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Hi there I usually post quotes on a mental health friendly supportive Instagram account, occasionally I journal or blog very rarely on blogs I’ve tried before, but I’ve never ever been brave enough to show my face and actually try a YouTube account D: and not be more anonymous behind the screen supporting. I would really appreciate any love or opinions before I risk getting hate comments or trolls with mental health stigma haha > mental health advocate than 😅😂🤣 people actually see it. But I would love to be able to help someone out there not feel so alone in their struggles or offer hope if they are just beginning their journey or could use some kind words/ experiences

If anyone could give me a bit of a boost 😂 so I don’t freak out or overthink the fact I actually did this and made it public and it could actually become something meaningful, I appreciate it! But if not :) I’ll do my best to do it myself, thanks! I tried to be brave and just do it instead of only think about it as a new hobby/ outlet.

My YouTube channel is:

My Anxiety Journey

Or was thinking

Inside My Anxiety Journey, since it’ll be pretty personal ^^ and genuine/ raw :p at times telling my experiences or what it’s like struggling with an invisible illness, physical/ mental.

Thanks!

Appreciate any love
I feel so nervous and embarassed. But actually proud I had the guts to do it D: though I was so back and forth about it.

Hope I’ll stick to it whether I receive good feedback or not, to actually make a meaningful difference and get more courage to do other things like this with advocacy groups or opportunities.

youtube.com/@laurao2107

PS the 3 views are probably me 😅😂 overthinking and analyzing it too much but trying not too haha 😛 😆. I’m a work in progress lmfao 🤣 lol.

A really big deal to me, because I’m perfectly fine being open about my experiences and trying to help or relate to others and support them too, but not used to putting it on the internet like that with my face D: and fear the stigma or openness about it it’s so risky hehe but worth it :) in a way. So I hope it’ll be the start of something new and good. Feel free to share if you have any blogs, YouTube accounts or any fun hobbies/ outlets too ! :)

Also** I’m not posting to promote it, hope it’s allowed here, just needed a little love or support so I don’t back out on my idea 😅😅🥺😭😿💡💖😊😛😆😆😆 because I feel so alone in my experiences sometimes, and don’t want others to feel like that too.

And be alone struggling.

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Today is 15 days until I get to see my boyfriend!! He makes me so happy that I'm not even sure how to handle it at this point. But he also makes me feel safe, even if we're just talking on the phone or on face time. He's my home...

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I feel cute in my outfit, and optimistic about this year!!

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Well its Sunday night and I'm sitting here in front of my laptop listening to sad music with a Tui (favourite beer) and feeling very unsure on everything after a pretty okay day. This morning went to my cousins hockey games and got to have good chats with my aunty. I got home mid afternoon and my flatmate and best friend looks at me with a worried concerned look. She said to "there's 2 things i have to tell you and i don't know if you'll be mad" i made a joke but fuck i was worried something really bad happened. So she tells me she is going out to dinner with an ex that lives in the same city as us, which i didn't care it doesn't bother me. But then she said "How do you feel about *name* and this "name" was a girl in my last year of high school that i asked to the ball and was so excited and eventually asked to be my GF before the ball because we talked so much and i was really liking her. the next day she said she changed her mind. i felt like shit, then she started not talking to me and basically hating me and i never understood why i tried to explain everything and she treated me like i was invisible and all our conversations were nothing. Now all the memories of no self worth and utter jealousy is flooded back and my flatmate said she wants to visit. All i can think of is what did i do? why did i become a stain on her life ? i wanted something with her so bad and the very thought of seeing her again makes my heart twist because i want to not care but a first heartbreak never leaves and of course i said to my flatmate i dont care. i dont want her to feel she has to keep her away. part of me wants to see her again but part of me wants to be out of town that day. this was 4 fucking years ago how am i not over something so small. Why can i never move on and why do i treat people so shit after how well i wanted to treat her. What is wrong with me. Why can't i live a normal life. Why do i have to fear the thought of waking up. Really wish my flatmate didn't tell me she was coming and just avoided me. Now i am so worried of bumping into her and remembering why i wanted her....

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