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    Struggling…again

    I am in a viscious cycle and have been for a while. I am losing control in my social, study and work life and as a result have felt the need to control My mood swings by going through the drive through which then leads to me not going grocery shopping and saying I’m not eating for a week and the cycle continues. I got to guilty for my birthday (which was Sunday) where I was constantly offered food I felt like I had to eat or order something despite feeling I’ll or not feeling hungry. I ended up asking my parents for their leftover optislim packets because I felt disgusting. I don’t know where to start to get back to healthy. The start of this year I wasn’t eating anything bad one piece of toasted gf bread with nothing on it and lost 10kg. I am back to being heavier than I was when I started this year. I don’t know where to go or how to fix this and I feel like a complete failure. I feel worse than when I got the diagnosis. Physically, emotionally, psychologically and digestively I am not coping. What do I do and where do I go? I am completely overwhelmed and there’s no step by step guide here
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    Stigmas surrounding eating disorders makes it even harder for people to heal.

    It took me a while to realize that my schedule and daily plans all evolved around how many calories I was eating/drinking, and that realization was a bit concerning. When 'making progress' meant I was now able to go out and eat in a restaurant or drink outside with my friends, that's when I knew something was off: I was struggling with a problem I couldn't identify and I had no idea why or how I ended up like that.

    Some behaviors such as obsessively counting calories every day by tracking each food and its macros (and feeling anxious if you don't), avoiding social situations not to drink too many calories or eat "junk food", eating the same every day and not being able to bear with changes (having your 'safe food/safe products), weighting both yourself and your food every day or multiple times a week, these are all symptoms of an eating disorder (sidenote: I do not intend to diagnose anyone, it's just for context).

    When we think of 'eating disorder', most of us have a certain idea of how someone struggling with it might look like: most of the times, it's either the very thin person or the very heavy one, no in-between. Although these characteristics might be true in many scenarios, they are absolutely not the only ones. Anybody can struggle with one, regardless of your weight, size and shape, and this is something I wasn't aware of, which is exactly what invalidated my daily struggle. I didn't look like someone struggling with an eating disorder or how they portray it on the media, so nobody could really tell something was wrong with my behavior, not even myself!

    This is a reminder that if you feel that you're anxious all the time about what you're going to eat next, if food worries you too much and you feel like your life might be changing or even depending on it, if you can't stop thinking about it, or if you're constantly body checking, please ask for help or talk about it. I know it's hard to do so, specially with these stigmas or people trying to tell you "you look healthier now", and it might be even harder to share it if it's something you're not sure of (undiagnosed or mild symptoms). My inbox is open to chat if you feel like you're ready to share, and so is the comment section so we can all support each other. Stay strong!

    #EatingDisorders #Anxiety #Depression #CheckInWithMe #Cheermeup #BorderlinePersonalityDisorder #AnorexiaNervosa #Bulimia #BingeEatingDisorder

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    My psychiatrist wants to change my antidepressant. Actually, I'm on Zoloft and she wants to change it with prozac. I just want to feel better.

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    advice on healthily loosing weight with an ED, HEDS, PCOS, Depression etc. ??

    I am currently quite overweight and I want to get into better shape and loose weight for myself and was told to by my doctors. but that seems almost impossible with all of my illnesses. First of all I have an Eating disorder (not specified, more binge eating) which makes food and body image very complicated and then I have PCOS, hashimoto’s and hypothyroidism which is already hard to loose weight with on top of hypermobile EDS which makes getting active and moving physically very hard and painful and to top it off low energy and motivation with depression. I’m trying to do this to just slightly feel better but I don’t exactly how. How do you stay in shape with these kinds of setbacks? i’m open to any advice! Thank you <3 #BingeEatingDisorder #PolycysticOvarySyndrome #HypothyroidismUnderactiveThyroidDisease #HashimotosThyroiditis #HEDS #hypermobileehlers-DanlosSyndrome(hEDS) #EhlersDanlosSociety #EhlersDanlosSyndrome #Depression

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    I’m new here!

    Hi lovely community, my name is Swiftdream as one of my favorite person is Taylor Swift. I'm here because I feel lost and bad because even though my professional career seems to be good I don’t seem to be grateful with what I already have and I’ve been years secretly struggling with an eating disorder that made me gain weight and become obsessed about how my body looks. My lack of confidence in myself and my compulsive bad habits make me follow a very unhealthy lifestyle, both physically and mentally. I’m currently obese and I only tell this things to my mum, which makes her suffer. I don’t feel ready yet to seek professional mental help. Somedays I feel better but somedays I’m not okay and this feeling is making me miserable. I feel ashamed of who I am and the problems I have.

    #MightyTogether #Depression #Anxiety #EatingDisorder #bingeeatingdisorder

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    Breaking free

    Hello!

    I wanted to share with everyone my journey through breaking free from my attachment issues, anxiety and toxic environment.

    A little back story: My name is Sally, I am 28 years old diagnosed with Rheumatoid Arthritis, anxiety,depression,PCOS and binge eating disorder. My life was semi on hold for 6 years now because of all my illnesses. I had anxiety for as long as I remember I think from the time that my father passed away when I was 5 years old. My mother also suffers from all the diagnoses I have which made it hard for her to care for my emotional needs.

    My family is very toxic, since I was young I was made fun of how I look and how I weight. No one really cared about me when I was sick too which made me unaware about my health and made me accept a lot of pain that could have been taken care of if I listened to the signals my body gave me. I actually gave up on living and was living like a zombie until now.

