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Hi I’m new. I don’t typically do groups because I’m usually the one running them as I am a therapist. However due to my medical issues a lot has taken a backseat.

I’m not sure really what I should share but it was a bad week, I cought a cold from a little kid and that set me into a week long flareup, today I’m walking.

But the best part is that I’ve put my clinical licensure on hold for about 10yrs because I’m a military spouse and I had one course to finish because of course the state had to tack something else on. Well I wasn’t able to finish the work on 2/1. I emailed the professor and explained but I did finish the work on 2/3. On 2/5 I opened my email and there was my certificate, the last step so I can sit for my LCSW exam!!! If you don’t know it’s a license to practice as an independent clinician/therapist.
I’m trying to stay positive but my body hates me!!!

Healer Pains

Full of Anger and rage
Feeling like I’m a animal locked in a cage
My nature is so misunderstood
Perhaps it’s time to move on from the hood
But I Love my independent city
Even though the committee ain’t take no pity

Isolated and assets frozen
Although they don’t yet know I’m part of God’s chosen
Treated like a hardcore criminal
My poem are definitely subliminal
If you know me, you’ll get it
Ain’t the usual one to quit

I walked away for self protection
So, wouldn’t be forced into flexion
Straight forward as it can be
Though I did flee, At least I’m free
Self love is a priority
Even if I ain’t in the majority

That don’t stop us from doing as we please
Perhaps, why I’m a narcissist that is to be put in a freeze
From trauma and vulnerabilities we came up,
Banged up, beat up - yet we still worked hard and built up
So, why the hate?
And all the jealousy mate?
Took you for free spins and fed you during your worst

You were injured and I was the one to bring you back to health and nursed
And now I’m cursed?
Don’t bite the hand that feeds you
One day, you gotta regret it my boo
True love, acceptance and understanding- heck, gave even my soul
Now, all this hurt masking as anger and making feel like a burning coal

Quite the toll, though I thought your love was free
Then, why the hefty fee?
Anger and rage on the front
Amidst a manhunt
Hurt and grief under the front
Perhaps, nows the time to get blunt

Yes, I am fucked up
And the only one who saved me is my pup
You were right, I was stupid
The only mistake I made was chasing Cupid
Don’t know my story yet think they know all
Destroying me so I forget to walk and can barely even crawl

Malicious prosecution and defamation
Think it’s a game of persuasion
It’s nothing more than a crime
To prevent me from the social and corporate climb
You think I forgot, that’s cute
I never forget a learned friend dispute

You know I’m better than you
And that’s a strong fact that’s more than just true
Don’t let simple nature and humble attitude fool you into arrogance
You caused me to lose my soul and become spiritless
The student is now the master
Now that deserves a round of applause and laughter

Karma is a mogul’s game
And though I don’t care for the fame, it ain’t gonna stop me from bringing the claim
Justice is overdue, stayed quiet for too long
Have come closer to being proven wrong
My only regret, had I spoken earlier
I would be worthier

Money is important but my people are my assets
They are the ones to get my out of bad debts
Got my back because we init for ride or die
They ain’t no supply, they real niggas on which we can rely
Now that’s a fact you cannot deny
My team here for the full and permanent long haul

And although right now, I’m back at the stage of crawl
I got the mindset and approach to stay resilient
Cuz I found out way too late that I’m more than just brilliant
Genius and gifted talent, that’s God’s chosen
So, let me give you a glimpse of my life in slow-motion
Watch out cuz this girl’s a tornado, not to be tamed

She won’t remain for much longer chained
It’s time to break free
And I think that’s something y’all agree #heartbreak #Love #Pain #growth #soulpain #selfhelp #SelfHealing #writings #Journaling #feelings #Emotions #validation #hurt #Grief #Loss #Rejection #abandonment #social isolation #punishment #Karma #sins #good #bad

Sorry if it sounds negative but any tips for when you’re feeling really low about yourself/ your life? Thanks 🙏

Appreciate any little pick me ups or those who can relate to this sometimes :c #lonely #sad #down #Low #hardonmyself #loser #lowselfesteem #Trying # headspace #Depression #Anxiety #Pickmeup #Tips #Selflove #Quotes #bad day #beatingmyselfupemotionally #selfsabotage #wantselflove #wanttoworkonselfcompassion

Hey everyone.
I don't feel quite well. I feel like something bad is happening.
What do you do when it is happening to you?

#bad feelings

I don’t know if anyone has experienced this. When I’m driving sometimes I feel like vearing off the road and hitting a tree and getting into an accident. #Anxiety #Depresion #Thinking #bad thoughts

Today I’m really surrering. My legs are both swollen. They burn (I think it’s an infection). But both hips and knees are giving me problems. I think I’m gonna ask my Doctor to X-Ray all of them to see which is worse and I’ll get surgery on it. I have an artificial right hip and left knee.I’ve had my right hip replaced; for a second time a few years ago but I don’t think it’s doing good and it can’t be replaced or even corrected a third time. My left knee is long past dule for a second replacement. My right knee feels like it’s bone on bone as does my left hip. So I see my Dr next week and I’ll get him to do those and I’ll bring them all to my surgeon and see what he thinks. I just want the pain gone! NOW!!!!
Sorry about complaining, I try not to but this is ridiculous.

#Christians on the Mighty #type II diabetes #always in bed #chronic pain #fibro #scoliosis #ibs #ocd # Mighty pets #52 small things #mighty minute #mighty bits #gratitude #grace #jesus #bible Study #christian #me/CFS #tmj #myalgic Encephalomyelato ##myofacial pain syndrome #secondary sjögres syndrome #gerd #bad hips #bad knees