Anxiety Doesnt Knock First

I love when I can just sit her with depression, anxiety, ADHD plus find out that you dealt with child abuse all your life, plus deal with confusing doctors as you deal with pain that just gets worse. Not only that you have to worry about school work, judgement and harassment at school, trying to make friends, and be the older sibling who protects, watches over, and is in charge of the other sibling (even if you are the younger one).

Hey, guys I apologize for dumping this here, but yea. I'm new. *shrugs*

I definitely want a new ent I’m needing better care who can offer advice? I don’t want to keep getting repeated sinus and bronchial infections. And also don’t want to take nasal sprays. Any advice for me should I change ents?if this guy couldn’t even find a deviated septum and no sinuses up top? #PTSD #sinussurgery #sinusitis #sinusitis #sinusitus #sinusproblems #ent #Bipolar2Disorder #BipolarDepression #BipolarDisorder #BorderlinePersonalityDisorder #Anxiety #ObsessiveCompulsiveDisorder #CPTSD #PolycysticOvarySyndrome #Anxiety #GastroesophagealRefluxDisease #GeneralizedAnxietyDisorder #BorderlineStigma #Upallnight #CheckInWithMe #MightyQuestions #TheMightyTakeaway #TheMighty #HashimotosThyroiditis #HypothyroidismUnderactiveThyroidDisease #DBT #Friends #Love #DatingWithAChronicIllness #lonely #self #Selflove #Yoga #Meditation #Art #Photography #Music #Reading #Writing #Sports #Nature #Healthyeating #Exercise #AnxietyDoesntKnockFirst #Sleep #FibroFog #Fibromyalgia #FibromyalgiaDiagnosis #FibromyalgiaAwarenessDay

I’d been doing so well. I would right a to do list (and stick to it), which I was very proud of. I applied and got into college to study journalism. I even practiced my writing, by writing a vingette of my own design, I was even confident enough to post it(even tho I knew what would happen), and it happened, no one liked it shocker there. I even sent it to my friends, they didn’t get it. It just feels like when I try no one cares, but when I’m not looking or being my best/authentic self is when everyone wants to see. No one wants to see me succeed, and I just don’t know why. I’ll never do it again, that’s for sure. #BipolarDepression #Worthlessness #AnxietyDoesntKnockFirst

Sometimes you allow me a day to be calm and centred. Then there are days when you wave at me around every corner. But oh boy then there are the days where you stop me straight in my tracks.

You are not me but you are a part of me. I cannot imagine my life without you but I wish you weren't there. You are the bane to my existence yet we are one.

I hate you. I love you. Please let me sleep tonight. #Anxiety #AnxietyDoesntKnockFirst #SocialAnxiety #GeneralizedAnxietyDisorder #MentalHealth

I’m 16. I suffer from Anxiety disorder, Social Anxiety disorder, Depression and OCD. I’ve had these basically all of my life, but was diagnosed just this year officially. I wanted to come on this app to find people like me. To find people who have the same struggles, same thought process, and same “malfunctions”. I struggle daily because of my disorders, as I know many of you do as well. I want to help those who need it. I understand. I’ve been in your shoes and i’m so young. I cry myself to sleep most nights, I lose my appetite so much, I have irregular heart rates and I sweat uncontrollably in my hands, even during the cold seasons. I know what it feels like to fall down, dirt in my face, mud on my knees, but I’ve always gotten up stronger than I was when I fell. I know what it feels like to be your own shoulder to cry on because you had no one else to be there for you. I know what it feels like to can’t get the cruel thoughts out of your head eating you away day by day. It’s terrible and I wish I could take it away from myself and everyone else. I’m here for you, for us. We can do this. ❤️ #EndTheStigma #AnxietyDoesntKnockFirst #BeautifullyBroken

The suffocating.

It starts as a small cloud, so small I can barely notice it.
I'm a little tired, don't really want to go out.
It's not really a big deal, not even worth mentioning.
It's fine, I'm fine I say it will pass by so soon I know it goes away.
Logic tells me nothing is wrong, life's good, you should feel great.

Then the suffocating comes.
The air gets thicker, I disappear,
The fog is dark and my mind is grey.
My thoughts make no sense, I stay inside.
Even If I told them, what would I say?
I just breathe as deep as I think I can. It's a lie that I won't entertain.
I'm so mad that I didn't stop it this time. Next time I won't suffocate.

#Anxiety #AnxietyDoesntKnockFirst #Suffocating

So I’m a highly extrovert person and you’ll always find me smiling and happy on the outside and I try to enjoy the little things in life but when my anxiety kicks in all goes to hell, I’m fighting a battle within myself everyday, getting up in the morning is a task and I mean it, there are days I just wanna stay in my bed all day, I’m feeling low soo often , a tiny small thing can trigger and quite literally ruin my whole day , and I feel that I have no way out. My anxiety has caused me friendships, I never know when my anxiety will kick in and it ruins everything. I’m 20 and I’ve never had a boyfriend. My anxiety ruins it before anything starts, I know my anxiety will be the death of me one day
#AnxietyTriggers #AnxietyDoesntKnockFirst #Anxiety

This anxious pounding heart of mine won’t stop worrying about what could happen and what could not and it makes me feel like I’m loosing my mind. I haven’t slept like normal people in a month i feel like i can feel everything and feel empty and numb all at once. i can hear the little sounds and it irritates me and i guess any kind of sounds I’m sensitive to light it makes want to stab myself if someone turned the lights on. and I notice everything and I can’t focus at all my eyes are wide open I’m forgetting everything as fast as you can imagine i can be listening to a song and pause it because i feel like I’ve got to remember something or should think about something specific. My body is like a bruise it hurts so bad I don’t want anyone to touch me and I’m exhausted and my stomach is pounding too and my muscles are tension especially my neck. What i feel is indescribable and I can’t put it in words I can’t tell it to anyone even if i try to express anything they give me this confused look and oh my god i wish they can understand I ramble with words and no one understands and then i flip out and start to shout like a crazy bitch. You know what i wanna do? I want to scream my lungs out. I want to sleep and not for half an hour and then wake up noo mean an eight hour sleep. I want to take care of myself again my skin is a mess and my hair too. my room is a mess and for who knows me well knows how I’m so neat and I’m this obsessive clean bitch who hates to see or sit around anything unorganized. I want to stop staring at the wall or any other thing for hours without thinking of anything it’s like someone unplugged my brain and everything. And i want to smoke a whole pack of cigarettes. I want to get out of my house it’s been a long while and everyday i tell myself I’m gonna get out tomorrow and then i feel like nah I don’t want to. I don’t drink anything if i ever feel thirsty and there’s a glass of water in front of me i keep starting at it like I’m paralyzed and the same with food. I always feel like I want to rip off my clothes. I’m always having this image of me holding knives and ripping off my skin making a long and big cuttings on my neck and on my chest in order to be able breathe again. Imagine trying to find air while you’re underwater. Impossible. #Anxiety #PanicDisorder #Selfharm #Depression #ChronicDailyHeadache #Fatigue #AnxietySymptoms #AnxietyAttacks #AnxietyDoesntKnockFirst #PanicAttacks #NoOneFightsAlone #ChronicPain