism.

I only take medication for the hypothyroidism, I stopped taking the mental medications for numerous reasons. Mainly because they weren’t helping, and I tried many over the course of 2 years. So my fear is that my mental state is because of my hormones and no one really knows what’s going on with my hormones.
The medicine for my thyroid works then stops working, my endocrinologist refuses to believe I’m menopausal . He’s still trying to get me to have a period but my body refuses.

I’m so lost, my parents act like they understand what’s going on, but when I told them I had a mental breakdown which was hard for me to do because I fear failure and telling them that, I didn’t want them to get mad at me.. well they said “you just started that job?”

I can’t sleep, and when I can, I wake up and I do not feel rested, I’m not hungry/thirsty (I do eat), I’m tired, and weak. My cognitive function and memory is getting worse every day, I tell people it’s like I’m 70-80 years old living in a 26 year old body.

I don’t understand why I’m like this, I don’t know what’s causing what. I just want it to stop long enough for me to breathe.

#Endometriosis #PTSD #ComplexPosttraumaticStressDisorder #Anxiety #PanicAttacks #Mentalbreakdown #AnxietyAttack #PolycysticOvarySyndrome #Amenorrhea #DontUnderstand #lost #AbuseSurvivors #Narcassism #hormoneimbalance

Not many people probably think that tampons have anything to do with accessibility but they do. I have been using the same brand fr 30yrs U by Kotex Security. This brand is the only kind that fits my body my hands can grip it with one hand, not 2, and insert almost flawless. Unfortunately they discontinued them. I bleed monthly and go through a box or 2 depending on if I’m having a heavy flow, I never know when this will be. I have to always wear heavy absorbing just in case. But now I’m supposed to rely on other brands that I’ve tried that I can’t even use one handed. Did this company not take into account that they run the market for heavy flow hygiene products? Those with endometriosis or pcos or have hormone fluctuations will now have to rely on inferior products, that aren’t as accessible. I started a petition if you can please sign and share chng.it/L9NvTVjgqr #Endometriosis #PolycysticOvarySyndrome #hormoneimbalance #Lipedema #Accessibility #ThyroidDisease

Health Post: Long Caption/Story Below ￬

It’s been a year now. The picture on the left I have never shared with anyone prior to today. In the photo on the left I was 116 pounds with unmanaged chronic pain, working insane shift work, barely sleeping, & barely functioning. My pain got so bad I ended up so sick that I lost 56 pounds in just under 3 months!

I struggled with mental health for the first time & experienced crippling anxiety during this period of time. I lost a lot of people I cared very much about who did not understand what I was going through with my physical health & my new anxiety about my health. (I don’t blame others, it’s hard to understand at a young age unless you or someone you love has been through it).

Although a year later, things are not perfect. I am still not back to work but I’m making so much progress in learning to live with my chronic illness(es) and still be healthy and happy. I know I haven’t talked about my health much lately but with the change of seasons I feel like the three steps I’ve taken forward, I now feel like I’ve taken a step back. I’m not going to let this deter me however! Moral of this post: it gets better, it gets easier & healing is not linear or straightforward! Keep pushing 💕💪🏼
#ChronicIllness #InvisibleIllness #Fibromyalgia #ChronicPain #PCOS #WeightLoss #Healing #Anxiety #Pain #progress #Positivity #Motivation #Healing #MyofascialPainSyndrome #vitaminddeficiency #young #Canada #Osteoarthritis #osteomalacia #rickets #Migraine #PainManagement #PainAcceptance #GenitoPelvicPain #ItGetsBetter #BackPain #IrritableBowelSyndromeIBS #IrritableBowelSyndromeIBS #ChronicIllnessBloggers #blogger #Asthma #FoodAllergies #Allergies #PersonalGrowth #kneesurgery #Appendectomy #fighter #warrior #hormoneimbalance #HereForYou #pacing #TheMighty #MightyFeatures