One of the biggest ways that Satan can get you is by keeping you busy.
The one thing you can always count on is that life constantly changes Opposition in all things there will always be good and bad. Joy and struggles
It is very important to celebrate ALL wins, no matter how small
You ARE Worthy!
A little magnet from the dollar store that I'm going to give to one of my sister's kids.
At last finished!
One of her better pics!!😊😊
The sun WILL Rise
My hometown, the place I never realized how much I would miss, has taken quite a few blows from depression attacking our own so profoundly that they don’t think they could ever get back up again.
This has been a very hard week, and not just because I have had good friendships with these people but because of the life and friendship taken from me when I was just 16 and we were in high school. For some reason our generation has lost so many so very young. More fingers I have on my hands and as I age, the number rises. And still most of us are only 27!
I never would have had any run-ins with depression in my own life until my pain became so extreme that my positive endlessly optimistic soul was so weighted down. It is only through my faith, gospel studies, and many many priesthood blessing that I have overcome.
Suddenly I understood Daniel’s power in fighting to overcome that terrible beast.
One of my favorite songs during that time (despite not liking music very much since it causes me more pain with my already high level making sound waves hurt even more than accidently being bumped into by people who don’t realize I have the body of a decrepit 95yr old) was the song: The Sun will Rise by Kelly Clarkson.
The darkest struggles we face tend to come out late into the night and just before morning light. It is natural as we are very social creatures and when we don’t have people to distract us from our inner turmoils, we suddenly are without a foundation and being overcome by waves on every side.
I have always tried to aim for solutions rather than patching up the holes in my boat. And so I faced my own depression only brought on by very severe pain. I had it easy-and I don’t say that in jest but in total seriousness. For me, that answer was to hold onto that future light.
The way I have made it through each second of my pain is in hope that the next one might not be as bad. My pain is full body and moves and twists each feeling towards cruel pain. But the key word is: moves. I can count on it changing into some other pain from burning to dull or from sharp to burning cold. Strange, I know, but the trick is finding that pattern. I have learned that if I can last the hours it takes -or days- or even sometimes weeks and months until it moves or changes again, then that is what I must do.
So did I do that with my depression. I know that good will come. Even in a life full of pain I still have lovely rare moments of joy and I savor it and look forward to that next good moment. I look for the good to survive the bad.
I never know the timing of my latest health struggles or the latest loss of function or normalcy, but I CAN count on life always changing. We never know what good the future will bring. Even when my history tells me life will only continue on a horrible path, good is still found amidst the gravel. A daisy here, a sunflower there. But first we must LOOK!
I know we all have our own depression and it hits everyone else worse than it did me. But I also know we have a merciful God who will ALWAYS give us a cane or railing to hold tight to until that next good thing can find us. But we MUST keep holding on to discover that good. We must hold on until that joy can cross our path.
When I first started looking for a health forum to find support on with people who understood the real toll that came with chronic pain, one of my staunches supporters cheered me on with these words: “Don’t you quit! Don’t you give up! What if they find a treatment or cure for your health issues and pain tomorrow?? You would wish you had held on and kept going wouldn’t you?”
A better tomorrow seems like a fickle thing. But life doesn't always just give us good or bad though most of us try to present only our best selves and not the parts of us that look rough after a terrible night of sobbing and holding our pillow tight.
Sometimes distraction is the answer to help us get through the worst of times-and that is OK! Popping in my favorite heartfelt movies(Last Holiday or Collateral Beauty) and indulging in some cookies or ice cream is so worth it if it helps me forget the misery my body loves to lay at my door. But what if our cure came tomorrow? What if tomorrow IS that day we have been waiting for where things seem to finally fall together?
As the song says, The sun WILL rise. And so must me because I promise you God is preparing a spectacular sunrise just for you!
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