unwell

I know that a lot of us feel unwell most of the time. That probably wasn't a very well phrased title. But what I mean is... Do you get easily upset when you have a cold/flu/infection?

As an example, back in May I picked up a very nasty stomach bug (that my baby nephew ever-so-lovingly decided to share)... And for the entire day, I just kept breaking down into tears. For pretty much no reason. I don't know if it was frustration or if I'd just had enough... But I've noticed it happens every time I'm unwell.

I've had a cold for about a week now (several COVID tests have come back negative, despite me being certain this isn't an ordinary cold), and I just keep breaking down at the drop of a hat. My sister brought me a slice of my favourite cake from my favourite bakery and I burst into tears. The level of emotion is crazy. I don't like crying even when I'm feeling okay, so when I suddenly start sobbing, I get angry at myself and then usually end up crying more... I keep wondering if it's simply exhaustion? I'm immuno-compromised, so what other people would call a mild illness, is usually something that knocks me off my feet.

I'd just like to know if there's anyone else out there that's like this? And if you know of a way I could maybe minimise the tears? I feel so silly.

#chronicillnesswarrior #ChronicPain #POTS #EDS #NAFLD #LiverDisease #Diabetes #InterstitialCystitis #cold #Flu #BPD #Migraines #IBS #exhaustion #tired #emotional #unwell #immunosuppressed

#Anxiety is #crippling in many ways we wouldn’t think related.
You may lose your #Appetite and eat very little, but after eating just a bite of bread, you might feel #sick . #nauseous .

#trembling and #feelingweak can also be attributed to #Anxiety .

If you’re feeling #unwell , or #anxious , or perhaps don’t know you’re suffering with #Anxiety , see a dr. It’s a horrible state to be in.

I hope this helps. Try to stay #calm , diminish noise,

Got the COVID test result today and it’s unfortunately positive. Very weak (can’t support myself for long), fatigued, achy, sore throat and a cough.

As a result of having COVID, I can’t take antibiotics for the infection I have in my gum (dentist asked me to send a pic of it, and said it was probably an infection but obviously couldn’t say it definitely was). Taking antibiotics would rid my body of the good bacteria and I’d be basically worse off. So it’s just a matter of waiting.

Thankfully it does appear to be getting better on its own. It’s probably TMI if I go into detail, so I’ll just say yesterday I was able to eat some food on the side that hurts AND I managed to wear my retainer at night. The day without it worked wonders (it was irritating it so I didn’t wear it for a day, I had asked 111 about it and they said it was fine otherwise I’d have worn it anyway).

#Infection #COVID19 #positive #weakness #Pain #Fatigue #unwell #Dentist

I have no idea what’s going on with me at the moment. I don’t know if I’m coming down with a cold/flu or if my body is just starting to give up on me...

Since the 27th September I’ve had this CONSTANT queasy feeling that has left me eating very very tiny amounts of food - perhaps half a meal every couple of days (if that). I’ve even been struggling to drink. And last Wednesday evening I started to ache all over my body so much that I was crying an awful lot. Then on Thursday I was very badly congested - I assumed I was starting to develop a cold. But by Friday nearly all of my symptoms were gone; I just ached a little bit. But since then I’ve stayed in this very unpleasant place since then where the cold actually feels like it’s hurting me. I have not had any fever at all.

And then starting from this morning it just feels as though every muscle in my body is extremely stiff and sore. I can barely raise a cup to my lips and brushing my teeth was nearly impossible. It’s almost like I’ve been working out or weight lifting, which is something I haven’t done in years. The back of my throat is a bit scratchy and sometimes my nose begins to run a little but when I blow it there’s nothing coming out.

I’ve taken my bed time medication early I’m hopefully going to fall asleep soon. So, like the title says... I’m so sick and tired of feeling sick and tired. Do you think this could be the flu? I haven’t been able to have my vaccine yet as my GP surgery is waiting for more stock to arrive. Usually by October I’ve already had it done. I haven’t had the flu in at least four or five years, thankfully. It always knocks me on my ass for a very long time when I have had it before.

Any advice would be greatly appreciated!

#chronicillnesswarrior #POTS #EDS #NAFLD #BPD #InterstitialCystitis #Diabetes #Flu #cold #unwell #Aches

All night cleaning missions
Are a problem for me
They demand zero shut-eye
I blame my EUPD

On these predawn sessions
I don't get much done
But much more than daytime
Less stressful, more fun

The advantage of darkness
While all around sleep
Is that nobody can see me
Though I fear they will peep

Through cameras and monitors
Secreted round the house
I know that "they" watch me
I asked when I dowse

But even if "they" watch me
There's nothing to see
A crazy lady dances wildly
That crazy lady, me

To throw spectators off the scent
I add an extra filter
I put my padded headphones on
To throw them out of kilter

No-one can see AND hear the beat
Of music which I listen
So in between the many chores
I dance til sweat does glisten

Until the fear begins to rise
Paranoia fills my senses
I move and sway and feel alive
This crazy lady dances

But then I stop afraid and mute
Disorder in my brain
I go to put the rubbish out
The night is full of rain

I hear the sound of life outside
Hedgehog perhaps or fox?
My centre returns and I am calm
I just check all the locks

It's almost time for t'sun to rise
I'm feeling a bit tired
I won't sleep though cos now I'm sure
The house is defo wired

I have the day to hide from now
I'll just ignore my fears
I wish that I could stop this crap
It's been my life for years

#EUPD #BPD #Insomnia #unwell
#MentalHealth

Depression PTSD #alone open.spotify.com/track/3P0DZ53GdMzwP3brAHaMkU

This song always seems to make me feel better so I thought I would share it with you all. I like to turn it up real loud and sing it at the top of my lungs. Written by Rob Thomas from Matchbox20 in 2003 here are the lyrics.

Unwell
Song by Matchbox Twenty

OVERVIEW
LYRICS
LISTEN

All day staring at the ceiling
Making friends with shadows on my wall
All night hearing voices telling me
That I should get some sleep
Because tomorrow might be good for something
Hold on
Feeling like I'm headed for a breakdown
And I don't know why
But I'm not crazy, I'm just a little unwell
I know right now you can't tell
But stay awhile and maybe then you'll see
A different side of me
I'm not crazy, I'm just a little impaired
I know right now you don't care
But soon enough you're gonna think of me
And how I used to be, me
I'm talking to myself in public
Dodging glances on the train
And I know, I know they've all been talking about me
I can hear them whisper
And it makes me think there must be something wrong with me
Out of all the hours thinking
Somehow I've lost my mind
But I'm not crazy, I'm just a little unwell
I know right now you can't tell
But stay awhile and maybe then you'll see
A different side of me
I'm not crazy, I'm just a little impaired
I know right now you don't care
But soon enough you're gonna think of me
And how I used to be
I've been talking in my sleep
Pretty soon they'll come to get me
Yeah, they're taking me away
But I'm not crazy, I'm just a little unwell
I know right now you can't tell
But stay awhile and maybe then you'll see
A different side of me
I'm not crazy, I'm just a little impaired
I know right now you don't care
But soon enough you're gonna think of me
And how I used to be
Hey, how I used to be
How I used to be
Well, I'm just a little unwell
How I used to be
How I used to be
I'm just a little unwell
Songwriters: Rob Thomas / Robert Thomas
Unwell lyrics © Sony/ATV Music Publishing

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