I have been at home now for over a month. It’s been a rocky time for me. First two weeks were good. I had a plan of cleaning eating when to take a walk how much tv i was going to watch. By week 3, boom gone! I had an anxiety attaxk, my partner became nonsupport, i turned inward fast. I became critical of everything i was and wasn’t doing during this time away from work. So i told myself to stop it. I picked up a book and read til i finished it. I set an alarm to wake up, some days it works some days not so much. I then finished another book titled “The Hidden School” by Dan Millman. It was a great read. I recommend it. With all that now it is time to face the one thing that i have always dealt with which is my body image. It is so true that until you get the inside taken care of the outside will not move.
For years of my life, i have denied myself who I am to try and fit in. I am a gay man who is spiritual and someone who has a calling to help others and be a light in this dark world. In doing so, my outside has taken a lot of beating and now it’s time to take care of it. I started using shakes as a meal, i signed up for a home fitness challenge with a friend, and i am using positive words to describe myself. I have to tell you this is the hardest battle for me but i can do it. #Anxiety #BodyPositive #BodyImage #quarantinethoughts #Gay #PTSD #Trauma #loveyourself #Mindfulness