Hardwork

Today I did a bunch of cooking for the upcoming holiday of Passover. There are many stringent rules to which one must adhere. I’m always impressed with myself when I make something with limited ingredients this is made of boiled potatoes, eggs, onions, salt and sugar

I’ve been working on a collection of essays for a book . It’s been keeping me alive. Something for which to hope, look forward to etc.. it was rejected and I’m pissed

:) I am at a new job and usually struggle to find or keep employment, so far everyone is nice and the training is better than at other places, but guess don’t want to feel alone in my struggles hiding my mental health at the workplace, maybe eventually I can reach out for help if they are accommodating, they offer some mental health supports partnerships so I’m incredibly lucky. Thanks for any tips and sharing your own story or struggles with work anxiety.

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I’m not sure if I should be proud of my hard work or disgusted at my need to work so hard to feel worthy . Yesterday I made twenty containers of soup, some cooked veggies and some other stuff. Today I made home made tomato sauce out of a CASE of tomatoes and I cooked four chickens, a pot of meat balls, shepherds pie (with ground chicken)
And a bunch of chicken burgers #feelingunworthy #Hardwork #busymom #nobusiness #Postop #Hysterectomy #selfloathing

Yesterday my sister dropped off a big piece of wood for my #hermit crabs to climb & perch themselves on. Was a very tough job I spent like 3 hrs. stuffing shells into the smaller spaces in it cuz one of the crabs got stuck when I first put it in the way it was. The shells had to be packed tightly against the wood & eachother so they wouldn't fall when the crabs climbed on them. They kept breaking thru over & over when I'd apply pressure to #test them.....got my temper up(frustration)& I got all upset & now I'm left exhausted & #hurting #bad again.(#temper - upsets especially make my #Fibromyaliga #Pain way worse. I meant to get to my msgs earlier. I woke way late & then did this & I'm too #Upset & exhausted https://now.i I need to be still & to listen to #Music & #unwind . I'll get to your msg's, dear #Friends & #mightywarriors ......soon as I can. {Sending ((((((HUGS)))))) & Lots of #Love 💗💕💕💕💕🙋

So being a supportive friend is important, but sometimes it’s just hard to stay positive. In the midst of all this COVID-19 madness some of us get to return to our somewhat normal lives earlier than others.
Of course I’m happy for my friend, but I just feel like there’s no fight left in me. Sometimes you just wish you could trade places and even problems.
I know in the morning I’ll still get up and look on the bright side, and be grateful for what I have and what I have achieved so far. I just wish for all of the #Hardwork to #payoff .

This image is a good reminder to be kind to ourselves.

#Work #MentalHealth #Productivity #Hardwork #Bekindtoyourself

This is one of the many things I use in the process of fixing my scoliosis curve, where the top one is 46 degrees and the bottom is unstable..... The place I’m going to for the treatment is in Pennsylvania, United States. That place uses devices to correct the curve and they train your body to be a new muscular and spinal position that benefits the curve correction.

For the device above, I wear it on my left hip and above my right hip. I add weights to the end of it, and stand on a balancing board for 15 minutes. It’s helping to stabilize my lower back.

I really recommend going there (The doctor’s name is Dr Clayton Stitzle). It’s an alternative to bracing, although there is an activity suit that you have to wear for a total of 40 minutes a day, and the people there are really nice and friendly.