2 am thoughts…
Trouble sleeping has kicked in yet again, and I know my worsening mental health isn’t helping, either. This September will be twenty years of my chronic migraines. Or, more so, the horrendous pain and symptoms that literally have never left my side.
A few months ago, I was diagnosed with trigeminal neuralgia. Additionally, I have fibromyalgia, depression, and anxiety. That said, I’m pretty dang certain I’m AudADHD and leaning towards POTS and/or hEDS.
But while these ailments continue to worsen and affect my ability to work greatly, I can’t get myself to address these “newer” thoughts and issues with my doctor. The feeling of being a burden on anyone runs far too deep, and I’m honestly unsure of what would be the right amount and timing of addressing things before becoming annoying or appearing to be drug-seeking or a hypochondriac.
Does anyone else struggle with bringing up new ideas or issues? The worst part is my PCP is amazing and I know she wouldn’t brush me off. But those inner beliefs and fears of burdening anyone is far too great.
I’m not necessarily looking for advice or anything. Just feeling very isolated right now and needed to get thoughts into writing. Perhaps maybe I’m not the only one who feels this way?
Course, the panic attack this afternoon certainly did not help any.
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