okay

Have had some moments, and even a whole day, where I feel “okay” lately. It is still a tenuous okay, not fully rooted but undeniably coming through at times. Because it is so new and slippery, it makes me feel shaky. I know I will come up against a really bad day again, and I am terrified of that. Crashing into depression after a period of stability hurts all the more because I am so aware of what I’ve lost. I also wonder if I will ever feel good, or if okay is the best I can do. Okay is a massive improvement from where I have been (and from where I still am at times), so I couldn’t complain if that is all I get. But I want to feel good. #Depression #MajorDepressiveDisorder #Anxiety #SuicidalIdeation #Selfcare #MentalHealth #okay

Sorry I haven't posted in a while. I'm not doing okay right now. And I just couldn't compose my thoughts. All I want to say is. I couldn't write any encouragement cause I felt like it would make me a hypocrite. Because all the encouragement, I won't believe myself. I know that others can make it through this. Like I believe in you all so much. But when it comes to me , I feel like I'm just too weak.

Stay strong. Stay safe. You'll be okay.

I promise.

#BorderlinePersonalityDisorder #Depression #lonely #okay #staysafe #Needabreak

So today was one of the most okay days I’ve had in a few weeks. I volunteered at this Duck Race to End Racism thing which was so much fun & so important & it made me feel good to be a part of that .. a part of something that matters. Reminded me that I have a reason to be here .. & that I need to share my light .. as do we all with everyone we encounter. I also walked so much today! I can barely feel my legs but it felt so good being out there enjoying the weather .. the sun beating down on me .. I don’t know .. I’m not great, better or anything but today was an okay day & I’ll take it. ☀️🖤 #Depression #Anxiety #ObsessiveCompulsivePersonalityDisorder #PTSD #Grief #MentalHealth #okay

I’m okay I’m okay I’m okay I’m okay I’m okay I’m okay I’m okay I’m okay I’m okay I’m okay

Maybe if I say it enough, it’ll be true

#Anxiety #okay #coping ?

Are you okay? yep I’m fine. Right because if we ever tell you that we’re not okay you lose it convincing our subconscious to be okay. But the problem is that okay is not a mental state you can be at or an emotion. The sooner people realise this but if any one asks we’re okay ? #Anxiety #Depression #ObsessiveCompulsiveDisorder #MentalIllness