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Finally found a rheumatologist online and doing that. I know virtual care isn't greatest but in my area the wait for a rheumatologist is seven months away. I can't wait 9mos. Sorry not physically capable this is starting to take it's toll on me in everywhere possible.
#AutoimmuneDisease #PCOS #hypothroidism #inpain

Hi sorry I’m going through a tough time everything in life is wrong right now and I’m just trying to survive and start from zero again. Would anyone be ok being friends or checking in on each other from time to time ? DM Chat or comments ? Thank you if you don’t mind, I’m really struggling and need to reach out for help,

Gonna do my best to check out counselling if free or something I could afford as I’m unemployed and struggle to keep a job. Thank you for any kind words or anyone who doesn’t mind checking on each other everyone now and then. It would mean a lot during this hard time. Thank you everyone, and any help really means so much. #Selflove #Trying #Pain #inpain #Crisis #Tryinghard #hurt #anger #disappoinent #Unexpected #breakup #notcopingwell #ThankYou #lonely #friend #praying #hopeallworksout #ThankYou #reminders #Anxiety #Trying #future #Fear #Pain #Depression #help #self -help #needtobestrong #counselling #reachout #cheerup #DistractMe #needafriend

I just posted that I have been doing photography again as art therapy to help distract me from the depression. It is helping, but it is only short-term temporary relief.

I have also been in a lot of pain and discomfort with my back, so when I do go out to photograph things I really feel it afterwards. It also effects my job where I do a lot of bending and getting into abnormal positions.

My mind has been a big problem as well. I am having huge problems with focus, attention and retention. I get easily distracted which makes things take longer to do because I am constantly having to refocus. It is so aggravating. I am so frustrated with this. It effects everything I do in life, including the photography. I have seen doctors about this for years and have taken every medication to treat these problems. Nothing has worked. It has even gotten worse, especially after having ECT treatments.

I am really struggling and feeling hopeless and useless. What has really been frustrating and aggravating is that friends, doctors, therapists and well wishers all tell me this is all temporary and things will get better. Sometimes they do, but I always seem to end up struggling again. This has been anything but temporary. I have struggled with depression and anxiety for more than 40 years. I keep looking forward to better times. I have been let down so many times I don't look forward anymore.

#Depression #angry #inpain #useless #hopeless #ECT

So I was referred to a pain clinic since my primary no longer wants to prescribe me pain medication since she’s so against opioids. The ARNP at the clinic told me that in his experience vigorous exercise and Tai Chi has helped tremendously with his Fibromyalgia patients. Has anyone found that to be helpful?? I’m so tired and hurting all the time I don’t see how vigorous anything will help!
#inpain #Trying to get through the day

I’m living with this great anger and deep sadness. It feels like I’ve lost a part of who I am and now I need to play a part. I can no longer talk to my parents about any of this because I get shut down immediately.

I wish I wasn’t an overachiever at work, proving to those I’m qualified and to see me. I wish I’d just been mediocre. I would be lying if I didn’t say I enjoy the perks of being full time however how it was done and the loses it’s caused have haunted me since no matter what I do. My head is spinning, I don’t know what is right or wrong anymore just the anger, pain and sadness.

#sad #sadnesss #Anxiety #On #On #Depression #angry #inpain #Pain #help #soalone

I’ve been flaring for so long and I feel like I’m at my breaking point. I’ve been trying to stay positive through all this but the pain is becoming unbearable and I can barely do anything unassisted. I want to be held and just cry... #inpain #tired #flaring
#Arthritis #Lupus

People suck as if I wasn't having a hard enough time just getting through the day. Today I posted a picture of myself to my Instagram and some fucking troll just felt the need to call me fat. Its things like this that made me avoid social media and still make me avoid people. But somewhere along the line I decided that I wanted to be a part of the airsoft cyber verse. So I created a account and started posting. Idk why I bother with it heck even here I feel like a outcast. But I guess that's what I deserve for thinking that I might be able to be a part of a world where people just live to hurt each other, and the worst part is that there is nothing I can do about it. If I respond it'll just make things worse. I just need someone to know how much even something as simple as that hurts me. #Feelingdown #feelingaloneandlost #inpain #SuicidalThoughts #PTSD #MajorDepressiveDisorder #CheckInWithMe

My hope is that one of these days I will just die and be done with everything. No more worries about finances, finding a career, using my college degrees, being loved, looking for friends, and absolutely no more pain. #SuicidalThoughts #imtired #ChronicPain #mysurgerydidnthelpme #imscared #imlonely #inpain #ineedsomerelief