    A year ago I met my boyfriend, a guy from South-Korea who has treated me with care and love for this whole year and made me realize how easy it was for my family to help me get out of this emotional pain. If there was just a part of the support my boyfriend gave me from them maybe I wouldnt have suffered this much.

    My mother is very protective and controlling. I never could make choices in my life, I also never slept over at someone or travelled with friends or alone.

    But I too was overly attached to my emotionally unavailable mother always begging to be loved. But when time went by I noticed that I was stuck while everyone was going forward. My brother who is 5 years younger than me got married which kind off pulled a plug in me.

    I am so happy for him but I also felt a big embarrassment and disappointment in myself and all the things my mother and stepdad said came in to mind.

    "No one wants a fat woman" "you are disgusting" "I will only hug you if you lose weight "you cant sit on my bed you might break it"

    My health was never their priority it was always how I looked. I was unhappy and I was sick, I barely ate but my anxiety made me always throw up or binge eat but all that mattered is how I will look at my brothers wedding.

    I decided it was time for me to take distance from them and decided to move to South-Korea for a few months until the wedding to be with my boyfriend. My anxiety was killing but I am managing it by writing here and being aware about my feelings.

    A lot of thoughts in my mind "Your boyfriend will also think you are disgusting" "His parents will hate you because you are sick and fat"

    I felt so sad thinking those things since I was always a person who had a lot of confidence and amazing energy.

    Tomorrow is the day that I will leave for the first time in my life I made a decision on my own and I chose to get out of my comfort zone and tackle my mental illnesses hard to be happy.

    Its been enough. I had enough of hating myself while i have been through so much and still am going through a lot. I had enough of my family treating me this way but me still being so attached to them and being scared to leave the toxic environment.

    Only God knows how sick I feel right now to leave but its my first step to happiness and healing.

    I hope I can share this journey with you guys and people who have some tips and tricks please let me know. The love is needed as I really have no one around me to support me at the moment.

    I am sorry for the stories being so messed up together its because I am writing through my emotions now but I promise I will keep you guys updated and will write in a more understandable way next time.

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    Sally

    #Depression #Healing #Arthritis #BingeEatingDisorder #Anxiety #Toxic #PolycysticOvarySyndrome

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    Bingeing again

    Tw: bingeing ?

    I just binge ate again. My stomach hurts because it is so full. I have started a new no added/artificial sugar and low carb lifestyle. I don’t consider it a diet because it is something permanent and not a fad or intended for weight loss. Diabetes runs in my family and I have a really bad sugar addiction. I consume candy and sweets in such excess and until I make myself sick. I am doing low carb because carbs turn into sugar in the body. It’s been almost a week and I still crave some kinds of sugar but mostly bread.

    Anyways, I think I binge ate because one: I stayed up too late. That’s a MAJOR trigger. I could largely avoid my binge eating if I would just go tf to sleep sooner. The problem with that is I am a huge night owl and it feels like my only true alone time for some reason even though I have all day to myself lately. Idk. It’s complicated. But anyways the second trigger I think may be stress from well work but also from my mom.

    My mother decided to randomly tell me at dinner (at a public restaurant in front of family) that I’m just “not very creative, I don’t like strive to be creative and do creative things…like I (my mom) do”. This is not uncommon behavior for her. She often just insults me for not reason at all and it is seemingly random, although I’m sure it is not. I mean who the fuck says that shit to their kid?

    And besides it’s not even kind of true. I literally sing and play ukulele and a bit of piano. I can draw. And I do pointillism really well. I just have no motivation to do these things due to stress, depression, and ADHD. And like, she never does anything creative so i dont know what tf she is talking about. She is always comparing us. It is always a competition. I wonder if she is histrionic sometimes.

    She also got drunk at the restaurant and walked around the grocery store drunk. This was a huge stressor for me. I hate being around her like that.

    #PTSD #ChildhoodAbuse #BingeEatingDisorder #EatingDisorders #MentalHealth

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    Bingeing again

    Tw: bingeing ?

    I just binge ate again. My stomach hurts because it is so full. I have started a new no added/artificial sugar and low carb lifestyle. I don’t consider it a diet because it is something permanent and not a fad or intended for weight loss. Diabetes runs in my family and I have a really bad sugar addiction. I consume candy and sweets in such excess and until I make myself sick. I am doing low carb because carbs turn into sugar in the body. It’s been almost a week and I still crave some kinds of sugar but mostly bread.

    Anyways, I think I binge ate because one: I stayed up too late. That’s a MAJOR trigger. I could largely avoid my binge eating if I would just go tf to sleep sooner. The problem with that is I am a huge night owl and it feels like my only true alone time for some reason even though I have all day to myself lately. Idk. It’s complicated. But anyways the second trigger I think may be stress from well work but also from my mom.

    My mother decided to randomly tell me at dinner (at a public restaurant in front of family) that I’m just “not very creative, I don’t like strive to be creative and do creative things…like I (my mom) do”. This is not uncommon behavior for her. She often just insults me for not reason at all and it is seemingly random, although I’m sure it is not. I mean who the fuck says that shit to their kid?

    And besides it’s not even kind of true. I literally sing and play ukulele and a bit of piano. I can draw. And I do pointillism really well. I just have no motivation to do these things due to stress, depression, and ADHD. And like, she never does anything creative so i dont know what tf she is talking about. She is always comparing us. It is always a competition. I wonder if she is histrionic sometimes.

    She also got drunk at the restaurant and walked around the grocery store drunk. This was a huge stressor for me. I hate being around her like that.

    #PTSD #ChildhoodAbuse #BingeEatingDisorder #EatingDisorders #MentalHealth

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