Karma

Healer Pains

Full of Anger and rage
Feeling like I’m a animal locked in a cage
My nature is so misunderstood
Perhaps it’s time to move on from the hood
But I Love my independent city
Even though the committee ain’t take no pity

Isolated and assets frozen
Although they don’t yet know I’m part of God’s chosen
Treated like a hardcore criminal
My poem are definitely subliminal
If you know me, you’ll get it
Ain’t the usual one to quit

I walked away for self protection
So, wouldn’t be forced into flexion
Straight forward as it can be
Though I did flee, At least I’m free
Self love is a priority
Even if I ain’t in the majority

That don’t stop us from doing as we please
Perhaps, why I’m a narcissist that is to be put in a freeze
From trauma and vulnerabilities we came up,
Banged up, beat up - yet we still worked hard and built up
So, why the hate?
And all the jealousy mate?
Took you for free spins and fed you during your worst

You were injured and I was the one to bring you back to health and nursed
And now I’m cursed?
Don’t bite the hand that feeds you
One day, you gotta regret it my boo
True love, acceptance and understanding- heck, gave even my soul
Now, all this hurt masking as anger and making feel like a burning coal

Quite the toll, though I thought your love was free
Then, why the hefty fee?
Anger and rage on the front
Amidst a manhunt
Hurt and grief under the front
Perhaps, nows the time to get blunt

Yes, I am fucked up
And the only one who saved me is my pup
You were right, I was stupid
The only mistake I made was chasing Cupid
Don’t know my story yet think they know all
Destroying me so I forget to walk and can barely even crawl

Malicious prosecution and defamation
Think it’s a game of persuasion
It’s nothing more than a crime
To prevent me from the social and corporate climb
You think I forgot, that’s cute
I never forget a learned friend dispute

You know I’m better than you
And that’s a strong fact that’s more than just true
Don’t let simple nature and humble attitude fool you into arrogance
You caused me to lose my soul and become spiritless
The student is now the master
Now that deserves a round of applause and laughter

Karma is a mogul’s game
And though I don’t care for the fame, it ain’t gonna stop me from bringing the claim
Justice is overdue, stayed quiet for too long
Have come closer to being proven wrong
My only regret, had I spoken earlier
I would be worthier

Money is important but my people are my assets
They are the ones to get my out of bad debts
Got my back because we init for ride or die
They ain’t no supply, they real niggas on which we can rely
Now that’s a fact you cannot deny
My team here for the full and permanent long haul

And although right now, I’m back at the stage of crawl
I got the mindset and approach to stay resilient
Cuz I found out way too late that I’m more than just brilliant
Genius and gifted talent, that’s God’s chosen
So, let me give you a glimpse of my life in slow-motion
Watch out cuz this girl’s a tornado, not to be tamed

She won’t remain for much longer chained
It’s time to break free
And I think that’s something y’all agree #heartbreak #Love #Pain #growth #soulpain #selfhelp #SelfHealing #writings #Journaling #feelings #Emotions #validation #hurt #Grief #Loss #Rejection #abandonment #social isolation #punishment #Karma #sins #good #bad

Just found out what this is. Essentially it’s when you’re stuck in a cycle putting up with different people but the same triggers and attitude and the cycle won’t stop until you’ve learned your lesson. I’ve had to learn this the hard way. #checkin #karmiclesson #mentalwellbeing
#ChronicFatigue #Spirituality #checkin #BorderlinePersonalityDisorder #imbalance #Depression #Anxiety #ChronicDepression #Karma #learnsomethingnew #thirdeye

Ok.. ok.. karma, the universe, merphys laws ass.. what/who ever..
I got it ok... lesson learned for sure this time damn... #LessonLearned #betterlife #Karma #universe #Selfcare #done

here are days where I can feel me,
I can sense me, taste me.

The me I've been without...
The me I've been covering for...

The me lost within innocence,
The me controlled in confinement.

The me trembling in memories.
The me confused in unrememberance

I can feel me...

Stirring deep within.
Intolerably restless inside,
Rattling the walls of my body.

An itch in my throat...
My voice clawing it's way to auditory heights.

The empty pit In my belly...
Lies I've been fed.

The tickle upon my tongue...
Truth tied to uncertainty.

The ringing in my ears...
Thoughts too loud to hear

The fog in my head...
Choices masked in indecision and fear

I can feel me,
I can feel,

Embers fiercely burning fire back into my soul...
Melodies rhythmically beating song back into my heart.

I can feel me Awakening.
#CPTSD #PTSD #SexualAssault #RapeSurvivors #DomesticViolence #physicalabuse #EmotionalAbuse #Survivor #findingme #Selfdiscovery #Poetry #MentalHealth #TheMighty #Community #thereishope #MightyPoets #strength #mystory #myvoice #lost #Depression #Love #hate #justiceforsurvivors #monstersamongus #Abuse #justice #Karma #haveyourdayincourt

Nighttime is so difficult. It’s quiet. Dogs are snoring. Should be trying to sleep and all I can do is feel alone, lonely, not right, emotional, worthless, hopeless, empty. This is when I pray to not wake up in the morning. Then I get mad. Angry. Furious. Resentful. Who decides who gets a full life with love, joy & comfort and who gets a miserable existence of solitude and grief?? I sure must’ve treated them like horseshit in a past life. Hey buddy, can we sit and have a coffee so you can see I’m a nice, funny, worthy person?? #NotOK #Karma