I just wanted to get this off my heart somewhere it would be received and understood.
In an effort to create some badly needed financial stability, I applied for a highly selective placement program and was chosen. I feel truly blessed and honoured for that much alone, but imagine my surprise when I was hand selected by the coordinators for one of their most valued clients! Unfortunately, in spite of excelling in every other qualification, I lost the opportunity because I cannot travel to their annual company event -- I cannot travel because of my condition, at least not without significant extra expense -- and that was a deal-breaker for the client.
Everyone was kind and honest about it, and I totally respect that this was a non-negotiable factor for the client. I'm incredibly thankful to be part of this program, and I know there will be other opportunities, and hopefully some of them will be as good and beneficial as I believe this one would have been for me. I have faith that something else good will come along which was meant for me.
But at the moment, I am feeling the sting of having my illness take something away from me yet again.
I am feeling a little sad, and a little discouraged. The searching and striving and hoop-jumping continue, the anxiety of uncertainty, and in the meanwhile I'm worried about finances, too.
I'm sure this community has experiences similar to this all the time. I really wanted to let this sadness out of my heart somewhere where it would be understood, where other people have experienced it in their own lives.
Thank you for receiving me, my Mighty friends. I feel stronger knowing I'm not alone on this path. 🙏🏼❤️🦋 Sending love and warmest blessings to each and every one of you! You are *precious*, beautiful, and important, and I see and honour you. 💜
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